Will you ever be sad to see someone who was once on fire and strong for Christ facing difficulties after difficulties and started to fall away?

In my year in the ministry...

Regardless is it from other zone or my own zone.

I had seen a no of this.

Not as much as some of the people but enough to feel their pains for them.

Time after time, great potential can be seen in these people's lives, yet the trials of life beaten them.

The determination to fight on is ceasing.

And the love toward God is fading.

Whenever I heard about their lives.

Cried and sadness filled my heart.

Will I be like them?

I asked.

Will I forget Your love when trials and tribulations hit me?

Lot of times, these questions flooded me.

To walk with God is never easy.

The attacks from the devils.

The mock voices from people who are even close to you.

The struggles to be better not because people told you so but you know you must change.

Yet I know one truth remains.

As long as I love God and remember His goodness, I won;t fall back.

For sadness is short-term but the joy of the Lord is for eternity.

Even at my down moments.

Even when I am not doing well.

Even when those close to me hurt me.

Even when I hurt myself mentally.

The truths remains.

My God love me to His maximum capacity.

Life is boring without Him.

That is for sure.

The past and the world outside might look tempting yet the consequences are not.

To fallen away is to go to hell even without dying physically.

So much of sorrows and only my Lord can take it away.

So much regrets and only my Lord can wash it away.

So much mistakes and only my Lord can cleanse it away.

So much darkness and only my Lord can purify it.

The future is in our hands.

Never look back and regrets.

But look toward the future and rejoice.

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At the crossroad of life.

I saw a vision.

To choose to follow You and forsake all.

Or to follow the loves of the world.

I lifted up my finger and point forward.

To the path that lead to a journey of unknown.

It is the road that walk with You my God.

It seem narrow and uneven.

But compare to the wide and smooth path.

Though it seem harder to walk.

But it look exciting to me.

It might seem hard but I know at the end of it.

It is You that is with me.

I am willing to let go.

Of all that I held strongly to.

Just to follow Your ways.

Determination win all.

And it win over my feelings.

My emotions.

My fears.

My doubts.

For I got You with me.

And only You with me...

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One conversation with JY reminded me of the ups and downs of being with God.

The sharing of what his leader once told him about being firm and let times be the prove of everything really showed me that how matter how tough life might seem at times but it is always the faithfulness we have toward God that proved everything.

Those that are not teachable.

Those that are impure.

Those that disobey the word of God.

Those that choose to give up this journey with God.

They all give up because they can't stand the testing of the heavenly fire.

How many of us have thought of give up and how many of us are willing to fight until now just to be with the Lord.

It is the perserverance fire inside of us that will bring us to the destiny that God has for us.

Holding on.

Never let go.

And time shall be the best proof of our life.

Labels: Perservance