Understanding the meaning of being wise...
Being wise in the words that we said
Being wise in the relationships that we have
Being wise in every single details
I hoped to be wise, even though sometimes I lashed out when at times things get out of control.
Relationships being taken advantage of.
Friends relying too much or ask too much and it become a one way trip.
Think of it, always ask for a close friend but none appear.
If I never has one?
What shall I do?
Someone once asked me.
Now I understand...
Companion started with friendship but I must learn to move on for the higher I go, the more soothing companion I would find.
Sadness overwhelmed me.
Don't murder my life by letting me wait unnecessary for the commandment said, "do not murder."
Sometimes, it's good to voice it out isn't it?
Be it physically waiting for someone to arrive because of a promise to meet or waiting for something to happen.
Sometimes, I treasured friendships too much that waiting become a habit for me, and to think, other higher authority once told me that sometimes got to let go of the need for companion to walk the way of the Lord.
Maybe I need an indication...
A change even...
And I need to be smart, be wise, even going upward with God by His power and by my will to overcome all obstacles with Him.
Being able to be alone, doesn't sound that bad afterward...
I has been some others' support, now... Who can be my support except Jesus?
Labels: Be Wise
I thanks God for giving me big brothers, for fun or for advises, they are good brothers that take good care of a young sister like me.
After sharing with big big brother, I see things in a clearer picture and I felt much more relieved.
While Garfield today also not bad, dragged me to some unknown yet known salon even though I was sort of being "forced" to go.
After fully cool down, I'm much more happy.
And it is just a beginning isn't it?
A beginning to execute my plans of makeover.
For God and for my own self.
After being suck dried while trying to guess what gal had gone through, not feel relieved to be able to believe in all things are possible through Christ who strengthen me.
In characters, in situations and in facing myself.
Now I can has a good night rest and all the best to the last day of my job... =) Jia you Evangeline...
Not Evan... But Evangeline.
Not a tomboy... But a woman.
Labels: Siblings
When we claimed to know somebody, how much we really know.
Using one name to claim that you know the person, how much you really know.
I don't fully understand one person but I slowly understand the heart yet all some see another is only through the surface.
God, I need to cool it off.
If it wasn't for someone who voiced out for me, I won't know how much this person who now seldom spoke to me really know my weaknesses while another who suppose to understand me, attacked my weakness.
It hurt Lord, yet it reminded me that I got to stand strong.
I thanks God for the person who covered my weakness.
I just need to cool my temper for now.
Labels: Cooling down