Found this in the friendster bulletin, posted by a fellow online friend, Androne... See... this is a lame quiz to past my time as I wait to go to sleep...

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
. Handphone Bill... =X

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
. Fish & Co? Not really romantic... Just savour the good time with my old classmates and friends.

3. Last time you puked from drinking?
. Does drinking milk and plain water counted? One time I got serious recurrent of stomach ful and whatever I drinking beside food, I vomitted it out. So does it counted?

4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on bar?
. Never... I careful not to get drank though I will try a little bit wine if my friends order it for themselves as I only order non-alcoholic drink.

5. Name of your first grade teacher?
. Can't remember le... So long ago...

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
. Sleep and wake up to find myself in dream land with angels and God.

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
. Leave behind a legacy of being a great missionary that walk through the whole of Asia region. =P

8. How many colleges did you attend?
. Only polytechnic. Next shall be SOT and private University.

10. GAS PRICES?
. How I know? I now haven't go learn driving so don't study petrol price. =X

11. If you could move anywhere where would you move?
. Japan or Korea. But Australia is also not bad... Haha... But still, SG is much better... Cause I like high-rised flat.

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
. I wanna sleep some more.

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
. I wanna to have a peaceful sleep.

14. What errand/chore do you despise?
. Studying and cleaning.

15. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?
. Haha... If that happen, but I doubt so... I rather work...

16. Get up early or sleep in?
. Sleep in during nice raining weather. But get up early when the weather is bright and cooling.

17. What is your favorite cartoon character?
. Any Kawaii Japanese characters...

18. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
. What kind of question is this? Haha... I will choose to go sight-seeing...

19. Have you found real love yet?
. Does God counted in this category? =P

20. When did you first start feeling old?
. Recently. Body start to feel tired and eyes bag starting to grow darker. I wish I was pump and chubby like when I was young, being spoiled by my parents. Now I am still being dote by my parents but feel weird caused I getting older...

22. Beach or lake?
. Lake

23. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
. No... I think it is the beginning of a new companionship and a new beginning of life living with another person.

24. Favorite guilty pleasure?
. Scold myself... But I seldom do it now caused I now scold the devil. =P

25. What's your drink?
. Grape

26. Cowboys or Indians?
. Cowboys... The way they hold gun looked cool...

27. Cops or Robbers?
. Cops... I wanna to be a female cop...

28. Who from high school would you like to run into?
. Hmmm... My long lost friends and childhood friends...

29. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
. My current "car" is my current darling computer... Well, it don't play radio but it play high-tech music...

30. The Cosby Show or the Simpson’s?
. Simpson though it is lame...

31. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
. Thanks God I never had any relationship before... Though I got felt that I shouldn't be so playful in the past... Well, what past had already passed... But it is for a greater reason that it happen...

32. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?
. Well, she is fun so yea... I like to work opposite her.

33. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?
. The devil? Haha...

34. What famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
. Jesus... Face to face...

35. What famous person would you like to sleep with?
. My famous boster... But in future should be the special one ba... haha...

36. Do you have a teddy bear?
. My teddy bear from childhood years had long gone... Now I had no teddy bear but teddy hamster... Is it counted?

37. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to?
. Any place that near seaside.

38. Do you go to church?
. Yes... It is where I found God!

39. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
. Both... But up to God... And not really new, but wanna to reach another level of career live and to be with the one that the Lord give.

40. Sex or Chocolate?
. Chocolate... It is tempting enough... Haha...

Emerge is coming tomorrow... Gonna sleep now... Lame quiz isn't it? But only when I feel lame then I do it...

Labels: Quizzes

Can't believe I was there to pick up Sun along with hundreds over fans.

Managed to get real close up with her though Jo instructed us not to take photos with her.

I don't mind though caused I can stand just beside her and snapped shoots of her that what was enough.

Was tired after the whole event.

And saw a few of my friends who I knew long time ago through mean like q-ing up and through Elaine and one of the girls lived near my house.

So glad to have her went back home caused I was scared to travel alone at night because of my poor eyesight at night and my night phobia.

And she was so nice, waiting for my side of LRT to arrive then travelled with me.

And just reached home not long ago.

Now I understand why had I gained weight for the past one year.

Because of my poor eating timing.

I just finished my dinner and for the past few weeks and months, I always had super later dinner cum supper then due to my early school time and work time, I got to sleep like half an hour after my dinner.

No enough time to digest the food.

No wonder I got stomach problem.

Now I got to think of a way to solve the problem...

And at the same time get my deserve rest.

Bye people for tonight! I really tired now...

Still got the Bedok North Camp briefing tomorrow night.

Busy yet learning to stretch myself.

Haha... Take care people!

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Just received an sms from Yong Xiu not long ago.

Regarding her birthday celebration.

And I can't believe I lost her no or should I say, I key in her number wrongly.

Maybe it is because I lost half of my friends' number in the contact list when I was transferring number from my old hp to the current one that I am using.

But thanks God she sms me or else I will lost her number.

And thanks God I received it earlier so that I can make arrangement to make it for her birthday celebration and I will be seeing Scord and Xiao Shi Min again.

We often wondered...

How come I always ended up with their CG people...

In the past since the E149 years, I had always went for their CG for make-up CG, then after multiplication, I will always ended up going for their CG meeting.

Then Guang Xiang introduced his sister, Xiao Shi Min, to me then we became sisters. Who will know that our 1st conversation started on a bus when we were going to Jurong West church building for a prayer meeting.

Then in turn of my 1st time singing at K-box in front of a crowd, I was singing with Ru Lan.

Then for the Glamour Starlight, after Scord being Sabo by friends, I went to join him to sing as a group and we sing One Life One Love, my favourite Worship Song at this moment. And thanks God, the window didn't break, though we thought that it will break before our singing due to Guang Xiang and Kenneth. =X

But nonetheless, thanks Yong Xiu for the invitation. =]

Awaiting to see my Clone during Emerge Conference!

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In reply to Su Yi's post at her blog...

This is not an online love confession letter but I really glad to know her as a sister too. =]

I was so touched when I read her post and really thanks God for the friendship that He gave even though it is just a beginning.

Knew her through the interview long time back and who know it will cause us to form a simple friendship.

And I really glad that she is my junior!

You inspired me girl.

When Gwyn first told me about you who had a passion for nursing, I was shocked for a moment caused to say the truths, I rarely saw people who have so much passion like you. Even for me, to go into this course is a challenge as my passion since young was to study business and IT but when I looked at you, I told myself I gonna work hard.

Rarely anyone know this but I never had a passion for nursing except for practical.

I always thought that I loved biology but only until I entered into nursing then I discovered I loved IT but even when I wanna to be out of it but often in times, a voice will remind me of what He had called me into...

The vision, the dream.

And one time, Gabriel was sharing with me that with this cert, it will be an open door for me to enter into the mission field with no problem and I gladly accepted it though many times, I was at the crossroad, seeking for a solution and it is always with God that I find the answer.

Until now, I can't say that I had a passion for this but I learning to make use of the time I had when I was in clinical posting and get to overcome my fear of talking to strangers and to love them. I'm bad at loving people but I trying and I gained experiences through the deaths that I witnessed and through the encounters I had with various nurses.

The vision is what that keep me from going astray.

I had a vision, I had a dream!

If that what the Lord give, I going to work toward it for sure!

Life might be tough, situation might seem to be overwhelming but my focus is upon what is going to come but not to forget about the present.

Thanks Su Yi! My gal for being a good example. Jia you gal! The Lord is always with you. There are times when you will feel that a situation is tough and you will see and witness things that pain your heart but the Lord will always be the One that stand by you.

I still got a few months to go but the next few months are going to be tougher...

3 months of passing out posting in addition to the 5 weeks attachment.

And for the 5 weeks attachment, we will be posted to OT room.

My flesh is not willing to go through it but my spirit said something different.

If that is what the Lord gave, He will never short change my life.

I made mistakes but I learn from them.

Through the scolding I got during my posting, I learnt and it was really irreplacible.

God, thanks for all those people that You placed in my life.

Like Su Yi! JY, Scord, Xiao Shi Min...

They might not be leaders yet through them, I learn that no matter what, we must know how to come back to God.

And most of all, still wanna thanks the wonderful disciplers of mine, Cliff and Hui Jun.

I wondered how life will turn out to be if it is not for them and their patient.

One truth is they really can tolerate my rubbish.

And when they wanna to awaken me, they can really do that by come straight into my life and they really is a combo so... I always got this hidden feeling that when Hui Jun talked to me, she already gone shared with Cliff.

They are like a confirmation voices and that what I need, a voice that confirm my vision.

I got not much talent but I got a dream. To be successful in the ministry and in the world of business. Maybe I am not fated to study about it but no one ever said I can't have my own shop one day, to penetrate into the marketplace, to impact the youths and to bring in a new wave of fashion.

I so excited now. Inspired by Su Yi's post, awakened by Cliff's sharing and really thanks God for the trust.

I now got one more report to do and everything got to start to be in details and specific. It is a new step of faith caused it trains me in the area of faithfulness.

Who love to be scolded? Who love to be blame? Everyone love to listen to praises but sometime, it is through all those teaching that we learn.

I definitely is one of those people who get easily work up, stress up and hate to listen to scolding or any negative things... But yet, to rise up, we got to endure through our own flesh. To crucify it and to offer it to God.

I got to stay focus, be more teachable.

A time of moulding, a time of transformation.

I still got a long years to go but my Lord is a God who love changes.

Just like what the Emerge Conference Video said...

Change Me.

Inspire Me.

Will You Emerge?

Today, are you going to emerge or are you going to submerge?

It all laid in the power of choices.

Labels: Emerge

Today, I finally took the LRT before my friend. =P

Haha... Everytime he will run off if it was Service B train but today, it was Service A train and I so happened to be able to squeeze into it. And my poor friend? He can only watch me went in caused he was not able to squeeze in.

Haha... Well, today my friend was on sugar high. Accidently took the keys of our classmate because she asked him to keep her books in her locker and in the end, our classmate can't go back home because of it then he went even sugar high but kept laughing...

Maybe... The effect of stress from our project got to him already.

Insomia is one thing but being a weirdo is another thing. And to take a closer look, he can really be my mei already caused basically I got to stop him from laughing too hard and being too sugar high. =X

But now is my turn to be happy!

Sun is back tomorrow night.

10.15pm alighting at Singapore.

Meeting Jo and the rest of the people at macdonald at 9.45pm.

Gonna take photo with her this time. Haha...

It's the first time that I can make it to go and wait for her plane. Last time was only for the departure caused whenever she arrived at Singapore, it was very early in the morning...

Well, I got to be prepared to be at Changi Airport and linger there for at least 4 hours before her plane arrive. School ended like 5pm tomorrow and got to find things to do.

Awaiting for tomorrow!

Labels: Waiting

Finally the whole event was over.

Was a long and tiring day yesterday.

Went for service in the morning and greatly blessed by it. Then went for the Glamour Starlight straightaway. Well, it was tiring yet fun and I enjoyed being like a youth though I already 19!!!

Met up with Su Yi and Jian Yong on the train while on our way to expo. Ended up sat together with them and Mandy's CG during service. Well, was having fun though. And we went for the event together though we took quite sometime. Yet I used the world journey to Riverwalk to "suan" JY and Zheng Xuan with Su Yi. Being in the same course was great, it made us have alike mind.

The whole event started only at 6.30pm but we reached there at around 3pm and we all ended up either fellowship with people or for those who got audition, they practiced their song.

And I found my clone once again. For the whole evening, after met with Pearly's friends, Eric and Ping Yi, I had been with my clone for the rest of the day, just talking.

And something interesting happened...

Haha... Xiao Yong, my another brother suddenly popped out of nowhere and then asked me about whether I got any song for him to sing as he got 2 friends, and he only left 5 min to register. Gave him a few songs to choose from but in the end, it turned out his friends wanna to back out and my member, Megan, and I ended up joining him to form a team. And the song we chosed was... One Life One Love.

With no time to practice, we just went for it and with no music, we decided to sing live but thanks God that Cliff was one of the judges, he took a guitar and helped us to play. Having a CGL as a guitarist was definitely good. Basically they practiced all the new songs already and as my 3rd father, he won't left me to defend myself. =P

But somehow, Xiao Yong sung wrongly then for the fun of it, I started to follow him too, then Megan got lost and was thinking to herself, what were the two of them doing? Singing the lyric wrongly yet continue to sing. =P Haha... But nonetheless, it was fun though I kept on saying Xiao Yong "sa bo" me.

Had been lingering around with my Clone for a few hours, chatting and walking and enjoying disturbing Kenneth and her brother, Guang Xiang. And was really treasuring the moment caused only at this kind of meeting then we can spend time together as "sisters" and it was so boring so sitting there. Though do enjoyed talking to Eric and Ping Yi, who are Pearly's friends but still nothing beat the company of my clone.

Plus that night, it was my 1st time forming a human bingo and being the 1st one to get it, and that night also my 1st time doing a rap. Haha... I don't wanna sing and don't dare to sing. Asked Jian Feng and Cindy to give me a lame qyestion but Cindy said can't, because I am at a higher level. Higher level for? Because most of the questions I knew the answer. But nonetheless, a breakthrough caused I can't go for the Big Groove but I can do rap. =P

And was really enjoying the fellowship. Was talking to a few people, and was sharing with them. It was a wonderful night.

Going back home with Su Yi and JY, but JY very bad as usual. Still called me "Mdm".

Haha... But I not really that affected caused I "suan" him more than enough. Acting as a CC last night. I can't imagine a muscular guy acted as a CC. And can see Eleanore nearly puked.

Haha... But enjoyed fellowshipped with JY and Su Yi. Shared a lot with Su Yi who now was my junior. Don't know why but almost every single day I will see her in school and today was not much different. Haha... Well, I glad to have a junior like her.

Thanks God for the wonderful night. Was blessed and though I was super tired and lost a bit of my voice but nothing beat the fellowship. =P

Labels: Memories

Once again I was amazed by the message by Pastor. We had just finished the 8 beatitudes and now we were starting on the new portion of the Sermon of the Mount which was Salt and Light.

And just like what Pastor had mentioned, what is true in the natural is also true in the supernatural.

Just like how salt preserves food and preventing it to decay, we being the salt preserve the world from decaying and dying.

Just like how salt purifies and cleanses impurities, we help to purify the society but bringing in the right value from the Kingdom of God.

Just like how salt heals, we bring in the healing power of Jesus and heal the world from it's emotional hurts, physical diseases and iniquities.

Just like how salt flavors, we bring in joy and colors to the fallen world that have lose it direction and once again ushering the presence of God to the world.

Just like how salt melts ice, we melt the icy feeling of the world and bring in passion.

Just like how salt gives energy, we give energy to the world and make the world be excited for God.

Just like how salt creates thirst, we creates a thirst for the living water of the Holy Spirit and make the world hungry for God to fill them.

And that is what distinct us from the world outside.

And for the light...

The light illuminates, which is to reveal.

The light promotes life, which is to bring life to the world.

The light awakens us from sleep, which is to awaken us from our darkness.

The light provides vision, which allow us to see things from faraway places.

The light is persistent, which mean to keep on wanting to dominate every single dark corner that it can get into.

The light attracts, which is to attract things to it.

The light solves problems, which is to be a problem solver and not a trouble maker.

Lord, I really wanna to be the salt and light of the world. I might not be perfect but I know You are and You will guide me. So today, teach me Your ways. That even in the world, I am focus and I won't lose my vision that You had given to me.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!

Labels: Sermon on the Mount

It's time for me to rest once again.

Thanks God my school start late tomorrow and I can at least sleep until 7am.

At least wait until I wake up automatically.

Without forcing myself to wait up early.

Rest is upon me tonight...

Labels: Rest

Confused...

Confused about my inner most being.

Confused...

Confused over my feeling.

Now I gonna be clear.

Once again stay clear.

Lord, guide me through this period of times.

Don't let confusion take over my mind.

Stay clear all the times.

And all the times stay clear.

Labels: Confusion

At this season of going through the fire.

It tested my heart, my mind, my soul, my patient, everything that are within me.

It isn't easy.

Until now, it still isn't easy.

My heart is being mould and yet the process continue...

No matter how hard it is.

I faced many things that make up of me.

Facing the truths that I don't know it is in front of me.

Confronting the world around me when times came to tell me to give up and turn away.

It was tired yet I hold on to a hope that my life can be changed, my situation can be changed, everything around me can be changed for I got God with me.

I am getting ready for yet another level of the fire to consume me.

To take me to a higher place.

And to renew my passion.

A greater passion that I ask of You my Lord.

To reach out.

And to fulfill all that You had called me to do.

A greater vision is what I living for.

And a greater dream I asked of You.

To take me higher.

To soar with You above the ground and to stretch out my hands to You.

To worship You in reverance and in glory.

Mould my Heart O Lord.

Thus my heart longed for You.

Thus my heart cried out to You.

Fill me anew, fill me afresh.

Labels: Yearning

Before I went to bed last night, I had an interesting msn conversation with Su Yi and one of the thing that I shared with her was the art of acting blur.

I shared with her about how my lecturer always thought that I'm lost or blur. And my lecturer even came to me yesterday during lunch time [so happened he saw my friend and I] then he started to talk about I seemed very lost during the practical test. Well, feeling a bit naughty I said the practical lecturer asked me a lot of questions and I was busying answering it to remember my steps. Then feeling diao... he looked at me like I'm super blur.

And I told Su Yi that sometime it is good to act blur [depend on situation of course], especially in CG ministry, whereby sometime you know things about members but you choose to wait for them to say it first and you dropped hints here and there for them to catch while acting like you don't know anything... That is part of the art of acting as if you are blur of situation and don't know anything. I do that quite a lot actually. To various people and friends. Sometime to test people and sometime to wait for them to tell me stuffs their lives...

Well, it can also be a good mechanism if you are avoiding things or people. Haha... They see you blur then they will thought you are clueless about things while actually, you are not like what they think... Life is always like this, people acting blur, people being blur king or queen. But I won't totally count myself as one of them as my God has give me a spirit of sound mind and not blur mind.

Labels: Blur

An answer that I'm looking for.

How much longer should I wait?

How much longer should I sacrifice?

To reach where I want to be.

And to do what I am called to do.

I am seeking for an answer.

For a destination.

Who will be going there with me?

And who won't?

I hoped I got an answer but the Lord is my only answer.

I leave my life to Him and my heart to Him.

Beside Him, I has none to depend on...

Be my guide o Father.

That when storm come, I will still stand strong.

That the hurts that I gone through and endured with.

And the happiness that I experienced, it shall be with me forever and ever.

Good memories died hard.

And bad memories live on.

But it is the future that we looking forward.

That through bad times and good times, the Lord shall always be with you.

Stay with Him and His goodness you shall experience...

Labels: Searching

Wow... After so long! I finally uploaded my photo collection and some of those were rare photos that you won't find it anywhere caused when can you always see a poor birthday boy being pranked to go down water in a beach wear? Haha...

These were taken on Reid's Birthday. Can't really remember whether had I ever shared about how his prank was like... But basically, Cindy told him that there was something wrong with the video that they took for the Beauty Peagant and Manhunt contest and they needed to do a reshoot with one of the girls so on Sun [one day before his actual birthday], they were to go to one of the contestant's condo swimming pool to do a reshoot. At that time, Cindy asked a girl for help to pretend to call her to arrange for the reshoot and at the same time, she asked Reid to change to his beach wear then go down to the pool half naked to get himself ready. Due to an overwhelming response predicted, I only posted his special edition photo which I took when he tried his new suit.



Well, so proud of Reid! Haha... And that not the end, we were fellowship at Changi Airport and requested Reid to do a special shoot for his SUNGLASSES!!!



A short photoshoot for Reid... Hehe... To create an effect that he can fly... But the truth is... He was standing on top of the baggage trolley... =.="





Success! Reid was speeding!



And last sat, we had a crazy night at Bugis, eating at a pork meat noodles shop then went to have late night dessert and talking about some "interesting" but Eeeeewww stuffs.

Look at this! What is Elijah doing? Oh... He was just trying to drink 2 cup of milk tea with 2 straws... One of the straws was from no where... =X



Mango Sago... Can't finish it so shared with Yi Ying. Very nice and mango is good! =]



What were they doing? Fighting in the mrt station? No no... They were just trying to bully one another. =P



And these were from the Farewell CG with Ben and Pei Shan.

Well, I just noticed that Pei Shan and I looked quite alike in this photo... Haha... And look at Spikey's eyes... It was bright yellow... o.o



Ben and Pei Shan... The book that Ben was holding was the gift that we made for them as a show of our appreciation.



Here is the team of brothers in N266.



The team of sisters in N266.



And the whole of N266 people!!! Were the doggy also part of the team???



And lastly, last night after our discipleship with Cliff, we went to Cindy's work desk and do something funny to it as a prank...



But to prank her all the way, Cliff and Alex added more stuffs to her desk...

















And this is the final product!!!

Labels: Memories

Finally passing through the period of transition in a way...

Having been tuning my school works and my job at the same time and today, I experienced the joy of talking to God when working once again. No wonder I love to work those kind of job that allow me to have a quiet conversation with God.

And today discipleship with Cliff was good.

We learnt about 7 obstacles in life...

1. Unteachable Spirit

2. Unfulfilled Promise

3. Unforgiveness

4. Unwise Relationship

5. Unbridled Tongues

6. Undeveloped Gifts

7. Indecisive Heart

Well, have a fun time listening to Cliff's sharing, especially during the part where Cliff talked about unwise relationship. He shared about us making a right decision to have a good company of friends and a strong relationship with Jesus. We can never choose our parents but one thing we can choose is our future partner and our friends. And it was an interesting topic. As a brother himself, he shared from his experience about making a decision to build up a relationship with Jesus first then considering about our future partner, which for those who haven't get attached, it will be our parents. Haha... And really, whatever Cliff shared was so real and realistic and it got us to think...

But nonetheless, it was fun as it was what the youths need to know before they think of their future... And it was such an important topic as many got attachment because of impulsion, peer pressure etc and etc... But most reasons aren't revolve God, which mean, God isn't the One that bring both parties together and because of it, if we are not careful, unwise relationship might be formed and most of it can't last through the years.

Well, but not to worry, just put our life in God's hands and all shall be okay.

Haha... And the funny thing that we do today is to decorate Cindy's work desk with grass mat and some animals' toys. To prank her all the way. She always said she is not easy to prank but Cliff said, since we got the heart to prank her then go all the way! Who will give her the office key when we set our heart to prank her? Haha...

And really want to upload the pictures but my computer is being naughty tonight... =.="

But anyway I am super excited for Glamourous Starlight. Will be doing decoration with some sisters from fellow youth CGs... I don't know why Michelle will get me since I'm not those kind of girls who is good with arts and decoration but maybe is because one time I told Cliff that I can help out with the event decoration if they ever need help. Now I got to work out the budget but no worries, already got the design in mind... Hehe... Thanks God for the creative ideas huh? =P

I'm looking forward for a wonderful move of God.

Glamourous Starlight, Emerge... It is really a great time to connect with the youths...

I looking forward to a new wave of revival...

Are you ready?

It is now or never! =]

Labels: Excitement

Came across some of my friends blog over the last few weeks, it seemed like every blogs I went, there were sharing about their lives, their thoughts, and many other stuffs that I don't get to know from them when I see them personally. It seemed like what one of the blogger friends of mine once mentioned, has blogging become a new door to soul?

Many of the times, instead of talking with people face to face, we turned to the internet world to share about our values, our thoughts, our lives, and a couple of thing here and there that we will never share with others unless they ask us.

Sometime, I also like this. My friends browsed my entries because I don't often talk in depth about my own life, my past, my inspiration etc and etc when they see me face to face. Only a few people who ever sat down with me and fellowship with me personally will get a chance to listen to me sharing about my own life and it is something wonderful caused I enjoyed sharing about my life and heard about others' lives from them personally.

But sometime, through blogging, I got to know some wonderful friends that I haven't meet, from CHC, and from many of the places and often in times, I learn from them and I received from them and through the blog, it became a way of linking me to other people and when I meet them personally, we seem to have so much more to talk about.

I still learning to not so rely on blog but instead, go out with my good friends to fellowship once a while and go to chill out at my favourite place...

Blog is a meant of sharing but it still shouldn't be where our lives should based upon.

Don't get Overwhelmed by Blogging!

Labels: Blogging

Seeking for inspiration? Now is the time!

I got some wonderful blogs to introduce that I sure you will love to read if you are someone who get easily captivated by writing...

1st up in the list is my online multiply friend, David, from CHCKL. Amazing how I came upon his blog one day as I was surfing. Always love to read his entries. Simply so inspiring...

To find out more, you are welcome to go to Cafe David.

2nd up on the list is another online multiply friend, Peter. Also from CHCKL, he is a inspiring writer and I sure this blog will greatly bless those men and women who is attached or married caused in there you find some interesting things that women or men like to ask their partner and you will find some interesting answers that will surely get you out of unnecessary troubles especially with women, since I am one of them too. =P

To find out more, you are welcome to visit, A Place of Hope.

What are you waiting for?

Get inspire, get changes.

Time wait for no men...

Labels: Inspiration

Don't know what's up with Blogger today.

Can't upload photo and the toolbar is missing...

Hope everything get back to the normal condition soon...

And I nearly faint.

Received a few missed calls and called back to one of them...

And then found out it is JY who called me.

Said what... He is from ABC supermarket and am I ready to collect the 3 oranges I had ordered...

o.o 3 Oranges? I didn't order any?

And he went further to say he was Jacob's son...

Remembered the joke from the msn this evening when he said he was Jacob and whatever about him being Joseph...

o.o Well, he is Joseph alright... Bluff me...

I thought some crazy people called me when I was away...

Hehe... Well, he saw this he definitely said rubbish again.

I really hoped blogger get back on track soon.

Got Reid's birthday prank photos to upload and a couple more interesting photos.

And I really need to complete all my audio and video stuffs...

So many sermons to go...

Give me a few years also can't finish...

And I got to clear half of them within the next one year.

My target... To study like never before to prepare myself for SOT.

I still remembered that short conversation with HJ. Haha...

Must jia you!

Labels: Problem?

Failures - The Stepping Stone to Success.

Without failures, life can't move on.

Without failures, we won't realise that we are weak.

Failures are nothing to ashame off.

Only those who are afraid of failures will seek to run away from it.

I looking past it.

Have you?

Labels: Secret to Success

Finally I found a way to record music from video and it is through a wonderful help of a recording program. And not only so, I also successfully tested the program! Haha... Thanks God to my quick pick up skill for technology...

Labels: Learning

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 79%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is High You have a great understanding of who you are, and your place in the world. You know what path you're on. And you are excited about your future. You're always deepening your inner knowledge and introspection. And enjoying it every step of the way.

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

You Are 68% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word. You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

Labels: Quizzes

Just browsing through my friends' blog and came across one of Kenrus' entries.

As always, I was inspired by him.

In one of the entries he wrote a simple phrase, "To be myself".

And as I read it, it reminded me of what God had once told me.

That no matter how tough life might be.

To be myself is what I desire.

To be who I suppose to be...

Labels: Being Me

In Your Presence
In Your Power

Holy Spirit
I Surrender

Just to know You deeper.

Just to know You better.

Just wanna focus in You and lost in Your love forever.

There are many things that I am trying to look pass.

The true faces of men.

The attitudes that I never thought I will see.

Lord it is not easy, even for myself but Lord I need You to keep me where I should me.

The focus.

The love.

Don't let me be lead astray.

But let my eyes set upon You as I walk this road.

Wholly to You!

Labels: Devotion

Today school ended early and though I was not feeling very well but I accompany one of my school friends to go and pick up his bag that had sent for some repairment. And I discovered some facts

Fact #1: Kawaii soft toy is hard to resist but if a guy shout it out loud...

Cute stuffs who can resist... But different people got different response. It just so happen that my friend shout it out loud and standing beside him, I felt so weird that a guy is so much "feminine" than me. Though I admit, the soft toys still cute.

Fact #2: Long hours of shopping is not a problem to my dear friend but it is for me...

Oh my, now after a short survey since yesterday, I discovered that to shop more than 2 hours is normal. But for me, the max is 2 hours. I kept on going fron shop to shop, only take a look for a while then left, but my friend can look around and then eee and wow there... Amazing...

Fact #3: Undecisive when it came to buying...

"I want this, I don't want this, I want this but later gain weight..." Haha... But friend is funny, he was helping his mum to buy bread but he was undecisive about wanting to buy Long John or bread for his lunch. Then when he choose to buy bread, ht can't decide how many to buy and what to buy, so I Q for him. Haha... But at the end, he still make a decision to buy his bread...

Fact #4: Sugar addiction...

My friend is a sugar addiction. He brought a sugar toast along with other breads and with a satisfied smile he said he wanna leave it to the last then weirdly he told me most guys don't like sugar but he loved it...

Fact #5: Called me a sister is you want, and if you regard me as your "younger sister" then you must take care of me...

I told him that he is more like a girl then me than he said he is a guy but then in his secondary school years, a lot of girls around him always called him a "sister" so he said I may do so then I said I am older so he will be like my younger sister then he said I must take care of him them. =.=" I don't wanna to faint.

And on the LRT, I was telling him that it was tiring for me if I shop more than 2 hours then he said so little, no people would shop with me. Then he said his is not the worst, another friend of ours can shop more than 6 hours. O.O

Well, who ask me to be those kind of people who see what they like then buy it straight or plan what they want to buy then buy. I don't like to linger too long, very weird to linger without buying any stuffs.

At least the only different is, I don't need to carry shopping bags. As seen on TV, when girls go to shop, guys will carry shopping bags. And in this case, we are reverse but at least I don't need to carry his bags. =.="

Well, he is one of my "sisters" now. Striking to becoming a good nurse in future. Haha... Compared to other guys, he is really feminine but good for him, at least he got the nurse characters.

But still I still regard myself as a girl... As though I don't like shopping, but I love to look at accessories, make up, dresses. Though too bad, shopping is my weak point. Haha... Headache, a few more friends' birthday are coming up and still have no idea what to buy. But at least my friend gave some suggestions...

And when I talked about this with JY, he said guys liked to shop but different from girls, they only went into a shop, browse it then come out. Haha... This guys and girls survey are so interesting. Just part 2 of our survey that Irene and I did since yesterday during fellowship and Reid was so funny over our survey...

Enough of craps... Haha...

Labels: Memories

Understanding...

The hidden meaning of wisdom...

Seeking, Searching, Settling...

To receive the understanding of heart...

Labels: Understanding

Yesterday was really an exciting and fulfilling day.

Went for preaching and testimony challenge.

Thanks God I went for testimony 1st, had been listening to worship music to calm myself and because I couldn't decide which one to go for 1st so I asked God, the 1st room I saw, I will go for it. And it turned out to be testimony and as I went in, the register told me I am to be the next one. =.= Next one? So fast was my inner response.

Then straight away after this, I went for my preaching challenge. Register and get took my photo then the girl said I am to be the next one. =.=" Again???

But overall, I am satisfied with my improvement from the last 2 years. And thanks God for it as it was quite a last min message and during my journey to expo, I still edited my message and rehearsed for it in my mind.

I smsed Cliff and told him how it went and I kept on feeling that I can do much better. And Cliff said I will improve every single time, never give up and I told him that I will keep on trying. This year didn't get in never mind, next year I will participate again. And the best part is for the testimony challenge, I will have a 50-50 chance of getting in. The response from the judges seem to be not bad. Haha... Well, I pray so.

Then I saw Gywn and Venus at Coffee Bean and shortly after some quiet time, I went to fellowship with them and was having fun listening to Gywn shared about SOT. Wow... I am excited for it. The more Gywn shared about it, the more I wanna be part it. Next year! I shall be there!!!

And Sermon on the Mount was fun. Really enjoyed churchwide bible study. It was refleshed me and I was amazed by the message of showing mercy to others just like what God do for us. And every single one of us leave the hall with a new purpose and a brighter prospect of life. =]

Then the CG this week went to Bugis to fellowship. Cliff said next week will be west and the choice is up to the wild wild west people. Hehe... Yan Sin, Zhi Xian, Yi Ying and I said we shall choose Jurong Point. And Yan Sin went crazy, jumping around with happiness.

The fellowship was fun. As we were eating, Elijah suddenly talked about pranks as I showed him Reid's birthday prank photo. Then he talked about how he wanna to prank me [which he did], how he started to plan some of the people's prank. =.=" Well, since Reid and I already being pranked, we are ready to fight back! Hehe...

And after a proper meal, we went in search of dessert and as we had our dessert, Elijah suddenly talked about how overseas people eat locusts, ants etc etc... And knowing that I am afriad of inserts, he shared even more and the funniest things was, everytime he talked about it he will go... "Shi Min, tell you ar... this this this this this..." Then I will shoot him back, "how come you always said Shi Min, Shi Min??? Purposely one ar???" Then he said no no no but he still did it anyway and he said whatever he said I surely not able to sleep one. And I was kept on saying, "Forget what Elijah shared." Then Jolene went and added on, "the more you said not to think about it, the more you will think about it." =X

And our dessert time was spent talking about crazy and disgusting stuffs. =X

The night didn't end here. On our way back, Zhi Xian decided to entertain himself and with Yi Ying, they started to say that if I wanna find a guy, they will go and look for one from a circus... Because I was difficult to tame. =X Then I said, "well, our church don't have guys from circus." Then he said, "never mind, we will go circus and entered by the back door with the pass and anyhow find a tiger tamer for you." Then I went on saying still not possible as I wanted a certain age limit, certain this and that. Then he said, "Never mind, surely have one. GT don't have, go other zone, can still network some more." =.= Then I turned to Yi Ying and trying to drag her down but she said unless we found a guy who is 3-5 years old or 80-90 years old... She won't be interested. Then Zhi Xian said, "With Shi Min I only entertaining myself but with you I am serious, tell me your requirements." I think we are the only noisy one in the whole train. =.="""

Before we reached home, I asked Zhi Xian do I really look so young. Then he said my face doesn't seem to have any different since he knew me when I was secondary one. =.= Only my dressing changed so to ask him to guess my age, still hard... Then he went on saying, find a guy who also got baby face one. =.= For e.g. Spiderman's actor. Then I said, ok! Anyway he is cute. =P Then Zhi Xian went diao!!!

Hehe... But nonetheless, was enjoying and not to forget, yesterday was Irene and Kenrus's birthday! Brought a row of Rocher chocolates for Kenrus through my secret spy, Jie Jin. Hehe... Well, glad he liked it. Few years of friends already and since this year though he took part in the prank during my birthday, I decided to be nice to him as who know? Maybe I can still prank him back? Haha... Gonna go for Sermon on the Mount today! Take care everyone! =]

Labels: Memories

My messages are ready.

But my heart haven't settle down.

I had failed in this before.

But this year I come back to challenge my fears.

For I believe that failures are the stepping stones of our success and only through failures that we learn.

And today, I am ready.

To learn once again.

Not matter whether I can get in or not.

I still there to try out and my God is my strength.

Lord, give me Your strength down.

To conquer my fears and my doubts.

Amen!

Labels: Overcoming

Today when I reached home from Cell Group, I could only think of finishing my testimony and preaching message.

The competitions are tomorrow and my messages were all in my mind. Inspiration was not fully released and was having a hard time trying to start my messages but everything flow well after that and...

Now is listening to the song, Endless Story...




Reminded me of this amazing day that I had experienced today...

Being to the youth CG then discovered that it was E149 own CG meeting but it was okay, being there with my members and experienced the wonderful presence of God though I wished I could be there throughout but got an important CG by my own CG that I need to go for.

And really, I was touched.

As today was the day that Ben and Pei Shan transferred to Shi Xiong's CG as a send out missionaries for permanent.

We were sad yet at the same time happy for them as they carried the N266 DNA, to impact the other CG and to grow it like never before.

We stayed at Ben's place to fellowship, played with Spikey and it's brother, and took some photos. Sharing with the members the clips that we had taken when we pranked Reid and got his permission to post it at youtube and multiply.

But most of all, I was really touched by Pei Shan.

Was talking to her at the end of the night, while she was sharing with Pearly about how Ben and her be together and I remembered one thing she shared very clearly that the Lord shall provide.

And she emphasized to us that it is the accountability that make a different. Pearly, Irene and I fully agreed and when Cliff came out after a talk with Ben, he shunned away saying that we were having sisters' talk and out of no where Spikey came in between Pearly and Pei Shan and Pei Shan said... "Hey how come you are here???"

It was a fun time together no doubt and I gonna miss them.

I might not often talked to them but I enjoyed hearing the history of GTZ from Ben, learn to be more lady-like from Pei Shan.

And really, I believe that when they go to another CG, they are going to be a great impact in the CG.

Ben and Pei Shan! All the best!

Hope to get all the photos from Jolene soon... Memories are for us to treasure and remember.

Forever this memories shall be with us.

Labels: Memories

Exciting weekend I gonna have.

For tomorrow, gonna be at the youth CG meeting and N266 night CG meeting as usual.

And on sat, I gonna have my preaching challenge and personal testimony challenge.

Wow... So exciting.

I am not totally prepared for sat, and I gonna get myself ready for it.

Jia you gal!

Must jia you!

Long weekend to go yet the excitement is there!

Go go go!

Labels: Excitement

Wonderful wonderful Jesus...

For all the things You had done for me.

Having discipleship with Cliff and the youths and a wonderful 2 hours fellowship with some of the youths.

Wonderful moments.

I had been thinking once again.

About what to do of my life.

I got a big dream.

A big vision.

But how to accomplish it?

And I choose this moment to take the longest route back home.

Choose to follow Cliff and Jolene to the NE line.

Then take a long route back home by going to Marina Bay station and went all the way back to CCK station.

It was long and it was what the others will call it having nothing to do, yet it was those rare moments that I really wanna be alone and starting thinking and fellowship with God.

I enjoyed the moments. Telling God my problems, my thoughts, and at the same time, slowing down my mind to listen...

It wasn't easy, with a sleepy mind and a pondering spirit.

At this moment, one of the members smsed me.

She said that she had forgotten to ask me to sms her back when I reached home caused I was the only sister who will be reaching home the latest.

We chatted over the sms...

And I felt a pondering in my heart to share with her my great collection of sermons and books.

I never really volunteered to share it with people as I never really found people who keep on desiring to grow and receive until I met with this girl.

Might not be the first one to know her, but the potential inside of her and the virtue within her, it can't be denied from her.

She reminded me of myself.

When I was young.

Yet she is so much greater.

So much room for growth.

And so much more potential.

That when I decided that no matter what it take, I will help her to grow.

And wonderful is my Lord as through her, I see a side of the goodness of God that I never see before.

And my heart burst with gladness and it make me wanna grow even more.

I believed, now is the time.

For the works of the Lord to be released.

It is the season.

And thankfulness is what I feel toward You

Labels: Thankgiving

Before the world begin
You were on His mind
And every tears you cried
Is precious in His eyes

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Every thing was done
So you world come

Nothing you can do
To make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door

Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Every thing was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all

The power of the word
The power of His blood
Every thing was done
So you would come

Today Lord, I looked at myself once again.

By the power of Your blood.

I am fully cleansed.

By the power of your blood.

I am no longer the me of the past.

Today Lord, I once again wanna to walk with You.

Just You and me.

Away from my past.

Away from my sins.

It is with You today.

That I found a whole new life.

Take me Lord.

To where I belong.

In Your Kingdom.

Labels: Salvation

Busy...

What has I been busy with?

More and more admin stuffs in the CG coming up and with new responsiblities, I got to get use of giving more times to all these and I don't regret a moment of it.

In fact, I learning to enjoy doing admin.

That might be what I loved the most.

Admin works had been what I like since the beginning and maybe I enjoy it a lot.

And really, doing admin works allow me to take some time to think.

Well, the busy trend is still there.

And I gonna learn to cope with it!

All the way!

Labels: Busy

Wow, I can't believe I missed a day of entry.

Getting busy recently and was thinking for the whole day.

But I came back.

And today had yet another interesting exercise in tutorial with our sociology lecturer.

She asked us to form group of 4 and gave us 5 pieces of paper each for us to write down something about us that others in our group don't know. And then she passed us an envelop and said if we were uncomfortable to share any of the 5 things we wrote in the papers, we could put it in the envelop but we can't put in everything.

Then my group shared with one another and we ended up sharing all things about ourselves and a common thing among us is, we all seemed to want to get marry at a young age except one of the girl. She started to ask us why? And she said only when she want to have companionship then she get marry. Then one of our friend said later surprisingly, she will get marry first since she is the only one among us that has a boyfriend. Haha... And to know the basic facts about the four of us, beside this girl and I are the same age group, the other two are older than us. 2-3 years older.

But beside this conversation, there is a personality about independant and interdependant that our lecturer want us to do at our free time.

Well, I might do it but busy now... So much busy that my time for blogging will be greatly reduced.

Must jia you! All of us! =]

Considering open SWS again. Using my own blogger account but there is a risk.

Should I or should I not?

Pondering...

Labels: Wondering

Wow, weekend was a tremendous days in church.

The lesson on meekness, spiritual hunger and thrist. It was wonderful and mind blowing once again.

Couldn't express how I felt throughout the whole time.

The presence of God.

The truths of the word.

And allowing myself to reflect upon how much I had done thus far to fulfill all requirements in the beatititude.

Yet God is good.

I had received so much.

And once again, I on this journey on seeking for more.

More anointing
More presence
More experiences
More changes

And for the 1st time in my Christian walk with God, I saw a trace of consuming fire from heaven.

Fall upon the area where the pastors were sitting and.

At 1st I thought I saw wrongly but as I asked two of my fellow members, they said they didn't see any thing.

And I thanks God for it.

For I know a season is coming.

A season for great harvest.

Plenty of great harvest.

Are the people ready?

For any miss in the season will caused lost of what God is meant to give to us.

Grab hold of them right here and right now.

Labels: Season

Wow... Really wanna to thank my best gal friend of the whole universe!

After 7 years of friendship, Li Ru always is my best buddy. Haha... And most of all, her present is the one that I like the most as she know exactly what I want.

Haha... I only received my super belated birthday present on fri.

A nice star shape neckacle with little colorful gems within it.

Just the kind I always like. Haha...

And knowing that to her, she is financially quite tight yet she still brought me a present...

Wow... I was very touched by her.

It might not be a expensive kind of gift but the heart is there and I really treasure her as my friend.

And some more she is smart too.

Haha... Biochemical. Scoring quite well for it.

Jia you! =]

Hope to have another gathering in the near future. With her and I. =]

Labels: Friendship

After being pranked by the CG last time...

Now got one more person added to the long list of being pranked by our ever famous prankster thinker => CINDY LEONG!

Haha... Having a wonderful time pranking Reid.

Celebrated his bithday when Michelle, Cliff, Cindy and I went to watch Blade of Glory with him. In the middle of the movie, at 00:00am, we passed a set of badly formed muffin cakes to Michelle pretending to offer her the food then she gave Reid one of it and we started to sing him the birthday song. Shocked beyong words, we went back to watch our movie.

And today, we instructed 2 brothers to complete the prank by getting cheesy cake and Zhi Xian crushed oreo cookies and pokey and then decorated the cake! Well, before hand, we never thought of doing it but when this morning Cindy received the sms about a plain cake with "personalised" deco, we were shocked out of Cindy's bed [sleepover at her place if you didn't get what I meant]. But then, thanked to the brothers' sacrifice for the service, they completed their mission of getting a brank new Chocolate Temptation Cake from Four Leaves Clover!

Throughout the week, Cindy contacted a few people from Man Hunt and Beauty Peagant and pretending to have some problem with the previous video they took and need to reshoot. Thinking this way, Reid went to the condo with Cindy and was being asked to take off his clothes and get himself wet in the pool to get ready for shooting...

Throughout the process we nearly had heart attack as we hid at one corner and Reid plus Cindy walked pass the corner that we are hiding and after a period of sweating, we ran to Reid and screamed: "Reid! So fit!!!"

Haha... He was shocked! Totally blow off...

And the amazing part is when we presented him with the suit that he wanted so much from G2000. He had been thinking of where to find a suit and now... All problem solved and he will be going for the manhunt in the suit!!! Hehe...

Promised to don't post up the birthday video and pictures here as he was in beach wear and so to prevent him from being overly shy, I won't post it here but I didn't promised not to post it some where...

For those who knows, you know where it will appear. =P

Glory to glory we shall go.

And glorious prank we shall have.

Won't let Cindy run off no matter what. Hehe... Thinking thinking...

Get back time in 3 months time. Haha...

Labels: Prank

Last night became a girl night out. Haha... Stamford in the end back put because all girls. Seem like Quan abandoned him too but Miao is not giving up. As the "class committee", she will be upholding her duty of gathering the people.

But nonetheless, we enjoyed the catching up. It seem like we have all changed a lot over the years.

And we are all so different from how we used to be and when we thought back to the times when we were young, it was so funny.

And we took a group photo.



And Miao acted like an auntie yesterday. Beginning we thought of watching movie but only left 28 Weeks Later, Spiderman 3 and a unknow forgotten movie.

Then Jolyn asked us to go Kiddy Palace. And really, we went. It seemed like we were looking for our lost childhood. Haha...

Miao... What she was doing? Just advertising for the toys. =.="





Fang Ling said she didn't have much childhood so I dragged her to take a soft toy and looked back out childhood.



Jolyn. I became a paparazzi. Haha... She didn't wanna take a picture though she was the one who suggested to come here.



Miao and Jolyn. Haha... Taking the twins squirrels.



On the train, we also took some pictures. But this is the only one I liked as... I was the photographer! Miao, Fangling and Li Ru



It was quite a good night. Though we can't finish our food. Especially me. So full and the fish was so oily.

Li Ru suggested K-Box next time. Maybe we should have one Mega gathering. With Ronnie, Quan, Stamford, Yin Si, Aisha... They all.

Long time never gathered that many people. When is the last time? On the teacher's day when we were sec one. =.=" And I still remembered they called me big ang bao because of my school uniform.

Well, we should wait for next time! =]

Labels: Gathering

Oop... Last night just found out that "Sir Stamford Raffles" is the only guy in the whole gathering. For unknown reason, Quan in the end didn't go and Sheng? Waited for him to be online for days already but he didn't, maybe still haven't ORD, still in camp. =X Who ask me to forget to get his number? Now how to contact him?

And to think about it, felt a bit bad today about forgetting to tell Sheng the gathering, because I suddenly remembered that one time he sent me a birthday greeting through friendster because he happened to browser through it and found my birthday and I forget to ask him about this gathering.

Well, next time hope we can gather again.

And also current, I was into Genie Zuo's music.

Wow... her voice is so sweet. Beside Sun, she also got a unique voice.

I hope my hearing won't get bad from all the music that I listening to. Really can't bear to take out my headphone. =P

Working life is like that. So that will be tired and music is what awake me.

No matter what music, so it keep me awake yet at the same time, too music can hurt your ears. Maybe I should reduce it huh?

Well, going back to work.

Dear friends, tag me when you come by. So that I know you are here. Haha... I got so many invisible viewers.

Labels: Gathering

Sometime, I really thanks God for all the wonderful He blessed me with even when things went wrong, even when things happened, He was still with me.

Yesterday was my theory paper, study from tue till wed, facing a large amount of stress for unknown reason, and trying to force myself to remember things, then I planned to leave the examination straight after I finished the paper as there was a discipleship going on but the examinator said can't at that moment as there was still 10 min to go before the exam ended but she said, I was allowed to go straight after the exam paper stopped and by the favor of God, she let me went off.

I didn't told her about meeting church friends for discipleship or anything as the situation don't allow with some of the classmates around me so I told her I was meeting friends and was running late and she was very understanding. She was my practical examinator too and though some of my classmates didn't like her for one reason or another but she was a very good person even though she is an assistant manager.

Rushing down wasn't easy, I was very tired and was feeling difficulty breathing once again, and my heart was pumping very hard, and I smsed Cliff and he gave me an option whether I wanted to come down since he was going to end it 20 min after I reached but inside my heart, for a moment I thought of not going down, I was tired, and rushing down wasn't easy, but nonetheless as I ran and walked to the mrt station, I told myself, I can't do this as I don't want to miss out the divine moment to learn more from my leader.

But things happened, 2 mrt trains was passed by me because one was stopped at1 AMK station and another one was not to be boarded. Then I boarded on another train and discovered, it also stopped to AMK. And a thought came by, how come this kind of things happened when we are rushing? Yet, I let me mind went off and kept myself from complaining as I believing God to reach there.

And it was at that moment, in the train and as I walked to Cliff's office that the Lord spoke to me about commitment.

He reminded of the times that my commitment was tested, He reminded me of the times when I was not faithful with what He gave me and lose my commitment. Then He said a word very simple.

Our love for Him is proven by the commitment that we show toward Him.

Commitment show our passion.

And where we placed our treasure is, there our heart will be.

And at that moment I smiled.

Thank You Lord, for the wonderful divine moment.

Labels: Commitment

I am getting used to my father been good to me.

In term of treating me like his precious daughter and trying to communicate with me.

Just like my mum too.

To chase back the lost time we wasted.

And I am touched from time to time when my father called me bao bei and my mum offered to help lighten my burden of finance once I graduate.

I still got a sister that I really love and care for.

Will tease her often and play pillow fight with her from time to time.

And I really thanks God for the change of atmosphere day by day.

I still praying for my house to be open for CG.

An impression but I gonna believe.

And for Mother's Day, I gonna order food for the family. It is my 1st time ever doing that. Well, my mum is so good to me so it is my turn.

If anyone can tolerate my nonsense, beside Cliff, my mum is the one. When I am stressed, when I am trouble, though she didn't say much or ask much but she will try to communicate with me. Well, I learning to love being at home day by day. =]

And, forget to post this!

I watched Spiderman 3 and it is good to an extend of all the emo part but the story changed too much and moving too fast but what can I complained? Watched at the Grand Cathey. 5th row from the front but I enjoyed occupying the whole row myself though infront of me also sat a sec sch boy who occupied the whole 4th row herself.

It was really grand with a grand theatre screen.

So big and so nice.

Seeing my favourite actor, it was amazing.

Though it took a big long for the black spidey to come up and the link... Well, got a mysterious feeling but there seemed to be a broken link somewhere.

But I love it. The last of the trilogy. Will miss the movie. Can imagine? I watch Spiderman 1 more than 10 times when it is avaliable online. Haha... But after that, never got the time to watch so many times. Well, one time and will be enough.

Labels: Memories

I finally finished studying for my theory test.

A total of 4 hours of study just for one paper.

Since last night till this morning.

Well, later still got to study it before I reached school.

Left 1 and a half hour to study for it.

Jia you!

I can do it.

Labels: Studying

Wow, really thanks God for allowing me to make it for the old time gathering with my long-time friends from primary school till now. How long had it been? Nearly 7 years. And it is going to mark the years of friendship that I has with Li Ru, my fellow crappy friend.

I once told my friends that I believed I could break the record of having a long-term friendship with primary school friends and I did it. With less meetups of course but the bond is there. Even if she only joined me for some of the Easter or Christmas Events but I glad to have her as my friends.

And I am excited to see Miao Xin, Jolyn, Ka Gek, Fang Ling, Yin Si, Stamford and Wei Quan too. Though too bad, can't find Zheng Sheng now since he is in army now.

Well, think about them reminded me of the funny times that we had in the past.

With Fang Ling and Ka Gek as pretended twins of the four sisters, which included Li Ru and I.

Then Wei Quan who was always the quiet boy that was afriad of me because of my tigeress personality.

Stamford as a enemy of mine who was in the same class as me from pri 4 till pri 6. Always found the time to pull my ponytail. =X Then chased him around the class and always called him the Stamford Raffles of Class 6C.

The Yin Si who was one of my good friends who had a big misunderstanding between the guy she like and me [just because I sat beside that boy and always played and scolded him.]

Then Miao Xin and Jolyn who were also my good friends...

Well, seeing them a few times the last few years but we all changes.

And it was such a long time gathering since the mega one that we had at CCK Mac long time ago when we were just entering into a new sec life.

Well, I happy and looking forward to meet them on fri.

Going to have dinner with them, then movie, depend on the time since I got to wake up early for CG.

But I gonna chased down Li Ru, we got so many meetups to chase up with.

Looking forward to the day. =]

Labels: Gathering

Thanks God I asked Sun to take a photo with Wei Li and I.

We are the last few groups of people that allowed to take photos with her due to the huge crowd behind.

Really felt so happy.

And the next time she return to SG, I going to go airport and pick her up before I go for school.

Awaiting the time...

Labels: "Love Sun" Campaign

It is the 1st time in my entire life that I starting to work real hard for my theory paper.

Studying it, going through the CBT a few days before the test.

Well, I simply never did it before.

And what so happening was my classmates went and peeked at the result of the 1st skill assessment that we took this week and according to one of them, I got quite a good mark for it. And wow... That means, I got to do real hard for theory and skill assessment part 2, not because my result is bad but because it is good, I got to make sure it isn't pull down by silly thing like theory. My worst area.

Going through the motion.

Going through the routine.

Missed some classes due to gastric relapse. I hope I will be totally fine tomorrow. Haha... So that I can do well for my paper.

One thing I learn, I believe in healing but sometime, God don't take away all our physical illnesses because He want to remind us to lean upon Him and walk by His strength.

God is not the originator of diseases and He got the power to take all diseases away but sometime, He choose not to, not because He is not a Healer, but because He want us to lean more upon Him, to believe in Him and trust in Him. That... is a test of Faith.

Faith come from within and show from with out.

Faith is not about talking but about acting.

I might mug like crazy recently, but God is the Faith Builder.

And I going to build my faith upon Him.

Labels: Studying

I felt as if I am being crushed by all those projects and tutorial works.

So bored by it and it is the 1st time in my entire poly life that I had ever work and study so hard while working and serving.

Lord, I really need Your strength.

Just finisht the part one of my skill assessment.

Then got theory test on thurs night.

Follow by Skill assesment part 2 on next mon.

Managed to pass gowning with a few errors that is not very critical.

Yet I thanks God, at least unlike the students who took the test yesterday with limited space, I had a super big space to do the gowning and allowed my gown to be open a bit wider.

And before I studying again, gonna attend Gabriel's meeting tonight.

Limited time but expecting God to expand my capacity.

Don't limited yourself. For God limit no one.

Labels: Expansion

There is an yearning in my heart.

To search for an answer to my life.

To search for something deeper.

Something revelational.

Yet something is hindering me.

Is it the devil?

Is it myself?

I won't be satisfied until I received what I want to know.

Yearning. Seeking. Searching.

I will never give up on this quest with the Lord.

Labels: Searching

Wow, I finally got my copy of the photo that we took with Sun at the K-Box.



Still got more to come.

Find out that some of my friends got Sun's photo. Haha... Gonna go get from them too. =]

Labels: Gathering

Really, what can I said?

Have a fellowship with our beloved spiritual father and we already started to not only plan for the CG but also a trip to Taiwan next year. To go and have fun and to bond one another.

Well, I am very excited for next year but it also mean that got to save save and save.

But can afford to spend when necessary.

And guess what, my primary school mates haven't meet up yet and we are going to have a reunion gathering next friday.

Hope we are going to Fish & Co.

Haha... And can really talk to them and see their changes.

Believing God for a wonderful time next week! =]

Labels: Fellowship

Truly, what I had been waiting for, it is worth all the waiting and yearning.

And Pastor Kong is finally back to start the series of the Sermon on the Mount. And truly, I was blessed just by attending the 1st 2 lessons.

And really, today's lesson on the topic of "Bless are those who mourn." really revealed the revelation that God has been impressing in my heart since a year ago at Elaine's place.

A year ago the Lord said to me, "to take up My cross and follow Me."

A year later, it came back to my mind as I was worshipping the Lord, and the Lord said, "take up My cross and follow Me!"

And today, as I sat down and listening to Pastor sharing about being broken in front of the Lord and take His cross and break it, "a image of a cross being taken into the hands of God and being snapped into two" came into my mind and it came hard to me that it was what the Lord was saying to me, to take my pride and give it to Him for Him to break it and allowing Him to come to my heart and stay with me.

Tears was flowing down and my heart was crying out to the Lord for more, more of His presence, more of His anointing and more of His love.

Lots of things I might not understand but this I know, as I follow the Lord with a contrite spirit and a heart that is broken before Him, nothing is ever impossible.

Take me Lord, with You.

To fly with You.

To soar high above the lands and to seek for Your kingdom even more.

I might not have everything but with You, it is all that I need.

All that I have is not longer belong to me solely.

But it belong to You.

So take me Lord with You.

To the realm of the anointing.

Sanctify me.

Wash me clean.

Labels: Sermon on the Mount

I really thanks God for allowing me to arrange with Wei Li to go down to Bishan earlier.

We lost our way, used 10 min to find the open space and just when I wanted to go and look for food then go back to Q, Wei Li reminded me that later on, ton of people will be coming and truthfully said, after we went and brought our food from mac, there were really many people. But thanks God, before hand, we met with Annabelle and Ivan and she looked after our stuffs.

And the whole waiting was worth it. To took photo and I became the camera woman of E431. Now, here is some precious collection that I took.







And here is Sun!!!















And these are the Sun Fans! =]



But that not the end, Jolene and I took some photos in front of an ad of Breaktalk. =]



And really, I wanna thanks God for a wonderful revelation that He had gave me while I was taking pictures of Sun at the front line of the Q.

As Sun was singing on the stage and accepting the interview of the DJ. And man pushed himself to the front and was standing beside me.

He was a man with deformed limbs. His limbs were so twisted that you can clearly see that he was trying his best to walk and clapping hands and taking photos at the same time.

The security took pity on him and wanting to open the gate of the Q to allowing him to come up and go to the front to see Sun even closer but... the man rejected it. Reason being... He just want to be treated like a norman man, a normal fan. Supporting Sun in the crowd and Sun? She was looked toward the man and the man was using his left hand to force his right arm to make a "love" sign and when Sun saw it, she did a love sign back to him, and suddenly to turn to the crowd and said that she felt like embracing that man and she walked down and ran to the man and hugged him.

I was just beside the man, seeing the whole sense and my heart swelled with compassion and a voice came to me saying, "remember the woman with the issue of blodd that humble herself and crawled toward Jesus believing that just by touching His garment, she shall be healed." And with tears in my eyes, I told the Lord, "yes I remembered it." And the Lord showed me, "Just like the woman, this man has the faith even to believe that even if he is not like a normal man but he can still be like a normal man and to receive from my people the healing of his soul."

Amazingly, I broke down in tears and asked Sun came to us and shaked our hands, I felt the presence of the Lord and I told myself, this is the kind of faith that I must have toward the Lord. The childlike faith that no matter what happen, I must have it with me.

And Lord really showed me a lot through this few days as I followed Sun, through the concert, through the autography session and through the time when I sent her off with the other fans.

I saw her compassion, her humility and her faith.

Lord, continue to bless this wonderful woman of God that through her music, many shall be touched and many shall turn their heart to You.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!

Labels: Blessings

I crazy over music once again and they was my once upon a time favorite.

Those of which is J-pop music from anime.

No matter how old am I, I still love those old time anime. And one of those is Digimon. =.="

I just simply can't resist the music. Haha... Well, bear with me. Bear with the music I like. Haha... It is just me...

And I really can't live without music...

Some of the music you hear here... They can no longer be found elsewhere caused it is non existance anymore.

Labels: Music

It is an honor to be so close to Sun.

Being there at the Sun's gathering and the excitement that bursted from within, it is hard to control.

Was practising her songs while waiting for her arrival.

And we could hear the screaming from other rooms just outside of our room and Jo was running in and out to check out when Sun will come to our room.

And was we all very excited. Xian Bi, Wei Li, Jo and I. But Wei Li choose that moment to go to wash room and so happened, Sun came.

She sat beside Jo and started to sung with us.

Then she suddenly turned to me and asked me in a curious way, "how can you did sing?"

Nervously I said I didn't have the mic. Because... I was smacked in the middle of Xian Bi and Jo and they had the mic so I was so squeezed while I felt so nervous. Then we took photo and Sun moved on to other rooms. And not to forget, I passed her the posters with all the GTZ people's blessing, though we nearly forget because, we were just too nervous.

But we all were so excited that we ran after Sun and followed her from room to room and I saw my friend, Shu Hui taking photo. Haha... And I told her, we are just like those paparazzi, just a nicer bunch of paparazzi.

But it was a super fun night. After the 1 hour of following Sun and being so close to her, we settled back in our room and Jo was sharing with us how nervous she was though not as nervous as when Sun asked her to go up stage to sing with her.

And after the event, we choose other singers songs to sing since we kept singing Sun's songs for the past few hours and how crazy we werem singing our heart away. And Xian Bi, acted as a new version of JJ, or should I said, BB? Haha... And we took a video about it.

Too bad, most of the photo is not with me at this moment. It is all with Wei Li. Hope she upload it shortly so that I can have those photo and video.

So excited. I gonna prepared my albums and poster for her to sign tomorrow.

Two more days to go before she fly off to China.

Will miss her and hope to hear more of her songs.

Love SUN!

Oh and not to forget, Jo said, we are the only bunch of people that Sun sung along with us in the room. Haha... Other got embrace her, and we didn't but we happy that she sung with us and her presence really make a different.

Labels: Blessings

Lots of times I told myself.

People don't matter.

Comments don't matter.

Even when the things that I had heard were cruel.

Yet I fight to move forward.

But how many times, it's hurt though no body truly understand.

It's hurt when people judged you just because you are imperfect.

Yet lots of times I remind myself.

Time is the proof of everything.

From characters, to the tasks that we do, to every single details of our life.

Because all mankind is imperfect.

We all tried to perfect yet all failed.

Stop being someone you are not.

Start being someone that God called you to be!

And you shall find life easier to live.

Labels: Unique

After so long of being away from my friend, tonight we sort of have a long but comfortable chat.

It seem like we have all changes.

In study, and even at work.

In seem weird that in the past, we were good friends, and even when I was persecuted by her mum for bring her to church, we were still good friend.

When did things changes?

When we received our vision.

We walked a different path, with a different road.

In the past, we were in the same ministry, but in the end, she turned to another ministry as it called her there and I, raised once again in this ministry when I fall down.

In had been like just 2 years ago, when we sticked to one another.

But now, we focus on different area of life and we walked a different pathway.

If that is the will of God, I will just walk it through, as with the Lord, I had nothing to fear.

Just enjoying the time with her and with God.

Labels: Destiny

Yes!

You see it right.

It is the gathering of Sun's Fan Club this time and...

Sun is really back.

Last time at K-Box United, she didn't come back but now she is back and is going to stay with us throughout the whole event.

The Fan Club had booked 15 rooms for us and Sun is going to come to each room for about 10-15 min to talk to us and take photos with us.

I am so excited.

It is a bit exp to go for it, but for this time round, I allow myself to spend the money as Sun is there and we can use the time to really talk to her so it worth the money. Plus I got Wei Li, Jasmine there too. Can treat it as a girl night out.

Since we can stay on even after the event end.

Well, this might jolly well be the 1st time of my life I spend so many to go for an event at this current moment. But then, if I miss this opportunity, who knows when we will have this chance again.

Chances are not there to stay on, but chances are for you to grab it.

I not going to lose it again.

And look at all these photo! We took it before the Sun's concert! =]







And lastly... With my clone! Sun can't make it last min but thanks God I see my clone. Haha...



And lastly... I nearly bit off Kenneth's head when I saw the signature he left behind on my poster. At least the member from N337 is smart, never left his name, just his CG now but Kenneth... Can see your CG number down there... So clear there... Haha... And some more you so naughty, go and blame others and act blur. =.=" "DIAO!"

Thanks God, one of my brothers very smart, gathered his CG and write just a message. Haha... Give it up to JY! Thanks God for saving space.

Remind me, next time give instructions, must print it on paper, big big, with bold and underline some more. But thanks God, only my "teacher", Isaac heard my anger. Haha... But thanks God the ink mark that some people left behind is not very clear, or else I will be headache. Haha...

But still, wanna thanks all GTZ for the message you all wrote for Sun. As without you guys, the campaign won't be successful. And though, I don't know should I laugh or cry at some of you guys' writing, but you guys make things happen! =]

Labels: "Love Sun" Campaign