Again and again, this Christmas had been a wonderful and blessful season for me.

I wondered how God can make a year better than another even out of my expectation.

On top of all the Christmas presents I gotten, my mum had been a great blesser toward me.

She never saved a single cent when it came to me and though we are alike in temper yet my mum sometime put up with me in various ways and gave me space when none understand.

No wonder the bible said our parents bear to give a lot to us.

My mum gave and kept on giving.

She brought a logcake out of the blue and said it was for the new year celebration yet knowing that Jan is the month of my birthday, my mum brought it so that I can enjoy Jan.

She brought me a new chair since I often sat in front of the computer and worked.

Many sacrifices she had made for me, in one way or another...

This year I hadn't really been very much helps for her and on top of all. it was stressful in various ways for me, yet my mum never failed to love me.

Thanks mum! Thanks God for a wonderful mum.

Labels: Thanks God

Before I start blogging...

Wanna said I didn't go to JW Church service on sun in the end, as I was not feeling well... So for friends that went to look for me that day, I wasn't around thus you didn't see me.

And really had such a wonderful Christmas Eve.

Surprised to see Jin Long and Vincent on the mrt. Wow, I forgot their names for a moment and they laughed... =X Haha... But nonetheless, it was good to see them. Went with them to visit Trudy's store at the Bazaar, A5. She sold so many nice stuffs and in the end, after bringing Cindy they all to take a look, I also brought something too... Haha...

And really glad that Shaun's mum received Christ yesterday. She was such a modern mum. Really enjoyed her presence and Shaun was so happy as usual but much more for his mum is SAVED!

Christmas is a season of rejoicing for this is the day that Christ had born.

And beside, I was born 1 month after Christ.

So happy.

Happy birthday, Jesus!

Labels: Happy Birthday Jesus

Really love God more and more each minutes.

Yes, life is not as perfect as we hoped for, but this Christmas, I thanks God for my sheeps that stood by me and still standing by me even right now.

I received gifts that was just what I had been praying for.

I prayed for a pair of chopsticks with nice design, Bryan brought it for me and also for the whole CG and it was my favorite design, Sakura Flowers.

I craved and prayed for Belguim chocolates, Jolebe brought a box of Belgium chocolates for me and she drew a 4 pages bunny pics for me and it was linked to the card that she drew for Cindy.

I prayed for a box to put my small accessories, Li Ping brought a small decorated box in a cross shaped and it was a box that can also put accessories.

And on top of it, I received cards from Cindy, Cas...

I was so touched that I nearly cried as I opened them up.

I never thought that what I willing to sow, God allowed it to reap back.

Yes, this season, I faced with problems and sometimes I felt hurts when friends don't understand what I went through just to secure the times that I can come for CG and services yet I thanks God for people who stand by me and people who encouraged me and believed in me.

For the hurting part, I still getting past it for some people really being very mur and caused me to feel mur for them...

Yet, I will still following God's guidance.

It really wonderful to just follow Him...

Now I got 2 new friends cum juniors that will be in my group.

I was amazed at the works of God and how He moved.

Really really amazed.

Loving You, Jesus.

You are wonderful.

Amazing...

Everythings that no one can compare to.

You make my life exciting.

Make my life fulfilling.

I loved You Jesus...

Labels: Loving You

God can create MIRACLES!

We pledged for 82 friends this Christmas.

Though we only reached 33 friends... And still got 49 to go yet God is great.

Many of us is getting our family members confirmed and I also trying to get my mum...

Having a bunch of friends that ranging from NP to SP to NYP, I still praying for friends to come.

We all worked hard yet we aiming higher...

N266 targeted 80 people.

With 2 CGs from the same origin, will we make history yet again?

180 people?

We will when we put our heart to it.

We are already at rear 4, and even after sat, rear 4 will be all that we going for.

I'm so excited.

Having a bus filled with youths tomorrow.

It's times to yet again going for what God has told us.

Move with no regrets.

And God will make a way for me too in my family and my friends.

Though this is a times when my friends from my course all had works during weekends and Christmas period yet I thanks God He let this goes past me so that I can still reach out and also integrated my members' friends.

Let live a life of no regrets.

Went past the tireness of the flesh...

Reaching for the refleshing water of God.

More souls...

More revivals.

Every single campuses...

Every single ground.

Everything belonged to God Almighty.

49 more friends...

I can do it and I shall do it.

Labels: More souls

Reading Max Lucado's daily devotion...

My heart was felt with unknown feelings.

Thinking, pondering...

A deep desire burns forth again in my heart.

A deeper desire to once again found the Lord.

The past encounters no longer kept me moving.

New encounters are what going to keep me focus.

I walked the wrong corners of life, making detours and sometime, bumped into the walls, yet my Lord is faithful till the end.

Maybe that why I always found myself staring at Him when I make a turn from the wall that I bumped into.

Had been a year since we moved to expo.

As great as it might be...

I found myself becoming complacent without myself knowing.

Walking backward to where I not supposed to do.

Blaming God at the end of the days and crying out for solutions.

Typical humans, typical men.

I don't wanna be typical.

I wanna be myself.

I wanna be who God called me to be.

He sent women and men of God to speak to me and it took a final words to bring me back to reality.

Considering, pondering.

Should I move into that direction and go toward the 2nd vision that He gave me?

I was so afraid for that was what I determined not to go into, yet God make a surprise turn at me.

He will make a way if I take it, but it required my obedient and determination.

Decision is hard to make, yet I chosen it at this moment.

Struggling is not a pleasant feeling.

Fighting is not a pleasant feeling.

The flesh against the spirit.

It is not a pleasant feeling.

Maybe it's time, to take upon the 1st thing God 1st opened to me. Before I move into the realm of spiritual.

One at a time.

I yearning for the voice of the Lord.

Like what Max Lucado mentioned...

"God does not see the same way people see. People look at the outside of a person, but the Lord looks at the heart." II Samuel 16:7

Seven sons pass. Seven sons fail. The procession comes to a halt.

Samuel counts the siblings: one-two-three-four-five-six-seven. “Jesse, don’t you have eight sons?” A similar question caused Cinderella’s stepmother to squirm. Jesse likely did the same. “I still have the youngest son. He is out taking care of the sheep.” (v. 11)

The Hebrew name for “youngest son” is haqqaton. It implies more than age, it suggests rank. The haqqaton was more that the youngest brother- the runt, the hobbit, the “bay-ay-ay-by.”

Sheep watching fits the family haqqaton. Put the boy where he can’t cause trouble. Leave him with woolly heads and open skies.

What caused God to pick him? We want to know. We really want to know.

“The Lord does not see as a man sees: for the man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart” (v.7)

Those words were written for the haqqatons of society, for misfits and castouts. God uses them all.

Moses ran from justice, but God used him.

Jonah ran from God, but God used him.

Rahab ran a brothel, Samson ran to the wrong woman, Jacob ran in circles, Ruth ran to a distant land, Elijah ran into the mountains, Sarah ran out of hope, Lot ran with the wrong crowd, but God used them all.

And David? God saw a teenage boy, serving him in the backwoods of Bethlehem, at the intersection of boredom and anonymity, and through the voice of a brother, God called, “David! Come in. Someone wants to see you.”

God saw what no one else saw: a God-seeking heart. Others measure your waist size or wallet. Not God. He examines hearts. When he finds one set on him, he calls it and claims it.

I ran before, I hid before.

But I got searched out by the Lord.

Now with nothing can hide...

I can only follow.

A heart after You.

That what I asked for.

Labels: A Heart After God

Really really never regret going for the JW church service even after the Singapore Expo Sat Service.

It was tiring in a way.

Maybe it was because I always slept late and woke up early.

Yet today as I entered into the hall, the presence of God touched me like never before.

Thanks to God, I found a very front seats that was very near the stage and it reminded me of those good old days when Hui Jun and Cliff were still in SOT and I often came for services of the big days. I would always came early and be the 1st person to stand behind the doors and waited for it to open.

People thought I reached too early, people wondered where I got the energy from yet all secrets is with my God who gives me strength.

And as I settled down with my members, there was this lady who sat beside me. She came to this service alone, and during the pre-prayer meeting, I wanna to pray with her but she seemed to be very shy and many times rejected my offer. A sense of no-choice came to me and I turned to my members and prayed with them.

I enjoyed everythings, from praise and worship, to the message that rev. Dr. John Avanzini talked about. It was the same message but I received like never before. It talked about God seeing us under the fig tree and be the true Israelite without falsehood.

I was so amazed by it and all I could do was to wow, wow and to WOW!

And that moment, God was trying to speak to my heart and as the service continued, all that built within me was faith.

And what so different of this service than the one in expo was, when it was the offering time, instead of putting the envelope in the offering basket, Rev. Dr. John Avanzini suddenly asked us to come up to the altar to put down the offering.

Multitudes upon multitudes of people stood up and started to walk toward the altar.

My heart was pumping and I was looking at all those people walking pass me.

I didn't know what to do.

Already increased what was supposed to increase on sat, what more can I do for You, my Lord?

My heart was beating like never before. I didn't has the envelope caused I wondered where my bulletin went too and I thought yesterday pledges was enough, just suddenly the Lord spoke.

"Give!"

And without knowing, I saw a spare envelope on the floor and picked it up and wrote whatever I supposed to write and followed the crowds, I ran to the altar.

Tears flowing down my cheeks.

Tears of excitement and joy.

I felt so released.

Maybe that what it was meant to be.

I given all my livelihood in exchange of the promises of God.

Who knows what gonna happened to me beside God?

And I never knew, as I went back to my seat, sometime after my return, the lady who sat beside me returned also.

And it might sound funny but she started to talk to me, the more we talked, the more excited we were. And suddenly, God said to exchange no. with her. While people were still moving toward the altar to lay down their offering, I asked her for her no.

She was a malaysian, and she given me 2 no., before I could give her my no, Rev. Dr. John Avanzini asked all people to stand and worship God.

So I stopped and told her to wait after the service finished.

But before we knew it, my hp called to her hp and I cut it off.

My bible pressed the dialled button.

My heart bursted with joy.

Divine, divine...

That all I know.

God did many times for me to get to know people from various zone through various means and now in service, He did it again. The last history friend-making was in a female toilet at expo, now in service?

That must be God Himself.

He is really a miracles moving God.

With His hands, He moved mountains.

Really was speechless for a moment.

God, really You are great and good to me.

Labels: Miracles

Never will I ever stopped releasing sadness caused by the world and inviting happiness from God into my life.

This past week had been the toughest week thus far.

Never can anyone believed, this attachment of mine was one of the those happening ever in my whole entire course.

In 2 days straight, I met with the spirit of death at workplace and overcame the fears of corpses to complete my world-given job at this moment.

Tears ran dried. I often asked God in the past, "Abba, Abba. Where are you when I saw no ressurection."

And like Pastor Kong hoped that he can ressurect people, I with the same wish, also tried to do so but it never happened.

Losing gripped of the faith, many times I swallowed the tears and said I gonna be strong.

Times wasn't easy. To choose this path during this period of my life, I really wondered many times, was that why I tried smile whenever I out of it?

Yet with a simple promise, thousands of doubts flew from my mind.

All is filled with the presence of God, even till now, I never forget the one simple promise my God and Abba made toward me 2 years ago.

"As many deaths as you witnessed, thousands upon thousands of new lives you shall see."

With tears, I finally understood.

I am called for greatness that for sure but in my hands, I can bring lives and Jesus into the hearts of men.

I once thought maybe I will someday has the power of resurrection and I has no doubt cause if Jesus can do it, we as children of God who called to do greater works than what Jesus performed while He was on earth can also do so.

Yet, I knew God is referring to the vision and calling in my hands.

AAnd I learned to let go of sadness and welcome happiness.

I complainted at times, I cried secretly at times, I mumbled at times, I hid away at times, yet my God seeked me out times after times.

After every mistakes I made, every wrong doings I done, my God still said He is with me.

I know He never forsaken me, He never wannna me to stay away from me.

He called me into a fellowship.

To get to know Him better.

To love Him deeper.

And to be His child forever.

My Abba Father, teach me to love You more and more everyday.

Give me the grace to overcome the weaknesses of my flesh and to overcome all temptation around me.

With You, I walked through mountains and valleys.

Knowing that You will always be with me.

My Abba Father.

Thanks for being the Father of my life.

Labels: Inviting Happiness..., Letting Go of Sadness

Understanding is not enough.

Applying is what make a different.

Because of an incident, I understood the true meaning of the trick from the devils and the treat from God.

I was once often trick by the devil to believe that my life can be good without God. My life can be freed without God.

Yet I never realised that it was what bonded me deeper to the devil till I realised that my God loved me beyond all that I can imagine.

God always give me treat. Unlike the devil who give treat at first but suffering and bondage at the end. God always sent His blessings at the most unexpected period of my life and greatly help me through my toughest times.

I know my toughest time haven't come yet for one mountain is always higher than another and one challenge higher than another challenge, yet our faith will bring us through.

My faith brought me through all challenges so far and I getting ready for more in future.

With every great destiny comes great challenges.

I giving it all from this point onward to run a good fight of faith.

I wanna to kill giants and devils and keep my faith.

I rather got treat from God then to get trick by devils. Not worth my life at all.

I got a greater life to life for.

And I lived it for God.

Labels: Trick or Treat