TAKE NOTE ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS FROM GTZ WHO SUPPORT SUN!

As we all know, tomorrow is FAMILY CARNIVAL at SINGAPORE EXPO HALL 7, 8 and 9.

And a CONCERT will be put up for us from 3.30pm to 6.30pm at SINGAPORE EXPO HALL 8.

AND GUESS WHO THE SINGER???

It's SUN!

Our beloved Sun has came back to Singapore on 30TH APR and this whole week, she will be at Singapore, for Fan Club gathering, Autography Session for her new album EMBRACE, before she fly off.

As such, I am holding a "LOVE SUN" CAMPAIGN, just for the GTZ friends who love her and want her to hear your wishes and know that you will always be there to support her no matter where she goes.

DETAILS OF THE CAMPAIGN AS SUCH:

Date: 1ST MAY 2007, TUE

Venue: SINGAPORE EXPO HALL 8

Time: 2PM - 3PM AND 7PM TO 8PM

How to participate? : SPECIAL ICS HAVE BEEN ALLOCATED. THEY WILL BE HOLDING 2 CUSTOM MAKE POSTERS BY ISAAC AND THEY WILL BE WALKING AROUND HALL 7 LOOKING FOR GTZ MEMBERS. ONCE YOU SAW THE POSTERS [SIMILAR TO THE DESIGN BELOW], GO TO THEM. THEY WILL PASS YOU THE PEN AND TELL YOU THE INSTRUCTIONS.

PLEASE DON'T SMESH THE INK ON THE POSTER!

INK THAT IS USED IS OIL BASED AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, DON'T SMESH IT.

IT IS A GIFT MEANT TO GIVE TO SUN ON FRI WHEN THE FAN CLUB GATHER FOR HER GATHERING.

SO DO TAKE CARE OF MY DEAR POSTERS!

Your cooperation is kindly appreciate!

LET MAKE THIS CAMPAIGN A SUCCESSFUL ONE!

Samples of how the poster look like

Labels: "Love Sun" Campaign

Studying really freak me out...

Staring at all those E-Lectures, E-Tutorial... It isn't a pleasant experience.

Plus the lecturers kept on reminding us about out PRCP posting.

Oh my...

How I wish I am 1 year older...

Then my PRCP will only be 6 weeks.

Heard that a number of seniors didn't manage to pass through the posting.

It seem like something happen in those 6 weeks posting of their.

But since the beginning, I know my God shall help me.

Just me Your strength Lord!

I am clumsy at times, blur at times but with You as my strength, I sure I will make it no doubt.

2 years had gone already, less than 8 months and I finish this course.

Then I can go to my dream school!

=] Though... Studying still freak me out. =X

Labels: Studying

It seemed like my adopted family has grow...

From older brothers and sisters to younger brothers and sisters, it kept on expanding.

And oh my... Last night was a crazy night for the youths of the CG plus me. =X Feeling a bit sick but... The tasty barley water revived me... Haha... And then Elijah wanna played Truth or Dare and purposely wanna to get me...

But the funny of all is Zhi Xian who was forced to do rabbit-jump and once again... Elijah asked me to show Zhi Xian the rabbit action.

Crazy crazy crazy.

We were loud nonetheless but the funness with Jolene, Wei Liang, Zhi Xian, Irene and Elijah, well, it is fun...

Haha... And I offered to adopt Zhi Xian into the rabbit family but... Irene stopped me and reminded me of Alex. Miss you Rabbit bro... Must win a victorious fight for God and us! Fight a good fight of faith!

This will be added to my wonderful memories box... =]

Labels: Memories

Today, it must be a rare time whereby I stayed at home in the morning without attending the service when there is a special speaker.

I always went for service but this time, I stayed at home due to a recurrent of my sickness.

It was sort of painful.

A dull kind of pain and accompany with a lack of strength and fainting spell, it isn't easy.

Yet, I really don't want it to be like this.

The feeling of wanting God to heal me completely.

The crying for the Lord to touch me.

I continue to cry out.

I continue to seek for healing.

It might not come instanteously but it shall be upon me.

And as I stayed at home, I thought back to the girl that I talked to last night.

The things that we shared and the similarity between us and how I came to know her.

But maybe there is one difference...

A difference that I believe God is gonna to change about her life and to bring her deeper into His love.

There is so many things that we can never know about God.

Yet His love is always so real and tangible.

So comfortable and so soothing...

That no one around me can be compared to it.

Well, now at home, listening to music and thinking... Thinking... And just thinking...

And at this time, I browsed through a few friends' blog.

And one of them is Maddy. =]

Maddy's blog is nice to read. She shared about herself, she shared about her revelations and she shared about her feeling.

And since the time I 1st know her, I was amazed by her in one way or another.

The way she wanna to seek God even more and the way she wanna to grow even more.

It is wonderful.

And I thanks God that I handed my sister over to her and Zhi Nian. They may be from different CGs but they offered to ensure that my sister is back home safely and the ways they care for my sister... I never saw some people that can treat my sister better than me. Haha... But I still a decent sister though very naughty toward my sister at times. =X

And that reminded me of old times pillow fight and kicking one another down the bed. But most of the times, my sister always lost to me. =X Haha...

I really thanks God for those wonderful friends from other zones and my own zone. One way or another, they teach me how to grow, they listen to me and we share with one another about our life etc and etc...

It is good... And it is wonderful...

Thanks You Jesus... =]

Labels: Memories

There are so much more for me to start anew with.

There are so many things going through my mind now.

There are so much changes to make for the next 1 year before I embrark in a new journey with my Lord.

It isn't easy to come this far.

And today, tears just flow out and my heart just open for the works of the Lord.

So much more to change.

So much more to sacrifice.

And at this moment, there is still a lot of things that I am still learning...

And one important thing is the art of ministering.

Today talked to my sheep.

And who know, at night, a fellow zone member just contact me to ask me to share about the sermon and it turned out to be a sharing session whereby she shared with me her problems and difficulties and I in turn share with her what I had gone through and truely it was amazing.

A 1 and a half hour conversation.

One that I haven't had like for many months?

But God is amazing.

I might not be from her CG, not from her leadership but I am amazed by the ways God bring His people together.

And one thing after all these is...

To fast and pray for the anointing...

My voice nearly gone from speaking and I just want to feel God's presence in a tangible way when I'm talking to people.

And what I am so amazed is though I don't like long conversation but the way God used us no matter how insignificant we might see really touched my heart.

I am tired yes, but I enjoyed sharing and listening and it helped me to learn to be a good listener and to be a better friend.

And I happy that even though we only know one another recently but she is willing to be open to me for a friendship.

Well I believe one thing.

God always bring the most unexpected people to us.

And we all grow from learning from one another.

Let us continue to grow like never before...

Haha... Tired already. Dreamland is waiting for me.

God, bless me in my sleep.

And guide me as I dream.

Amen!

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Wonderful Wonderful Savior.

CG today was so amazing.

Half an hour of fellowship, sharing about our own life, visions and dreams, and worship for 1 and the half hour, it was really amazing.

The presence of God so strong.

Literally can sense the happiness of the Holy Ghost, smiling at us, embracing us and laid hands on us as we sung in tongues and worship Him with music and lyrics.

It was simply amazing.

The pictures that the Holy Ghost shown.

The words that the Holy Ghost gave.

It is just what we need in our life.

To seek for Him and only Him.

And we felt so refleshed after the whole experience. Every single one of us. It is so much different. Like a layer of glory fall aflesh upon us.

And toward the end, Cliff said to be open to God and to ask Him to give us whatever that we desire...

And one amazing thing was about being open to people too.

And I pray to God to be really transparent to people.

To allow them to know me deeper and closer. And one more thing that Cliff mentioned is to take the 1st step to get to know people. Someone got to take the 1st step to know people deeper and it hitted me right in the spirit that I got to take the 1st step to know others and to allow them to know me as well.

So much aflesh, so much renewal.

Plus, Israel is having a Bible Copy Project that involved the whole world. I once again committed myself to this project.

It is a project that required us to copy down the verses that are given to us and in return, we will received a cert from Israel. Wow... I am so excited for it. Not only for the cert, but being happy to be part of this project. Need to reach down from tomorrow CG but I am happy about it.

Israel... ISRAEL! I really love Israel.

Well, I am crazy over Israel.

And after CG, Ben, Pei Shan, Cliff, Zhi Xian and I went to West Coast to fellowship with Wee Qi. He just booked out from army after 2 weeks of confinement and got a long weekend to replace the Labour's Day holiday.

It was interesting and Cliff only said that we lack of brothers once again as 15th Jun, Zhi Xian and Zac are going into Army. Now we got a total of 6 army brothers. Reid, Ben, Martin, Wee Qi, Zac and Zhi Xian... Now, either it is Army revival, youth revival or the sisters once again take up the job of the brothers.

Well, lot of lame things coming our ways.

In Ben's car, Ben and Wee Qi were showing us the ways that officers in the army talked and surprising... It seem like the "yellow" that Cindy and I always imitate. =X

But nonetheless, it was a good fellowship with us eating the chicken and the army brothers eating the fish caused they are really sick about chicken and the ways they talked about the food in camp? It is disgusting to me. =X

Well, looking forward for tomorrow CG once again.

Thanks God next week no CG.

For the 1st time caused got Sun's autography session to attend. So excited. Gonna take pictures and arranged to meet up with Wei Li, Jas they all. Haha...

Sleep now! Good night everyone! =]

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Wow... Find this test while browsing Andy's blog.

Interesting and surprisingky, find it to be quite true.

What it said about me?

=> You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

=> You're a socialite. You go out to party frequently and hang around with lots of people. You're very enthusiastic, ambitious and love challenges.

=> You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers.

=> You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.

Wow... I must said... I personally feel that this test is got me there as at least 80% about it is true. =X

But to know me well, take the step to be my friends.

I open to make friends. As long as you are willing to be open to be friends.

I have a hard time with people who I ask a question, reply me with an answer and waiting for me to talk to them somemore.

It hard to have a conversation as it is one way conversation.

Start it now by being willing to make friends. =]

Labels: Quizzes

Thousands of thoughts filled my mind.

Had a dream last night about a lappy that I brought that is considered old model in my mind...

And how it magical transformed into a new model of lappy.

Maybe I really dream too much about my upcoming "dear" that it appeared in my dream to urge me to quickly save up for it.

And today, I pluck in my earpiece again and beginning to listen to all my music collection.

All those Chinese emotional songs or emo songs like all my other buddies always said...

But how much people know that it is during all those moments that I pluck in my earpiece that I get inspirations and visions?

In this world, how many people really know us without us telling them who we are like?

Sometime, we ourselves don't even know how we are like.

It take a thousands stroke to form a picture and it take a thousands encounters to know a person.

I learn to look pass someone's weaknesses though it can be hard sometime yet I am trying because everyone need to be given a chance.

How much chance can we give to a person?

Jesus once told Peter to forgive someone 70x7 times. Which is equvalent to endless times. Sometime, can we even do this?

I am a human too.

And I dare to say, I can't totally do it.

But yet, I'm learning.

And always, I will remind myself, to want to fulfill my vision? Then learn not to judge people.

Missions mean to accept people from all status.

Regardless they are rich, they are poor.

We all got so much more to change.

But one thing 1st...

Learn to open your mind for changes.

Changes come from within and not only without.

Just by changing outside doesn't mean anything if your inside remain dirty and full of dusts.

Allow God to be that cleansing agent!

And He will make sure He scrub us to be clean and shinning.

Just like Himelf is like.

Labels: Thoughts

For the past few days...

My stomach pain has come back.

The long term gastric pain.

I think if I go and see my family doctor, he going to be very naggy again...

But nonetheless, the pain is irritating, caused me to didn't attend school for 1 day and only managed to go to lab lesson because, if didn't go, still got to call the lecturer and do make up which will be very troublesome for me.

There is always a reason behind every thing.

Didn't see me in lectures or tutorial mean that I am sick, either flu or stomach pain. And this year compare to last year, I am not that bad. Last year? I got at least 10 MC. And it caused me to know the school attentance system so well that it is at the back of my fingers.

But I can't continue to have this pain and all...

Well it is bad and I am suppose to be healthy...

I going to pray pray and pray...

I am really sick and tired or being sick and tired...

Plus... There is a flu virus going around my class.

One by one, the students fall sick.

Just in one day, 2 students got MC.

I pray that I won't get flu and cold, once I get it, I can fall sick for many months.

No good.

No good.

I want my health!

Labels: Sick

A few days of uncertainty...

A few days of confusion...

A smile broke forth once again to tell the devil that...

"Hey you... Stop being so annoying. Get away from me!"

It is the time again.

To take out my weapon and hit the devil on his head to see if he is really stupid.

Same old tricks.

Same old words.

But one thing come to me...

"No weapon form against me shall PROSPER!"

So get ready for a fight of FAITH!

For what the devil set out to destroy, the Lord SHALL protect!

Labels: Fighting Spirit

Greater works you shall do...

One dominate verse from the bible.

That speak about going greater works than what Christ had did when He walked on earth.

This year is another year of greater works.

With me being a freelancer after opportunity being given by the One from on high.

Nothing can beat what I about to face.

It might mean that I got lesser than for myself but it also mean more income and more saving for my basic stuffs like I always mentioned for those who know me well.

And my biggest project so far is to open an online blog designing shop by the end of Dec, with some recruits like Issac and Eleanore.

And it is all thanks to God for all the opportunities.

And Issac also asked me to help out with T-shirt designing.

I might not have any basic but this motto of mine will never die out...

"Talents might be born naturally. But the development of a talents by its master is what created a successful life."

I might not be born with a lot of talents and with a poor memory to accompany me but one things I know, my talents can be developed as long as I am willing to learn.

It is only a matter of time.

Greater works I shall do.

Because...

It is just part of the promise of God.

Labels: Promise

Looking forward?

I got so much more to look forward to...

Yet there is some thing that lingering around me.

Is studying so much psychology make everything so logical?

That whatever the voice of God said, it sound so far away.

Yet I keep one thing in mind, I already walk halfway and it is hard to turn back, no matter what, I got to walk till the end of it to prove to people that we God is alive.

I am like a bird.

Waiting to fly away...

To fly toward my destination.

Yet, I know, whatever I gone through, it might trap me, but I still got to walk through it before I receive the freedom that I suppose to receive.

So much ideas.

So little freedom.

So little times.

Lord, I can only trust myself into Your hands.

Renew me...

Teach me...

Guide me...

And love me...

Labels: Future

I am strike by the spirit of boreness again...

1 more hour of break to go. =.=

I am doing lot of quizzes and posted it on my livejournal...

Haha... Boreness really hit me hard.

=.=

But nonetheless, I going for some relaxation this evening after school.

So excited for it.

My back is aching for the poor sitting position in train on my way to school everyday.

Well a great day is waiting, minus the books and lessons... Haha...

Labels: Bored

There is a heavy stone in my heart.

One that is not remove easily.

What is going on?

I can sense a battle coming.

The devils roaring.

The demons screaming.

Maybe, something great is coming forth.

The images of the devils being chased out by the light that is radiated from my Lord.

I want this heavy stone to be away soon.

Lord, take is heavy stone from my heart.

It is all that I don't want to have...

Labels: Burden

A promise of a lifetime...

Not from anyone but from my beloved God.

Even when there is an aching in my heart, the Lord will come and comfort me.

A promise to stay with me till the end of the age.

A promise to love me even when I don't deserve at times.

Yet, it is the still small voice that capivate me.

There are times my mind spinned too fast for my heart to slow down.

Yet the Lord never fail to speak.

There are times, I was alone, yet the Lord still came to stay with me.

There are so much things that I want to do but only one thing You ask of me.

My heart.

A heart that is after You.

A promise of a lifetime...

I will always remember, it is on the bus so long ago that You promised me that as long as I dare to dream, You dare to give.

And I am now willing to give You all that You required of me and in exchange of what I has been dreaming about.

Asia, here I am.

In the next 10 years time, I shall set my foot upon other Asia-Pacific countries.

To see the works of my Father come to pass in those lands.

A promise...

And my Lord never break a promise.

Labels: Promise

More quizzes... Really... I'm just too bored and stress up by all those projects. =P

1. One person on a deserted island you would bring
= Jie Jin


2. Happy with your friends
= Ya, with my close friends. =]

3. Any of your friends two-faced
= There are a few friends but to me who didn't have two-faced, it all up to situations and God's power to tear down the mask.

4. If i were looking for you, where would you be Saturday nights
= Singapore Expo, being in an exciting event. Called service! =]

5. Last person that told you good job
= My boss.

6. ONE person you don't wanna lose
= God. Since to me He is already a person. But if talking about human, maybe the one who will share the common vision.

7. Name one thing about the past you wish you could change
= To be careful when I rejected someone... But whatever is happened already happened. Only if I had a time tuner like Harry Potter did then maybe... Haha

8. First person you go to on a bad day
= God. But for human, my close friends. But rarely...

9. Weirdest thing in your room
= Soft toys? Haha... And some nice shopping bags that I kept in case I need to use it as a trash bag.

10. Ever tell someone you like them even if you didn't
= No... I not those kind who anyhow put like and love in their mouth. Only when I mean it then I said it or else I will be like a mute, say nothing.

11. Gave up on something/someone you shouldn't have
= Nope. But I hope I won't make silly choices.

12. Is money everything
= No. But it is helpful as I need to save up for SOT, and Israel trip. =P

13. Would you sky dive for free
= No. I got height phobia...


14. Anyone you wish you could call right now that wouldn't wanna hear fromyou
= No...

15. Love your physical features
= Haha... Ok ba... Eyes and mouth?

16. Where are you going to be in 15 hours
= Lala land

17. Name someone (besides family) that will be there in 10 years
= My fellow close friends from church and the one who share a common vision as me.

18. Someone you hope will be there in 10 years
= My leaders

19. Wish you could go back in time
= No... I hate looking back to the past.

20. Ever run away from your house
= Thought of but never did as I will miss my bed...

21. Believe in "the one":
= When it is God's will.

22. Ever skip school, if so why
= Yes. When I need time alone.

23. What are you listening to
= Anime... Old time story...

24. Last person who sat on your bed
= My sis? She and I shared a king-size bed.

25. Think there's a heaven and hell
= Yes. Since it is written very clearly in the word of God and also, I saw about vision about that...

26. Who would you meet if you could meet anyone
= The 3 Godhead

27. Are you an open person
= Depend on situations and who is the one.

28. Afraid to fall in love
= No when it come to God. But toward people, maybe...

29. Think you will make a cool parent
= Haha... Not sure but with God, I believe I can. =]

30. Who will you call first when you get engaged
= My close friends. Not parents because they will already see the guy.

31. Is your best friend a virgin
= Ya.

32. Do you wear make up
= Yes. Special occasions, services and when I am sick.

33. Do you like chicken or beef
= Chicken

34. Ever doubt how much someone cares about you
= Who didn't? But my God cares for me more than anyone.

Labels: Quizzes

Renovation completed!

System checked.

Music is running.

Links are working fine.

Yes!

Everything is fine in my bloggy now.

Trials and errors so many times.

Accepted a few technical reports from various siblings and friends.

Jusr rejoice that I had completed this work! =]

Labels: Renovation

I can't believe I forget people's name again...

Yesterday at church, I saw my school mate who is from China.

She was with her CG members then I go forward to wanna to say "hi" but suddenly I stopped and then the next thing that came to my mind was, "what is her name?"

Then I just went ahead of said "hi".

Then she reminded me that her name is Xu Jian.

How can I forget?

But that is not the only case.

Went to Bugis for fellowship.

Saw Qiao Ru. But I forget her name... =X

Then she reminded me again... =X For the don't know how many times...

Lord, I must improve my memory no matter.

Can't remember people's birthday and my own is a bad thing already, now forgetting people's name... =X Can't. At least I remember some people. =X

Labels: Forgetfulness

A overwhelming feeling came upon me.

The desire to thrist for God even more.

To receive from Him just like a deer pant for water.

How I want to be like David, the shepherd boy, who desired the heart of God and ran after it.

A man after God's heart.

Elaine once said, to be a woman after God's heart.

I never understand the meaning of it until I read the 1st chapter of "Moving in the Spirit" by Pastor Phil.

It was an amazing book.

The presence of God was so strong as I read it.

Maybe it is time for me to once again reflect my relationship with God and fine tune all areas that need to be fine tune, especially my heart.

Lord, there is so much more to learn.

So much more to do.

So much more here and there.

What to do Lord?

To be at where I am...

It has always been my desire.

It is full of obstacles but I want to pass it by the grace of You.

Obstacles are just there for us to get over it.

One wall after another...

Lord, how much more to go?

I hoped it passed soon.

But I know, it won't until I reach my destination.

Even when I reach there, there will still be more opposition from the evil ones.

But I dream about it all my days with You that I won't be able to let go.

I'm willing and prepare to give up all just to walk with You.

It is not easy but to lose You, I won't be able to walk on.

Lord, Lord.

Stay with me today.

Labels: Thirsting

What the Lord has bring me through the past few days.

I am grateful for Him and all that He had done for me.

Through the people I met.

And through the people I spoke to.

Really really move powerfully once I bring my focus back to Him.

Talked to Ben before CG and listening to the history of GT zone, I was amazed at how much the zone has gone through to be at where they are.

And talked to one of my primary school mates and was glad to find her accepted Christ while she was in Australia.

And talked to my members and glad to be used by God to speak a word of faith to them.

And lastly, thanks God for speaking strongly into my spirit about forsaking all to follow Him, even if it is what I hold on strongly too.

I am walking toward an unknown destiny but I know as long as I trust in God and be open toward Him, He will always moved within me.

And to be sancitify by Him mean much more than any thing.

Be open toward God.

Don't limit Him.

And the hands of God will always be with you! =]

Labels: Amazing

It called itself 21 love questions.

Just wake up from sleep. And saw this posted by Jace on friendster...

1.) Single, Taken, or Crushin? -
Single? Haha...

2) Are you happy with where you are? -
Ya! Happy with God.

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
Hmmm... No.

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Not by guys? Haha...

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Not really. God hate liars and I hate it too.

6) Would you ever take back a cheater?
No...

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
With friends? Haha... Mostly my little brothers...

8) Do you want children?
Ya... Haha... They are so cute especially when I go to nursey and take care of some of them.

9) How many?
3? Haha... Got to help grow the church too. Haha... And 3 is a nice no. Haha...

10) Would you consider adoption?
When I go to Africa and all... Maybe I will adopt some kids.

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
Not sure. Maybe if he dare to come to me personally? And one of the way maybe is during my birthday. If I ever get emotional, birthday day period is the only period. Better not through Msn or sms. The 1st 2 guys that ever wanna ask me used that. =X

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
In the past? Now... Believe in God sending the right one at the right time and no use playing hard to get if I wanna my head to chop off. =X

13) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
No...

14)Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes! As it is the date of memorial. Like my anniversaries with God.

15) Do you believe that you can change someone?
Depend. As God is the main transformer.

16) If you could get married anywhere where would it be?
Korea? I wanna see winter...

17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Complication...

18) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
In the past? Now no...

19) Have you ever broken a heart?
Ya. History already...

20) Would you ever fight somebody for your significant other?
Fight in the words but not by fist.

21) Is there anything you want to say to your ex?
Not to my ex since I got none but to those guys who ever wanna asked me out.

Stay cheerful. You are a nice guy but you just meet me at the wrong time. True love do need to wait so if I am not the one, just forget it and move on.

Labels: Quizzes

Rest!

I finally can sleep in late on SUN!

Haha... Sleep till 8am...

Well, Pearly is taking over my place to go service on SUN.

So happy...

Well. I still got to rest early but nonetheless, I can stay up a bit late. =P

Thanks God!

The rest is in my hands.

Still got prayer meeting to go but at least it is in the afternoon. Lot of times left.

Bye bye everyone!

Thanks for viewing my blog and be active in tagging.

I love replying to you people and also to read your guys' blog.

I will tag when I can.

God bless!

Labels: Rest

Family value...

That is what Cliff shared during CG today.

It really touched my heart and got me to think about the way I always treat my parents no matter how much they wanna link to me. Maybe... I still couldn't totally forget all those times when my mum spent with my sister and rejected my request of hugs and also my father for always broke his promises to me.

But as I think back to all those times after I accepted Christ and how God built back my family life, I can't do much but be grateful toward Him. As my dad started to really care for me and called me Bao Bei for the 1st time in my entire life and my mum who decided to ask my dad to pay for my school fees for Poly and asked me to stop worry about SOT fees or whatever fees and just saved up all those for myself...

I can't help it but cry to God to help me with it.

As Cliff lead us to sing the song "Family..."

Tears just kept on flowing and the whole CG plus other zone members who came for make up, were crying and hugging one another.

It was such a touching side.

And the service was wonderful.

It regained my passion for the youths and the lost sheeps.

My calling has always been with the youths, but being in the ministry can be tiring and sometime, the tireness can't be describe, yet it is the reminded of what I am fighting that keep me going.

And praise God!

When I see my sheeps grow, the joy can't be explained.

And today Cliff really looked like a father to us than never before.

Pei Shan blessed the CG with food and Cliff was giving out the food like a father and really, the sight was touching. Like a father's shadow. And Cindy called him "dad". Haha...

Nothing compare to this family.

I has been growing up in N266, being through unhappiness, sadness, conflict, joy, love and everything with them. Being my own family, they are a spiritual family that can't be replaced!

Forgive me if I ever do something wrong, for I am just a human.

But one thing I can promise, we are always a family.

And a family stay together and fight together!

Labels: Family

So many things had been on my mind.

Even till now, especially after Benny Hinn's Crusade.

The attacks from different directions, the desire to go up another level and the desire to change even more.

Perharp, I am still me.

But one thing I notice about me.

I can be such a workaholic.

School just started, with lot of projects, yet I still hold on to the job that I only work like 5-6 hours a week. Not a lot of time is being place inside this job but what I earn from it will be be SOT fee, Israel Trip expenses coverage and my lappy.

How unlike other girls.

My main focus are on all these that sometime my mum will say no to it yet it is my dream to have all these 1st before other provision.

And today at work, just before I knocked off, Melvin [my boss] asked me to run a errand from him. From fixing make up CG to my real job, I was tired but I still went ahead without asking him exactly what box he wanted me to get and who was it for and I run out of the office in search of a nice gift box.

And guess what?

Half an hour I return, brought a metallic blue box and gave it to boss. Then he said, next time if he is finding gift box for his mother or gf, he will find me to get as he never thought that at such a short time, I could find a decent box and though he mentioned it was not the kind of box that he will buy but nonetheless he think his father will like it.

And o.o was my expression...

For his father! I brought such a cutey box for his father. =.=

But nonetheless, I am happy. As I really run from Funan to Raffles City.

Really felt like fainting...

And still got to sms my member about make up CG. Haha... Tired yes... But it is the joy of being busy that really take it all away.

But my mind is still thinking and wondering...

About a number of things that Edmund and I talked about and also about a number of fellow zone members that I came across.

Sometime I wonder, how much people really understand about one another.

And it got me thinking...

Well, I think too much already.

And now think about my schooling life and working life.

I hope I really won't become a workaholic.

Already planned to continue to work even during my attachment period and after my course complete to the SOT period.

It is the only way to generate income for myself.

But I thank God.

At least my mum volunteered to clear away my school fee and she said it in such a funny way that since used my father's account, ask my father to pay back. =X Haha...

My father was very funny and my mum is very funny too.

But nonetheless, they are still loving so... It didn't matter when they try to be funny. Haha...

Well, think on the positive side.

Let go of the negative side.

And life will be so much better. =]

Labels: Funny

Going to go for last lecture of the day now...

So tired...

Sleep so late yesterday.

Can heard JY's voice saying who ask you to sleep so late. =X

But something is on my mind.

About the msn conversation that Edmind and I had.

Hmmm... Maybe I should really get him to share.

He said we shall see about it but next time... No wonder JY said even if I normally didn't really talk but on msn, I still chat a lot if I choose to... =X

Going for lecture now.

Cya!

Labels: Thoughts

Haha... Saw this from Pui Man's blog! So decided to do it since now is my break again...


1. Start Time: 9:29am

2. Name: Shi Min
3. Nickname: Min Min, Xiao Shi Shi
4. Astrology sign: Aquarius
5. Gender: Female. Female by birth, woman by choice! =]
7. Hair color: Pure black, plus a tint of orange color at the end
8. Eye color: Pure dark brown
9. Height: 163cm
10. Favorite color: Purple!
11. Glasses: Only on occasion, like lectures, services.
13. tattoos: Nope at this moment. But is considering those temporary sparkling kind of tattoos. Look cool.
14. Birthplace: SG! I am pure SG! Though I wish I am born in Tokyo, Seoul or Australia.
15. Area code: SG no area code... Mur!
16. friends: Li Ru, Jian Yong, Mandy, Su Ee, Liane, Edmund, Jie Jin, Kenrus, Wai Yin. [Not in order] What more can I name? These people are consider in my inner circle.

******HAVE YOU EVER*****

17. Cut your own hair? : Try it when I was young. A tiny bit... =P
18. Done something in the past regret? : Got... Mostly to do with those pestering people... =X
19. Have you ever met someone you were not supposed to? : A few times. Being warn my leader since didn't listen. Trust people easily. =X
21. Skipped school? : Hmmm... I enjoy skipping school at times when I am feeling sick and lazy to go get a MC. I not those kind of quiet and obedient girl. I am more of a silent rebellion kind of girl.
22. Bungee jumped? : I scared of height. Even when I am living at 16th floor. To ask me to bungee jumped? No way!
24. Punched someone? : Got. When I was in primary school, along with my whole bunch of girl classmates. To think about it is quite silly now. This guy who the girls all think is CC love to stalk us, then one day I can't take it so gather the girls to think of ways to get rid of him. I think I punch him on his hands. Haha... Then stepped him. =X And then got into trouble with form teacher since I was a class leader and the monitor is also involve who was my good friend in those days. =X
25. Cheated on someone? : No. My mum counted?
26. Been arrested? : No. Arrested by my mum? For being naughty. =X
27. Broken into someone's house? : Nope.
28. Been to a funeral? : Yes. My great grandmother one. Only saw her for the 1st time in at the funeral.
32. Used a lighter? : I don't know how to use lighter. Haha... Fire and I never go well together. =X

*****FAVORITE*****

34. Season: Winter
36. Ice cream flavor: Pure dark chocolate.
37. School subject(s): Chinese. Not only is my best subject but most of my chinese teachers were close to me and treated me super nice. =]
38. Candy: Crystal like candy. Fruit favorite especially since I don't eat real fruits.
39. Breakfast: Milo with biscuits or just milk.
40. Juice: Water Melon, and also Vitagen.
41. Book(s): Books that can be found at attributes. Also, some fantasy theme story books.
42. Movie(s): Many... But my favourite is Ella Enchanted and Spiderman.
43. Song(s): Delirious, Hillsong, Sydney Mohede, CHC, CCC are all my favourite artists. Not to forget artists from Vanyard Music and Hosanna who are in the realm of hymm. And for secular music, 1st of all is SUN! Then F.I.R, SHE, Genie Zuo, Cao Ge, Zhang Xin Zhe.
50. Letter(s): Every single one that I once received from friends and pen pals.
51. Favorite restaurant : Fish & Co.
52. Disney Princess : Cinderella
53. TV station : Hmmm... I didn't watch any TV now but... TVB should be my favourite cable TV.
54. Name for a son : Haven't think of it yet. =X
55. Name for a daughter : Same as above! =X

****DO YOU PREFER*****

56. Chocolate or Vanilla? : Chocolate
57. Alcoholic or not? : A little bit of wine is ok. It is good for my stomach. But not pure alcoholic drink.
60. Scary movies or comedies? : Scary movie.
61. Short or long hair? : Long hair.
62. Croutons or bacon bits? : Bacon bits.

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******

64. Mexicans in general: Cow boy! With gun!
65. School: Big No No beside SOT. =X
66. Grass: Meh Meh eat glass.
67. Cow: Mooooo.....
68. Canada: Beautiful Seaside.
69. Mouse: Jerry mouse.
70. Hands: To hold out to sky.

******THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU******

71. Watched a movie? : No. Saving up now and no time to go for a movie.
72. Talked on the phone? : I only really talk to Ee Hwa only on phone.
73. Cried? : Yesterday? When I pray...
74. Choked? : Yes... Caused by water... =X
75. Drank a glass of water? : Many many glasses of them. My mum is strict on this. When I am at home, she make sure I drink one every half an hour.
76. Done Drugs? : No. But if you talk about panadol or medication drugs, I don't anyhow eat them but I do love to eat medication. =X Who asked me to see long term doctor last time. So used to it. Now finally get it off me.
77. Read a book or magazine? : Book. Magazine? Wanna read but no time. So many books on hold. Later get chop off my head.
78. Watched TV? : No... Beside my computer. I watch my com every day. Even right now and my com got TV function just haven't use it.
79. Looked in the mirror? : Everyday, before school, in the washroom. What else can I say? But I not those crazy girl who always watch the mirror day and night. =X
80. Taken a shower? : If I didn't, flies will be with me and my mum won't allow me to go and sleep and nagging will await me. =X
81. Taken a picture? : Yes... Latest one is with the team of friends.
82. Listened to music? : 24/7... As long as I am alone and nothing to do, music will be by my side.
83. Kissed someone? : No. Haha...
84. Told someone you liked them? : To my siblings in Christ? Yes! To someone special? Nope... Haha...

85: End time: 09:54am

Labels: Quizzes

Inspiration is leaking...

Got a sermon to prepare.

Got a testimony to get ready for.

The inspiration is leaking.

Keep it while I can.

Labels: Inspiration

Will you ever be sad to see someone who was once on fire and strong for Christ facing difficulties after difficulties and started to fall away?

In my year in the ministry...

Regardless is it from other zone or my own zone.

I had seen a no of this.

Not as much as some of the people but enough to feel their pains for them.

Time after time, great potential can be seen in these people's lives, yet the trials of life beaten them.

The determination to fight on is ceasing.

And the love toward God is fading.

Whenever I heard about their lives.

Cried and sadness filled my heart.

Will I be like them?

I asked.

Will I forget Your love when trials and tribulations hit me?

Lot of times, these questions flooded me.

To walk with God is never easy.

The attacks from the devils.

The mock voices from people who are even close to you.

The struggles to be better not because people told you so but you know you must change.

Yet I know one truth remains.

As long as I love God and remember His goodness, I won;t fall back.

For sadness is short-term but the joy of the Lord is for eternity.

Even at my down moments.

Even when I am not doing well.

Even when those close to me hurt me.

Even when I hurt myself mentally.

The truths remains.

My God love me to His maximum capacity.

Life is boring without Him.

That is for sure.

The past and the world outside might look tempting yet the consequences are not.

To fallen away is to go to hell even without dying physically.

So much of sorrows and only my Lord can take it away.

So much regrets and only my Lord can wash it away.

So much mistakes and only my Lord can cleanse it away.

So much darkness and only my Lord can purify it.

The future is in our hands.

Never look back and regrets.

But look toward the future and rejoice.

Labels: Perservance

Faith that overcome the world.

I feel it.

I experience it.

Faith that overcome all obstacles that the evil ones had placed in front of me.

I make it.

I stand strong.

Testimonies of our life...

Shall be the shame of the devils.

Testimonies that filled our life...

Shall be the best proof that God is alive.

Lift up your eyes today.

And see that faith do overcome the world.

Labels: Faith

Pastor Benny Hinn's Crusade was really impactful.

To think about the anointing that he carried now, it is definitely different from two years ago and I really thanks God for joining the choir because... I earned an upcoming Israel trip.

But nonetheless, so many photos that I haven't upload... And here are the special collection I had.

2 of my best individual photos. Before Benny Hinn's Crusade. I had been wearing a navy blur top for all three days and to keep the shirt clean, I always wear a black tube inside. Haha... And this is the photo with only the tube. I don't wear tube to go out except for safety precaution and can't imagine, I do look quite nice.





This is my clone, Xiao Shi Min. Guess who do her make over? Me of course. Knowing she dislike make up a lot but no choice, got to force her to put it on because the 1st 2 nights, the choir ICs said our make up wasn't thick enough. Even mine. But we still enjoy serving for all 3 nights. =]







Jie Jin and I. Joel said we looked like ghosts because of those weird lighting we stand on. And we do scared him. =X



Now now... That what we called good lighting. For night time...



The 1000 people strong choir that I was part of! Taken by SunShine. Thanks girl for sending it to me. =]



CG Fellowship with Iz. Well, that a crazy night. With us telling jokes.







And last but not least, not taken during the Benny Hinn's Crusade period. Just a snap shot by Iz and looked at Zhi Xian, he draw a skull sign with a cross over it and wrote help on it. Haha... He scared that later I will become "D" on him. =X



Hope these will be another set of memories that I kept with me. =P

Labels: Memories

The desire to change...

Yet again.

It is a different feeling.

Not those changes that was imply because of people's opinion.

But it is the yearning to change for God even more.

The yearning to really let go and seek for a new perspective in God.

I haven't been changing enough.

Or should I said...

I had been too comfotable with the current me that I forget to change.

Change is constant.

It is a never ending process.

To change is hard.

As people that know you for a very long time and always see you might not notice that change.

Yet, inside...

Day by day, night by night...

We are changing.

Not for the worst but for the better.

I stop listening to the voice of mockers.

But to look forward the everlasting promises of God as I change.

It is for the better.

It is for the good of myself.

And I shall continue to change.

For life is always constant.

Labels: Change

The Stages of Love

"Love in the heart was not meant there to stay. Love is not love till you give it away". For love to be ever lasting and eternal every one should be aware of the different stages of love and know its significance. Following are the different phases through which you will travel in your love life and only those who pass it will have an endless love.

Attraction
Attraction can be defined as something, which is more than friendship and is a step towards getting ready for a relationship. Now attraction is of two types:

a. Physical Attraction - happens when your body reacts to another person. Heart rate increases; temperature rises, palms get sweaty; stomach flutters; throat tightens; etc. This is what will tell you that you are ready for the first contact and also whether you are comfortable in the company of the other person.

b. Emotional Attraction - develops next if the circumstances are right. After being drawn to a person physically, you then begin to come closer. If you find you have things in common - hobbies, ideologies, career, education, or some other common ground - then an emotional attraction starts to form. Sometimes an emotional attraction can occur even when a physical attraction does not. And in this case, the bond will be stronger between the two who connect, since no preconceived notions based on physical appearance has occurred.

Intimacy
Intimacy is something, which a person experiences when you learn to trust and believe your lover. It is a close association with another person of the deepest nature. You share you thoughts, feelings, and dreams. You feel free to discuss everything with this person and you are absolutely comfortable in his company. Thus intimacy develops gradually. If you can't establish intimacy with your partner, your relationship may work for a while, but is unlikely to endure throughout the years. Intimacy is actually the path to a true, healthy and beautiful relationship.

Romance
Romance is the essence of a relationship. Without romance your love life will not exist. Romance is the true identity of your love. It brings out your true self and helps you be a better lover, husband and partner. Romance is a celebration of the life you live as part of a couple. It springs naturally and originates from within your heart. It makes you do things that you possibly couldn't have imagined to do otherwise. It shows you who you are and reminds you of the role you play in a relationship. Romance is not responsibility but it is caring about your responsibilities towards your lover and partner. Romance is the appreciation of two people who are celebrating the lucky coincidence that they found each other.

Passion
The third stage is passion, which basically means a desire for another person, which has grown to an intensity that can't be ignored. This is often where an emotional relationship turns into a physical relationship. The passion stage is very important. For from here you will understand the true meaning and nature of your relationship. If there is no passion then its best to let go but if there is passion in your relationship then it is time to go on to the next stage.

Commitment
The last stage is commitment. This is when you know that you want to spend your whole life with this person you love and you can do anything for him. It is when your whole world just revolves round your lover and you take a pledge to remain true to your mate throughout good and bad times, be by his side whenever he needs you.

Wow... Found this from my friendster bulletine which was posted by one of my online friends. Interesting huh?

Labels: Love

One more quiz from friendster. Haha... To kill my time... =P

1. What is your full name?
` Evangeline Lynn Ong Shi Min

2.What colour pants are you wearing?
` Black

3. What are you listening to right now?
` No song. As I am watching anime now. =P

4. Are your legs crossed?
` Yes

5. What was the last thing you eat?
` Milo and biscuits

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
` Black

7. How is the weather right now?
` Humid and hot. =.=

8. Last person you talked to on the phone?
` Ee Hwa

9. 1st thing you notice about the opposite gender?
` The way they talk and their charisma.

10. Do you like the person who sent you this?
` My zone member didn't send this, she just pist it up on friendster. Haha...

11. How are you today?
` Tired from all the school works.

12. Favourite drink?
` Ice milo

13. Favourite alcoholic drink?
` Generally is wine. Beer is a BIG no no.

14.What is your favourite sport?
` Archery

15. Hair color?
` Black. Plus a tint of orange due to I dyed my hair half a year ago.

16.Eyes color?
` Dark brown.

17. Do you wear contact?
` No. I can't even wear spec.

18. Siblings?
` One younger sister

19. Favourite month?
` June, Dec, and Jan

20. Favourite food?
` Fish & Chips from Fish & Co.

21. Last movie you watched?
` Just follow laws. No time to watch other movie but... I;m giving some of my time for Spiderman 3. =P

22. Favourite day of the year?
` 25th Jan

23. Saturday or Sunday?
` saturday .

24. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
` See who is the one that I ask to go out.

25. Do you like marmite.
` What that?

26. Summer or winter?
` Winter

27. Hugs or kisses?
` Hugs from sister

28. Chocolate or Vanilla
` Chocolate

29. Do you want your friends to write back?
` Up to them.

30. Who's most likely to respond?
` Haha... not sure. =P

31. Who's less likely to respond?
` Not sure.

32. Living arrangement?
` Huh?

33. What book are you reading?
` God's Generals

34. Did you wake up before your alarm went off?
` When I don't need to wake up at an unearthly time like 5-7 am. Any time from 7am - 8am, I will auto wake up.

36. Do you miss big brother yet?
` Huh? Huh? Huh? I don't have any brother to miss.

37. Favourite smell?
` Lavendar

38. What inspire you?
` Nature and music.

39. Buttered, plain or salted popcorn?
` Salted popcorn.

40. Favourite crisps.
` Potato chips.

41. Favourite Car?
` BMW?

42. Favourite flower?
` Lavendar

43. How many keys on your key ring?
` Three. One for letter box, one for the gate and one for the wooden door. =X

44. Can you juggle?
` What is this?

45. Favourite day of the week?
` None

46. Red or white wine?
` Red

47. What did you do for your last birthday?
` Go Fish & Co with my BS mates.

48. Do you own a donor card?
` No.

49. What is the 1st thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
` Can I try to sleep some more?

50. What are you doing once you have finished this?
` Continue to watch my anime. =X

Labels: Quizzes

Sections... sections... so many sections...

Known as: Evangeline, Lynn, Evan, Shi Min, Min Min.
+ Born: 1988

SECTION 1 - HAVE YOU EVER

+ Fallen off the bed?
Yes, when I was young.

+ Broken someone else's heart?
A few times...

+ Had your heart broken?
By guys? No. But friends... Yes. Lots of times.

+ Had a dream come true?
Yes. A number of times and I will always have my dream come true.

SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...

+ Wearing: Normal home clothes.

+ Listening to: Hillsong, Magnificent

+ Chatting with: Nobody

SECTION 4 - DO YOU...

+ Have any piercings: Yes. Ear piercings. The usual one.

+ Drive: Not yet. Hope to either have someone drive me or I go and learn when I am 21.

+ Drink: Water, watermelon juice

+ Have a cellphone: Yes. Nokia 6233. Quite a good hp. Will buy it soon. Haha...

SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...

+ Hugged: Xiao Shi Min, my clone when the choir ICs announced the good new about the Israel trip.

+ Talked with on the phone: Ee Hwa

+ Text: Su Ee

SECTION 7- FAVORITES

+ Show: Anime?

+ Food : Chicken Wings

+ Color: Lavendar

SECTION 8 - DO YOU...

+ Like to give hugs: Yes, I even participate in the outcoming free hug campaign by my brother, Alex. =]

+ Like to walk in the rain: Yes, and hopefully I won't fall sick.

+ Prefer black or blue: Black

+ Sleep on your side: Yes!

+ Have stuffed animals: Yes and I display them on my computer table. Don't bring them to my bed as I am quite allergy to the furs.

SECTION 9- THIS OR THAT.

+ Pierced nose or tongue?: None

+ MTV or BET: MTV

+ 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: 7th Heaven

+ Chocolate or flowers: Chocolates

+ Colored or black n white photos: Colored

+ Stay up late or sleep in: Stay up late

+ Hot or cold: Cold

+ Sun or moon: Moon

+ Left or Right: Right

+ Spring or Fall: Fall

+ Happy or sad: Happy

+ Wonder or amazement: Wonder

SECTION 10: FIRSTS.

+ First piercing/tattoo: Ears

+ First crush: Jia Sheng

SECTION 11: LASTS.

+ Last time you cried: Today?

+ Last phone call: Last night conference

SECTION 12: CURRENT.

Current mood: Calm

Current food: Milo and biscuit

Current annoyance(s): Internet

SECTION 13: WHO LAST...

1. Made you smile: JY, Iz and ZX

2. Saw you cry: God

SECTION 14: WOULD YOU RATHER..

1. Be serious or be funny: Serious

2. Drink whole or skim milk: Skim Milk

3. Spend time with your parents or enemies: Parents

SECTION 15: DO YOU PREFER...

1. Do you prefer gray or black: Black

2. Lust or love: Love

3. Sunrise or sunset: Sunset

4. M&M's or skittles: Skittles

SECTION 16: ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Do you like anyone right now: God? Beside that, confusion set in.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight: Attraction at 1st sight then yes. Love at 1st sight? No.

3. Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl: Like then yes. Fall in love? No.

Labels: Quizzes

Another survey... How many more to relieve me of my stress? Haha...

1. What is a question that people ask you that always gets you confused?
# Random questions.

2. Name something you have in common with all your siblings?
# Surname

3. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you have ever endured?
# Being beat up by cane when I was young.

4. Do you fold your clothes?
# When I clean up my closet.

5. Who is the last person you wrote a letter to on paper?
# Li Ru

6. Have you fired a gun before?
# Toy Gun

7. Name someone you consider a genius?
# Jesus

8. What was your favorite childhood toy?
# I didn't really play toys so didn't have any. But I love to dissect toys. Does it count?

9.Name a sound that disturbs you
# When girls screm. =X

10. Name someone who is so random?
# Jia Sheng

11. Name a person whose diary you would love to read.
# Can't think of any now.

12. Have you ever had the same dream more than once?
# No. Though I hope so. Some dream got cut off because of the alarm clocks in my house. =.=

13. Name a song that makes you happy.
# Liang Shan Bo and Julia

14. Name someone that made you laugh this week.
# Zhao Jun

15. If you were in an emergency situation and you had to deliver a baby, could you?
# Yes. I was not train but I saw the process before so should be able too.

16. What do you like about being in a committed relationship?
# The devotion toward one another.

17. What do you dislike about being in a committed relationship?
# I can't do whatever I want and I got to set time aside for another person.

18.If you were famous, what would you be famous for?
# The 1st woman whose name is heard all around the world because she shine for God and outshine even those who disciple her.

19. Name something you dislike about your mother?
# Naggings

20. Name something you dislike about your father?
# Naggings. My father and mother are like a nagging machine. Haha...

21. What is on your refrigerator door?
# Magnets that I found is cute.

22. Name the closest thing to you that is green.
# Green High-lighted

23. If someone who didnt know you had to guess your name, what would they guess?
# No idea.

24. Name something you have to do tomorrow.
# Have lessons then work.

25. Name a movie you are looking forward to watching.
# Spiderman 3

26. Have you ever called 911?
# 999 got. Then the 999 called 911. Is it counted?

27. Name something you've heard about women that tends to be true?
# No sense of direction. But... I once again make things clear, I lose my sense of direction because of my poor night vision.

Labels: Quizzes

Projects...

7 projects to be handed up within the next 7 weeks.

Next semester really didn't start any better.

More stress.

It is pressing upon me.

I need more of Your strength to sustain me through.

Gonna study harder.

Gonna do well for this year.

Gonna see more miracles.

And gonna be prepared to enjoy my holiday once the course is complete in feb week 1 2007.

Lord, save me from all the projects.

It seem like that is not the end of it.

Still got more to come.

And more tougher.

Yet, if got to do it...

Then just do it.

At least...

You gave me a good bunch of people to work for the projects.

So that we can ensure that everything shall be fine.

I just choose to believe.

And that all I can do now...

Labels: Tireness

Taken from Liane's blog. Now on break, only left this to do... Haha...

You
Can
Only
Type
One
Word

Not as easy as you might think.

1. Where is your cell phone? Table
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife/lover? Eternity
3. Your hair? Long
4. Your mother? Loving
5. Your father? Caring
6. Your favorite item? Computer
7. Your dream last night? None
8. Your favorite drink? Milo
9. Your dream car? BMW
10. The room you are in? EPlaza
11. Your ex? None
12. Your fear? Opposition
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Missionary
14. Who did you hang out with last night? Friends
15. What you're not? Small
19. The last thing you did? Blogging
20. What are you wearing? Clothes
21. Your favorite book? Undercover
22. The last thing you ate? Chocolate
24. Your mood? Calm
25. Your friends? Crappy
26. What are you thinking about right now? Music
27. Your car? None
28. What are you doing at the moment? Quiz
29. Your summer? Alone
30. Your relationship status? Single
31. What is on your tv? Blog?
32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Sunday
34. School? No
35. Past time? Jokes

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Burden...

A heavy yoke that I am carrying.

Being in school, saw the sad truths of what it is mean to be outcast in a foreign country and all decisions are decided by those who think they have the authority to decide everything.

Saw 3 foreign students, being pushed around by classmates.

And they kept silent, they said nothing and they bowed their head, waiting for the decision make by the local students.

I am a local but my heart go toward them.

Yes, we might not always talk to one another because of the cultural different and their close-ness toward others, yet when I saw all these, I was sad for them.

The silent hatred within them, it can be seen from their eyes.

They are from China, yes... No doubt.

But if we can accept a few China people why can't we accept them?

There is only a few things that I can do for them.

To smile, to be nice and to listen when they shared.

A few of them I might not be able to understand and flow with them, but at least, I can still smile even when my heart ache for them.

The burden is with my heart.

As I remembered how alike I was in the past like those who outcast them, sadness came to me.

In the past, I never like the China Chinese, as people always compare me with them because of the unique accent that I had and unknownly, the dislike just grow on me.

Why can't the local just accept me for who I am and not keep on notice on my accent?

That was my 1st thought and my last.

But as I get to know Jesus and feel His heart, I no longer dislike this accent.

Yes, there are times I will tell people that I know you surely said I got a China Chinese accent or some people even said I got the taiwanese accent but I am proud of it as how many locals can born with this unique accent.

And as I seek for the purpose in life and dwell in God's presence, the will of God unfold.

I was not born like this for no reason.

This accent will allow me to mix well with the China Chinese.

It is proven time after time.

Lord, please continue to guide me and guard my heart.

To have more compassion for Your people, O Father.

To love them just as You have love them.

And to care for them just like You have care for them.

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I desire for more of Your presence Lord...

For of what You want to give Lord.

And as I lean closer.

It is Your presence that draw me deeper.

Lord...

How can I ever live without Your presence.

The emptiness within me...

It is You who fill that space.

No one else but You so Lord be with me today.

Bring me to another level so that every single day I will feel You more and more.

There is an unsatisfy yearning within me...

Fill me Lord.

More of You!

Labels: Yearning

God will make a way out of an impossible situation!

Received my pre-attachment timeline and it so happen to crash with the 8th-10th day of the Israel trip.

I am glad that my third year will complete in Feb 2008 but when I see the schedule of my pass-out attachment, my heart sank. But instead of blaming God, faith build up within me, for one thing came to my mind, I always want to go to Israel and this is the time. God is going to make my dream come to pass and it is just the beginning to fight for my faith. My school authority is Christians, they might not liked City Harvesters a lot but I believe one thing... When God is with us, nothing is impossible. He shall always make a way for us.

And God is still amazing...

Went out with Cindy, Alex, Ronny and Lester for fellowship.

Ronny and Lester are our CG members' friends and it seemed like I never got the chance to meet them during easter but what so amazing was the fellowship. They were quiet but as we shared jokes, we were all laughing and laughing like never before.

Lord, no matter what...

Please sustain me...

Guide me...

Lead me...

I believe and shall continue to believe in all that You had promised.

Labels: Determination

Quiz that interpreted our view on love?

Well, today Cindy gave us a test of our view about love during the fellowship.

And it seem like no matter what... My answer remain the same as the last time I done it a year ago during her SOT period.

And interestingly, I started to think how true does it apply in my life regarding the relationship I had with God.

1. If you are going to your BF's house, which road will you choose?

a. Long but interesting road.
b. Short but boring.

My choice: a

Interpretation: If you choose the long but interesting road, it mean that you will take a long time to fall in love. If you choose the short but boring road, you will fall in love very fast.

2. If you walk pass a bed of roses. On the left is a bed of white roses and on the right is the red roses. You decided to pick a bouquet of roses but you are only allow to pluck 20 roses, how many white or red roses will you pluck?

My choice: 10 white and 10 red roses.

Interpretation: The number of red roses that you pluck represent the amouunt of love that you will give to the one you love. The number of white roses represent the amount of love you wanna receive back from the one you love.

3. You reach your BF's house and the maid open the door, you will:

a. Ask the maid to call him to come out.
b. Go to his room and look for him.

My choice: b

Interpretation: If you choose to ask the maid to ask him to come out, it mean you are not urgent and you got patient. If you go straight to the room to look for him, you are always urgent about him.

4. You go to his room and found out that he is not in his room and you want to place the bouquet of roses in his room, whichy place will you choose?

a. Window railing
b. His bed

My choice: a

Interpretation: If you choose windowm railing, it mean you are the kind of person that can don't need to see the one you love every single day, once a while also can. If you choose his bed, you are the kind that want to see the one you love every single day.

5. You are staying at you BF's house for a night, in his guest room, and the next morning you wake up and go to the room, you will find him,

a. Still sleeping
b. Already wake up

My choice: a

Interpretation: If you choose the choice of still sleeping, it mean that you can accept the one you love the way he is. If you choose of already wake up, that mean you expect the one you love to change for you.

6. You leave his house and there are roads for you to go back home, which one will you choose?

a. Long but interesting road
b. Short but boring road

My choice: a

Interpretation: Same as the 1st question. Long and interesting road mean you will take a long time to fall out of love or to get over a broken relationship. Short but interesting road mean you will take quite a short time to fall out of love or you will a short time to get out of a broken relationship.

And weirdly, I started to think about the journey of knowing Jesus.

As I was walking back home from the bus stop, I started to recall back to the time when I knew Jesus.

Remember as I 1st accept Him as my Savior, for 6 months, I didn't really love Him as what the others always said. To me, it was fun to feed me with all the theology but for my heart to fill with love toward Him, it seem unbelievable. It took me a whole 6 months, during Pastor Benny Hinn's crusade 2 years ago, to see His love for me as He healed me of a childhood disability of speech.

And always to the people around me, they always thought that I was very on fire for God at that time, but they never knew the struggle I gone through. As people wept in the presence of God, I never cried or even felt any raw emotions from my heart. It was like my heart was a rock. It stopped feeling and it stopped communicating. Yet at the crusade, as I heard the testimonies, as the love of Christ was being preached, the love of God fall upon me and for that moment onward, I feel His love like never before and now is a strong believer of His love.

And when I thought about the amount of love I give and I wanna receive, it reminded me that no matter how much of love I give to God, He will always out give me for His love is eternity and beyond what we know. Even time after time as I fallen backward, He still stand in front of me like He always do and offer His hands to me. How great is His love!

And always and always, I am yearning for His presence. There are times I just wanna give up yet whenever I feel a tiny bit of His presence, it renew me and bring a greater yearning within me. I just want to continue to dwell in His love and never have enough. It is amazing to feel His presence.

And lastly, it is a bad and good thing to be a slower in falling out of love. For I just don't wanna fall out with love so fast with God! To fall out of love with Him because of a crisis is silly. And I don't want to be silly.

And Lord, I wanna to learn to love You more and more every single day. For Your love is all I need...

Labels: Quizzes

Amazing is my God.

He speak through all sources.

Through His anointing.

Through His people.

He speak through all kinds of means.

Today meeting was impactful.

The presence of God was so strong and all that I asked for, He gave to me.

Fall under His power.

Experience the trembling sensation and the fall of His anointing.

The tears that flow down my cheeks.

The joy that bursted out of me.

Under His power, I had no way of escape but to fall under His anointing.

The holy laughter...

It was amazing.

And during the time when Pastor Benny asked the China Christians to come to the stage and listened to their testimonies, the cries within me bursted out and the promises of going into China once again flooded my mind.

And a blanket of the presence of God fall down from heaven.

The heart for China.

It is growing.

Deeper and deeper.

Lord, keep the doors of Asia open.

Don't shut down on the Gentiles for there are still many who are yet to hear about You.

I really wanna to go to all around Asia and I once told Xiao Shi Min that I will not only become a ZS in the near future but also a missionary in the 10 years to come and go all around the world, especially Asia for that is where my passion is at.

And Pastor Benny really changed a lot since we last saw him 2 years ago.

The way he preached.

The way he moved with the Holy Spirit.

And the way he cracked jokes in the meeting.

It was amazing...

But most of all.

I thanked God for giving me the chance to be in Choir.

The good reports that we received from various Pastors and also Pastor Benny Hinn himself earned us a "Israel trip" promise.

Pastor Benny is going to request for the choir to go for Israel in Nov 2007 and will get us the ticket at a much cheaper price compare to the pastors. And it has been my dream to go to Israel... Every single year, I has been yearning for it and as what I did for SOT, I prayed and believed in it greatly and even start planning for it but God will always move in ways that is unexpected and this time, it won't be any different.

Amazing is my God and He is always moved in an amazing ways.

And today fellowship is good.

Shawn, who was once my secondary school classmate, joined us for the crusade and it was a fun time, with jokes being told by us [Reid, Me]... And I turned into the joke when Shawn shared a joke about 3 samurais and Pastor Caset Treat shared it before about this joke but what Shawn shared was a different version that I once read online and he shared about the Jewish samurai instead of killing the fly, he circumsized the fly and then I told them that the fly is a male. And the samurai is very skillful because he can... do the "circumsize" and I made a very dramatic action along with it. Then Pearly started to laugh and the whole CG laughed. Because of my dramatic action and the way I explained about the "circumsize". =.="

But nonetheless, in the end, Shawm and I travelled back home and just as I has guessed, he was those people who communicated in the "intelligent" style and though I got this weird feeling because of the topic we discussed about doctrines and all yet I glad to find someone who communicate in the intelligent style for it is rare to find people like him. Haha... Well, I do ask weird questions and stirred up some interesting topics. And one thing I remembered we shared about our dreams and talents.

And it stirred up some thoughts within me and it was great for at the end of it, we both knew that what God has given, He will never take it away.

And when I reached home...

All I think about is...

HOW AMAZING IS OUR GOD!

He is always amazing...

Everywhere and anywhere.

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Lord, there is so much emotions within me.

For so long.

I never thought I will be emotional.

But the move of the Holy Spirit as it touched me, bring back the emotions that was buried deep inside me.

For so long.

I stopped walking by emotions.

Yet there is a yearning within me.

Now is the time Lord...

Now is the time Lord...

The embrace the I felt.

The smooth, soothing voice that I heard.

The promises that You make.

And the vision that You give.

Now is the time Lord.

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Leaving behind.

So much things has been on my mind since yesterday Benny Hinn's Crusade and it still lingered with me even after tonight session.

So many thoughts.

So many spoken words from God.

So many images.

Lord.

What shall I do?

I can't always be at the same place with the same people all the times.

Yet through all these, people never catch it.

Some grow. Some stagnant. Some just starting to fallen away from this journey.

A leader once told a member.

Time will tell everything.

Good or bad. Time is the best proof of a human perservance.

How long will I be with the people I will be?

The three choices came back to my mind again.

I had already walked through the 1st and the 2nd choices.

Left the 3rd one.

Will it come to pass like how I feel it is going to turn out to be?

If it really happen.

What is the legacy that I will left behind before I move on to the next level of life?

Will I be remember?

Or am I just one of the people that appear in their lives?

I am looking forward now.

To the plan of God.

There is many scars in my heart.

Yet tonight the Lord healed me.

Yet tonight the Lord pieced back every broken pieces.

And only one truth He spoke.

Trials and tribulations you will walk through but out of it, you will find your happiness, your joy.

Who will be fighting with the Lord?

And who will be leaving behind?

It is all up to us.

The decision is in our hands...

Labels: Determination

A smile a day.

Chase the devils away.

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Tired.

So tired.

I need a flesh anointing of the Holy Spirit.

I need to experience once more the living water from on high.

And to renew my mind once again for you Lord.

Renew me.

Reflesh me.

All I need is to experience You once more.

And that is all I need.

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To give is to receive.

Financial planning is so important.

5 things to give into in the next 1-2 years time... No rankings are given.

1. SOT

Settled my SOT fees, plus books and lappy if possible. But the basic is SOT. Believe to have enough when the time come next year! Confession is the best key to unlock the blessings of God!

2. JY's surprise

Owe him a meal because of a blog I do for him. Who knows it will play a part to start my journey to earn money for doing blogs.

3. Buddies' birthday.

So many best buddies of mine will be having their birthday soon. Going to note it down and get present for them.

4. CG stuffs and all

Giving to God is part of the will of His.

5. Giving to my loved ones.

This year, I planning to get something for mum and dad. Haha... Well, they are the most loving couple I know but due to the lack of time, I am often away from home. Never really give them anything. It is always them who give to me. And my bonding with them might not be good but they still love me to the max, even more so then my sister. So I should do something now. I might not have a lot to give but it is the act of love that make a different. Haha.. The motives of a heart.

Giving... Giving... Never be tired of giving.

The most you give.

The more you shall receive.

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Excited God!

I am so excited.

Benny Hinn's crusade is tonight and I am serving.

What is better than serving God?

And what more is the blessings that I received from just doing what I am good at and what I love today and get paid for it.

And I shall continue to work in Cliff's office. Maybe someday I will be a full-time there before I go into full-time ministry?

God is so good to me.

Through the valley I walked, He stay with me and withhold me.

Through the mountain I stand, He praise me and guide me.

What is better than being with God!

And to be so blessed.

Who will has thought about it?

And my sister is coming for service tomorrow night.

She sprinked her ankle.

Must ask Zhi Nian to see whether she receive her healing tomorrow.

I'm so excited and I am so bless.

Blessings... Blessings... Blessings...

As long as you walk with God and be patient...

His blessings shall be pour out.

For blessings is in the will of God!

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Weirdo! Weirdo! Why is there so many weirdos???

A conversation with JY now strike me...

Why am I struck with weirdos?

Until now them it strike me...

If JY see this... He will laugh like crazy.

Weirdo... weirdo... who is there so many weirdos...

Talk about one of the weirdos with JY today.

If it is because the person is a weirdo then the person act that way...

I will be real upset with that weirdo.

But like JY said. What if the person only want to irritate me. Then I will turn real upset for sure and the fiery fire of a lady will be shown.

Now forgetting the weirdos.

I hope I am not turning into one.

Told JY that I was excited to be with my dear com instead of the office's com and his respond was "weird"... Everyone are going back home for dinner but you go back home for your com?

And my respond is... ya. But I still wanna to get a lappy. Fujitsu lappy. Haha... I now used to the office lappy that I wanna one myself. 80GB. For SOT use too. Long hours at SOT and plus the working hours, how many hours will I have with my com.

And JY said so unfaithful. Got a com still want another. =.="

And the funny thing came about was when I told JY that in future I might as well marry my com. Haha... Well, I hope so but... later I got send to IMH. =.=

Just kidding gals and guys.

Haha... My com is my necessarity in life but my life is not as dependent on it as in the past. Haha... If you hear my testimony before... You will know why.

Labels: Funny

At the crossroad of life.

I saw a vision.

To choose to follow You and forsake all.

Or to follow the loves of the world.

I lifted up my finger and point forward.

To the path that lead to a journey of unknown.

It is the road that walk with You my God.

It seem narrow and uneven.

But compare to the wide and smooth path.

Though it seem harder to walk.

But it look exciting to me.

It might seem hard but I know at the end of it.

It is You that is with me.

I am willing to let go.

Of all that I held strongly to.

Just to follow Your ways.

Determination win all.

And it win over my feelings.

My emotions.

My fears.

My doubts.

For I got You with me.

And only You with me...

Labels: Perservance

Guess what I found on friendster today?

Another survey to kill my boreness and hopefully when my brothers they all saw it, they won't laugh at my answer again. =X Like my answer with the spiderman. Till now they still laugh... Haha...

1.What are you doing right now?
Taking this survey, listening to the song "Favor of Life" by Utada Hikaru, reading people's blogs, chatting with my Clone "Xiao Shi Min" and smsing. Is it enough to kill my sudden boreness? Haha...

2.What is your fav song?
Sun's latest Album songs especially Qiu Tian De Wei Xiao and Embrace. Also Utada Hikaru song called Flavor of Life.

3.Have you ever fallen in love?
In love with God then yes. With guy... Crushes had but really fallen in love... never.

4.Are you the type who fall in love easily?
I am easily touch by a guy's kindness and might like them but to be in love easily is very hard for me. Already it took me 6 months to know God to really accept the fact that there is a God and His love is never failing so what more is a human's love? Haha...

5. Do you like someone now?
Maybe. I'm confused myself about this one as life can be confusing at times.

6. How many ex do you have?
Never had one.

7. If you were to migrate, are you able to do so?
If it is to migrate for the cost of missions, I will. And if it is the "me" in the past, if I got the ability to migrate to escape from the reality and seek for a sancturary, I will leave without hesistation. Haha... But now, only for missions for I will not escape from reality but to face it with boldness.

8. What is your mood like now?
Excited. Happy! Because Benny Hinn's Crusade is tomorrow! And I'm serving in a choirs. Plus I had already gather the people to meet up and also to take cab home. What more can I ask?

9. Who are you missing right now?
The presence of God. Haha... He is still with me but I wanna more. And if it is about those that I missed... I missed my "clone", JY, Mandy, Jace they all for we all have fun when we chat and fellowship.

10. What surprise you want for your birthday this year?
My birthday already passed and I already got my surprise. Being pranked 2 times this year, what else can I ask? But next year, I hope that I won't get prank but enjoy the time by spending it somewhere eating. And maybe that time I claim my meal from JY? =P

11. If you were to be stranded on the deserted island, which are the 5 items you will bring?

1. Lappy
2. Digicam
3. Water, ton of it
4. Foods!
5. Sleeping bag


Are my answers laughable? Haha... Hope when my brothers and sisters saw it, they won't laugh too much. =X Haha...

Labels: Quizzes

One conversation with JY reminded me of the ups and downs of being with God.

The sharing of what his leader once told him about being firm and let times be the prove of everything really showed me that how matter how tough life might seem at times but it is always the faithfulness we have toward God that proved everything.

Those that are not teachable.

Those that are impure.

Those that disobey the word of God.

Those that choose to give up this journey with God.

They all give up because they can't stand the testing of the heavenly fire.

How many of us have thought of give up and how many of us are willing to fight until now just to be with the Lord.

It is the perserverance fire inside of us that will bring us to the destiny that God has for us.

Holding on.

Never let go.

And time shall be the best proof of our life.

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Wow... JY's blog is near the stage of being complete. Haha... but a lesson need to be given to ensure he know the function of his bloggy. And not to mention, I got to keep on reminding him about my meal. Hehe... Who ask him to call me mdm? Like Zhi Xian. I'm not that old. Just a year older. =.="

And now I;m at office.

To look after the "home" as Hui Jun put it and they are buying food for me.

If I don't eat, one of my brothers, JY, is going to ask and ask me to eat and stop touching those pantry food. Linda said I am just like her, can eat biscuit and be full. Well, who ask me to be on medication. It stolen my taste bud's function and caused me to keep on having this bitter taste that won't go away. And man... When I cough, it feel like my lungs are also being cough out. But I believe I'm getting better. Like Pastor mentioned... Received the healing power of God. Even before Benny Hinn's Crusade, I am going to get well and enjoy serving in the choirs!

And today chat with JY as usual. This brother... real funny too but always open to chat and share and glad to know him for we learn from one another and encourage one another. So many little brothers I had adopted. Guang Xiang, JY, Alex. Their age gap is all one year or even greater apart than mine. Haha... I believe I shall have more "gan di di"s. And train them up to be strong brothers.

And guess what JY and I talked about?

We talked about the weirdos that we came across.

Haha... And not judging them but mostly find it funny how we came to know them and even I found that everyone of us will have this weirdo nature inside of us.

And we also share about relationship thingy.

And we just share about our view and all and when I mentioned to JY about how much I want to get marry by 23. He said, I got to get attached by 20. =.="

Well, I can't say much for my view is about the same though a bit different still but all leave to God. Like we all said, God shall plan all things. Haha... I still got a whole bunch of missions t think about. But most of all, my ministry.

Unlike JY, my plan is to work all the way toward ministry after my graduation from Nursing.

Many people ask me what I am going to do if I'm not going to work in hospital. Most of the times, I rather I don't say anything. Just tell them I will see about ut again.

But actually, I already got the plan already.

Haha... And what I need now is the empowerment of the Holy Spirit and the guidance of God. Ministry! Go! Go! Go!

I got a ministry to think about 1st.

Well, we had a weirdo conversation nonetheless.

Haha... Anyway, I'm getting very excited.

Might stay on to work as part time since I only will work at most 2 days and about 3-4 hours max. Haha... I got a SOT to plan about!

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Wow... Just finished JY's blog! Haha... Only used an hour to complete it and some more, I added my link to his blog and linked him too. =P

It was so nice. And recently, beside JY, Iz also asked me to teach him how to blog.

Maybe I help them just for this time and the next time, ask them to experience it themselves then correct them if they use the code wrongly. But for JY, it shouldn't be a problem since he study IT. Haha... Very things must trials and errors then can get better.

Well, my flu is getting better and now I am considering should I continue to work after school start.

Jane, my fellow collegue, encouraged me to continue to work. Not only because of the lack of manpower but also can earn some allowance for myself.

Maybe I should ask Cliff about it before he fly off to Beijing for the conference.

Pondering...

Should I or should I not.

At least got 100 more per month.

And I will be able to save up for my SOT.

Gonna fight harder for it as I still got a lot to plan for.

Transport fee, textbooks, lappy (option but I can't live without it), and poly school fee. So many to plan about but never mind, I shall pray more for the guidance of God.

I am going forward.

To a brighter future.

My past no longer matter.

Only You my Lord is all that I need.

Concentration.

Focusing on a higher calling ahead of me.

Go for it gal!

Labels: Plans

The meaning of having real growth is not only to have the quantity but also the quality.

We are going for real growth with quality people.

And God has been sending amazing people to us.

As I did the retention report, instead of just giving a basic remark, I give as detail as possible for the more I wrote about the people, the more I became excited.

And this excitement chased away my sense of tireness for I see the souls that are coming in and the souls that remain.

Lord!

Maybe that what You had been trying to tell me.

I alone mean nothing but to chase after Your desire is everything.

I won't want to allow myself to be distracted anymore.

I got a long way to go.

Those who win souls are wise.

And like what Cliff said when he met me about winning souls.

We are not only called to win the non-believers over but also the believers.

God is not a God of bias.

He is fair and just.

We are going for real growth!

N266 is going for real growth!

And out of this, a strong CG shall being birthed forth.

Unlike in the past with the Ex-CG that N266 was birthed out from.

This time round, the bond shall be deeper, and closer that forever we shall remember one another.

Well, these few days of "fellowship" with Cliff and Hui Jun was not wasted for a mind is renew.

And a passion is birthed forth.

Lord!

Foolish me to being distracted by sickness.

But now I going ahead for You.

Stay focus girl!

You still got a long way to go.

YES! A long way to go!

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