Nowaday, wherever I started a new entry. The 1st thing I would say, how long has I stopped blogging?

I don't remember and I even lost count.

But one thing I know, the past 3 weeks, has been the start of something even more wonderful.

Being blessed by the ministrying of God, rebuilding my faith to move forward, understanding God is truely my Abba Father, being blessed with a alptop and handphone as what God promised He will give, my life slowly taking it turns.

We all gone through period of difficulties, trials and tribulations.

And everytimes, my mentors and friends always said, with higher level come higher devil, either you make it or you are destroyed by the him.

I haven't see the fullness of the blessing of God but as everyday I overcoming myself, learning to pick up myself and move forward, relying on God to fulfill what He called me to do in this period of testing, I realised God is even more real than any other time.

He called me His beloved, giving me faith day after cday to move on from past mistakes, past hurts, past disappointments and broken friendships.

Revealing and renewing my visions day after day.

I remembered last week, as Pastor Zhuang asked us to minister and prophesied, I started to learn to rely on God.

As in it was planned by God, 4 times I ministered, all 4 times I was the 1st one to minister my partners who I never know or even never see.

3 of the times, I ministered and someone cried, 2 gotten encouraged and my faith arised. When Pastor Zhuang asked for volunteers to minister, along with 10 over brothers and sisters, I ran and took my place for I told God, gone is the fal who inside of her fear to minister. Now is the gal who want to exercise the gift of God and used it for His will.

But 1st of all, I got to exercise it for whatever we often use, we should get stronger.

We were asked to close our eyes and had random people being placed in front of us. As Pastor Zhuang asked us to minister, the one in front of me start crying, and I thought it was a brother. I was so tempting to say "him" but something told me not too. When I prayed and opened my eyes, a sister was standing in front of me, with tears in her eyes and she smiled. Oh my, I guessed wrongly but by faith, I ministered.

And so many days, I was being ministered again and again by God.

And there was a time before Dr Kim's meeting that I was praying and God assured me that as I take care of His sheeps, I will see my cell group grow once again. How many has He assured me He will take care of His sheeps even when they are lost? I has lost count. But I told myself to reach further. More more more so that vI can have more faith in the things to come and for those that are in my heart.

As we finished prayer, I broke down in tears and was amazed by the grace and love of God.

As I told God how good He is, He said in a teasing manner that "if I am not good to God, how can I be your Father? If you parents on earth can love you, what more I can't do for you?"

I know and I know, my God is truely a God that is so real to me. All the times when I came back to God, I had been finding Him waiting and smiling at me as I reached out toward Him.

All the times as I climbed up the mountains of my life, I found Him waiting at the another side of the mountain, smiling and awaiting me to become stronger.

Yes, the another side of God's promise I haven't seen, yet I know He will do His part as I start doing my part.

We all will face moments of times when we are down but it is the strength to pick ourselves up that make a different.

I learnt to pick myself up again and again.

And to think, many thought I'm strong.

Hehehe, if you ever wonder what make me strong?

Only an answer, God make me strong.

He renew my strength and faith day after day.

When no one with me, I know I can trust in Him for He will assured my path.

Only Him got the power and authority to change the world for us.

The world mean the world.

God, let us continue to walk this journey together.

As I learn to be stronger.

Learn to love Your sheeps with a passion.

Learn to guide Your sheeps.

Learn to love everyone around me.

Learn to dwell in Your hidding place.

Learn to trust in You for all promises.

And learn to walk in faith all the days of my life.

I had been tally and as I tally, greater works I shall do.

For faith shall arise like a mustard seed.

Remember, I'm not the one who have strength, but my strength shall be in God.

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