Never will I ever stopped releasing sadness caused by the world and inviting happiness from God into my life.

This past week had been the toughest week thus far.

Never can anyone believed, this attachment of mine was one of the those happening ever in my whole entire course.

In 2 days straight, I met with the spirit of death at workplace and overcame the fears of corpses to complete my world-given job at this moment.

Tears ran dried. I often asked God in the past, "Abba, Abba. Where are you when I saw no ressurection."

And like Pastor Kong hoped that he can ressurect people, I with the same wish, also tried to do so but it never happened.

Losing gripped of the faith, many times I swallowed the tears and said I gonna be strong.

Times wasn't easy. To choose this path during this period of my life, I really wondered many times, was that why I tried smile whenever I out of it?

Yet with a simple promise, thousands of doubts flew from my mind.

All is filled with the presence of God, even till now, I never forget the one simple promise my God and Abba made toward me 2 years ago.

"As many deaths as you witnessed, thousands upon thousands of new lives you shall see."

With tears, I finally understood.

I am called for greatness that for sure but in my hands, I can bring lives and Jesus into the hearts of men.

I once thought maybe I will someday has the power of resurrection and I has no doubt cause if Jesus can do it, we as children of God who called to do greater works than what Jesus performed while He was on earth can also do so.

Yet, I knew God is referring to the vision and calling in my hands.

AAnd I learned to let go of sadness and welcome happiness.

I complainted at times, I cried secretly at times, I mumbled at times, I hid away at times, yet my God seeked me out times after times.

After every mistakes I made, every wrong doings I done, my God still said He is with me.

I know He never forsaken me, He never wannna me to stay away from me.

He called me into a fellowship.

To get to know Him better.

To love Him deeper.

And to be His child forever.

My Abba Father, teach me to love You more and more everyday.

Give me the grace to overcome the weaknesses of my flesh and to overcome all temptation around me.

With You, I walked through mountains and valleys.

Knowing that You will always be with me.

My Abba Father.

Thanks for being the Father of my life.

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