Never, I said never compromise with myself.

With an attachment and the unfixed schedule, you could said that my once fixed lifestyle is all messed up.

The stress from entering a new envronment and handling new people, it wasn't all that easy.

I asked and asked, seeked out one after another authority before I found one who allowed me to change schdeule just so that I can still make it for my main service, it took all willpower not to compromise.

To stand firm on my belief while my mind tried to tell me otherwise.

To block out the disapproves voices from my fellow co-workers just because they told me not to request for too many weekends off yet I still asked, the types of stress that I felt, it enough to ask me to compromise, yet I kept on reminding myself that it worth fighting for.

Stress from still getting used to the environment and my facilitator is very good but so fast she stretched my capacity and stress tolerance to the max when at a go she handled 3 patients for me to take charge. I being the blur me, didn't hear what she said and kept doing junior work till she asked me to write reports. And in the end, I finished those reports but I ended up working 1 more hour of OT.

Yes, it is tiring but weirdly, it allowed me to have a feeling of how it is like to take charge and I thanks God for holding on.

And I was sad at first when being told not to attend the helpers' discipleship for I not able to promise them about my schedule and they required people who can commit themselves and all my fellow co-kingdom workers all encouraged me and said they will share with me and at that moment, I knew that yes I might be sad but I aiming for something higher...

Something along the line of leadership and I believed, God will make a way as I fulfilling all that He called me to be.

Yes, I make it a point to never trust myself to stand strong but to trust God and to trust God for His strength for holding me up.

Never compromise is what I believe in.

We compromise when come to reconciling human relationships but we never compromise when it come to our beliefs in God.

I believe as we trust our life in God, He will make a way.

It proven every day in my work place.

He make a way for me and He continue to make a way.

So trust in God more than trusting in yourselves.

You never lost out.

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