These few days wasn't easy.

Under a new enviornment that I never been before.

Seeing the stress that people experienced and in turn I also experienced, it wasn't a nice feeling.

Bad things arise in a way or another.

And all in all, I swallowed everything now and talking to God is the only way to relieve myself of the burden.

Upset for a moment.

Tired for a moment.

Yet as I reflected on those stressful moments, I saw a different view that I never saw before.

Yes, most of the times, not all people appreciate you for who you are, yet if you look carefully around, there are people who do appreciate your presence.

As I looked past the bad things, I saw that there are good things too.

Being praise by nurses and doctor for the help in one of the surgery.

Being praise by nurses that I worked with when I helped to look after patients after their surgery.

Though in this journey, sometime, the nurses might not have time to even care yet some of them really took care of me.

There are moments I really don't know what to do yet there are nurses that will come and teach me no matter how busy they are.

Yes, some of them not totally being nice to me but when God revealed another side of the picture, I saw things in a different view.

And I was being reminded of the PM on sun.

I was praying at the last row of delta slope when most people praying at their seat.

And during that moment, for the 1st time, I really felt like I wanna something to happened...

Revival of schools, revival in the CG, renewal of spirit, anointing for leadership...

I prayed and prayed like never before and I saw Xian Bi near by.

He was praying and was sitting down at the stair, staring into what seem to be space but to me, I can feel that he was reflecting. And as I looked up to the root, I was remembering, the promises of God, the desires of my heart, the visions of my future...

And I slowly understand...

Life is never an easy road.

The passion is returning and I know that it's time to be serious with my calling...

Character building and moulding is the only pathway to our destiny with God.

And to look back, I had learnt so much this year...

Yes, there are moments when I felt so tired and upset with people around me and some people experienced it personally from me, yet as I starting to seek God even more, I found that I need to go further with Him to become more and more like Him.

To think of it...

The past one year, there were moments I joked too much and caused tom of problems to the moment I started to realise that as one who lead, it's not good to always joke for people never know when is the time I am serious and when is the time I am joking.

And to earn respect will be even hard for who will ever trust in one who always joked around?

That when God showed me a different dimension.

To be a lighten mood person to lift up the spirit of those who are in times of tireness, and to be firm in the beliefs of the words of God...

It's never easy and my leader once told me to take things easy, don't stress to much and to change.

Now as I looked back, maybe that was once what Cliff had prayed for me, that God gonna mould me and it was what God had been doing all along.

Trusting in God to lead you, trusting in God to change you, trusting in God to mould you.

It's all about trusting in God.

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