Search my heart O Lord...
You know my every thoughts...

Today, I was just browsing through a couple of friends' blog and reading their lives as they read mine...

Many thoughts came to me.

And one entry caught my attention...

What will you do, if you have a million with you?

And as I read it, I came to ask God...

What do you want me to do, if You give me a million dollor?

And many images came to me.

I was reminded of my destiny, my dream.

The dream to go to every corners of the world.

To stand on a platform and preach the word of God.

To lay hands on the sicks and needy.

To cast out demons and heal the broken hearted.

To equip the people and to make disciples for Jesus.

To build homes and to give support to people facing disasters.

Yet, I wondered to myself. Is that what You called me to do when I first came to You, so unsure, so timid, so rebellion and so mess up, even during my walk with You, I got mess up and fallen backward yet You never give up.

Through man of God, You spoke into my life, renew my vision and reignite my passion.

When the devils came to pull out the fire within me, You came with a light to reignite the fire.

When I turned my back and blamed You, You never said a word but stay on for me to come back.

Each time, I saw my vision clearly.

Each time, it seem so near yet so far.

Each time, I seem confident that what I thought to be true will be true yet Your plans is different.

And everytime, as I remember You...

I forget the words I wanna say.

For a thousand words could not express my feeling.

I stopped struggling so that I may experience You once again.

Forever Remembering You...

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