I holding on to believe I can be heal...

Yes, I got a weak nody since young, but that doesn't mean I can pray for healing and I don't believe in it...

Not much people know but a lack of neglection on my body when I was young caused me to suffer the consequences.

Not because of the lack of faith but because neglect taking good care of my health.

Not because I don't wanna to tell anyone but I hope for understanding and concern.

Only those who are truly consider close to me know how sick I had been and only my family know that I need to rest and I hope that a lack of contact didn't hurt anyone.

I got so many people in my friendship list and not every single one I will contact and tell me about my life and only those who are what I consider as confident and leader I will contact.

And I am now proud to say that I feeling better.

After laying on the bed for the whole morning today and crying out to God for strength and visited the doctor and took my medication, I am feeling better.

I am holding on to believe that I can be well and I glad for all my friends who smses, msn and call me to encourage me during my period of sickness, I thanks all of you for your concern.

Like Cliff, Pearly, Cindy, Casandra, Abel, my clone who chatted with me as per normal and for praying for me and encourage me... It didn't matter whether it was a direct mentioned of your concerns but all those encouragement, remind me that they are my friends and they are the warriors in the Kingdom of God that pray for me and also believe in divine healing.

Because of the understanding, I grow stronger to believe in the area of healing and God worked all the time...

Sometime, I do ask why I am not heal instantly but this is an area where I got to fight myself and all the supports that are there, I really treasure those.

People might misunderstanding me and laughed at me as to why I am always so fragile and easily fall sick, but every encouragement they give reminded me that God is a caring God, and His presence really comfort me.

Thanks God I only had a slight fever and the fever had gone and really, I will not give up on believing for healing...

I wrote this not because I wanna justify the reason why I am sick but one of the tag message that my friend left triggered my thought.

Well, if I said I am not upset, it would be a lie cause I really not those kind of person who is transparent over my life and the openness I am to each individual depend on how good our friendship is and it also depend on whether you can help me to grow more, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

I will be holding onto my faith and forever I will be!

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