Wow, I am in such a lovey dovey mode with God this morning. So funny, I suddenly felt that it is time for me to take a look at my future plan. And recent encounters with people that wrote about their views on love, their future and some about their failures in relationships make me wanna to start to review my own standard and what I really want.

I am still not ready for a relationship but I am preparing for it. When it comes, I will no longer run, no longer hide but I will choose to account and I will let God and my leaders to be the ones seeing my growing up, from a little baby Christian to a mature believer and disciple of God.

And if I failed to plan, I plan to fail. A relationship and marriage is a important, major turn in life as the one you choose can very well let you enjoy a taste of heaven on earth or a taste of hell on earth.

After talking to my leader, I was quite surprised at realising his heart for us as his children. The heart for us to receive the best and the heart to believe that we can receive it as long as we involved them to see us through this period and like I mentioned, it is time for me to grow up once again and to stand firm. I once shared with some people about my wishlist but after looking it through once again, it seem a bit too tight. And I don't even think God will want me to set it this way...

Well, here is goes, my wishing list. God, God, I know You will hear and answer this, caused no longer do I set this according to what people told me but I believing in Your hands.

I want to get married by the age of 23. May be on the day of my birthday. I still got 3 and a half year to go and 2-3 years time to find my future partner. I still got lot of opportunity in life for me to meet the one.

And for him...

Is he from SOT, full-time ministry, from CHC, from Taiwan? Strong preacher like Pastor Kong? I don't mind it if he is not a dynamic preacher like Pastor but I wish that he is an anointed guitarist. He can be a few years older than me. Someone who live by vision and not by sight.

God, I believing in You. In the vision and in my future that is in Your hands.

Lord, I pray that when I one day meet the man and decided to get together, it won't be because we both need a companion but because we decided to get married.

Trusting in Your hands.

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