In reply to Su Yi's post at her blog...

This is not an online love confession letter but I really glad to know her as a sister too. =]

I was so touched when I read her post and really thanks God for the friendship that He gave even though it is just a beginning.

Knew her through the interview long time back and who know it will cause us to form a simple friendship.

And I really glad that she is my junior!

You inspired me girl.

When Gwyn first told me about you who had a passion for nursing, I was shocked for a moment caused to say the truths, I rarely saw people who have so much passion like you. Even for me, to go into this course is a challenge as my passion since young was to study business and IT but when I looked at you, I told myself I gonna work hard.

Rarely anyone know this but I never had a passion for nursing except for practical.

I always thought that I loved biology but only until I entered into nursing then I discovered I loved IT but even when I wanna to be out of it but often in times, a voice will remind me of what He had called me into...

The vision, the dream.

And one time, Gabriel was sharing with me that with this cert, it will be an open door for me to enter into the mission field with no problem and I gladly accepted it though many times, I was at the crossroad, seeking for a solution and it is always with God that I find the answer.

Until now, I can't say that I had a passion for this but I learning to make use of the time I had when I was in clinical posting and get to overcome my fear of talking to strangers and to love them. I'm bad at loving people but I trying and I gained experiences through the deaths that I witnessed and through the encounters I had with various nurses.

The vision is what that keep me from going astray.

I had a vision, I had a dream!

If that what the Lord give, I going to work toward it for sure!

Life might be tough, situation might seem to be overwhelming but my focus is upon what is going to come but not to forget about the present.

Thanks Su Yi! My gal for being a good example. Jia you gal! The Lord is always with you. There are times when you will feel that a situation is tough and you will see and witness things that pain your heart but the Lord will always be the One that stand by you.

I still got a few months to go but the next few months are going to be tougher...

3 months of passing out posting in addition to the 5 weeks attachment.

And for the 5 weeks attachment, we will be posted to OT room.

My flesh is not willing to go through it but my spirit said something different.

If that is what the Lord gave, He will never short change my life.

I made mistakes but I learn from them.

Through the scolding I got during my posting, I learnt and it was really irreplacible.

God, thanks for all those people that You placed in my life.

Like Su Yi! JY, Scord, Xiao Shi Min...

They might not be leaders yet through them, I learn that no matter what, we must know how to come back to God.

And most of all, still wanna thanks the wonderful disciplers of mine, Cliff and Hui Jun.

I wondered how life will turn out to be if it is not for them and their patient.

One truth is they really can tolerate my rubbish.

And when they wanna to awaken me, they can really do that by come straight into my life and they really is a combo so... I always got this hidden feeling that when Hui Jun talked to me, she already gone shared with Cliff.

They are like a confirmation voices and that what I need, a voice that confirm my vision.

I got not much talent but I got a dream. To be successful in the ministry and in the world of business. Maybe I am not fated to study about it but no one ever said I can't have my own shop one day, to penetrate into the marketplace, to impact the youths and to bring in a new wave of fashion.

I so excited now. Inspired by Su Yi's post, awakened by Cliff's sharing and really thanks God for the trust.

I now got one more report to do and everything got to start to be in details and specific. It is a new step of faith caused it trains me in the area of faithfulness.

Who love to be scolded? Who love to be blame? Everyone love to listen to praises but sometime, it is through all those teaching that we learn.

I definitely is one of those people who get easily work up, stress up and hate to listen to scolding or any negative things... But yet, to rise up, we got to endure through our own flesh. To crucify it and to offer it to God.

I got to stay focus, be more teachable.

A time of moulding, a time of transformation.

I still got a long years to go but my Lord is a God who love changes.

Just like what the Emerge Conference Video said...

Change Me.

Inspire Me.

Will You Emerge?

Today, are you going to emerge or are you going to submerge?

It all laid in the power of choices.

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