Lord, I am so sick today.

Believing in healing, yet the sickness is haunting me.

From a sore throat to a block nose.

I really shouldn't drink so much beverage.

I had successfully using the poison matter to clear my sore throat, but because of the beverages I had took, I now got block nose.

And when I shared my few incidents with my good bro, Zhi Xian, about being nearly landed me in the hospital, Zhi Xian went oh and about how I should take care of my health.

And I thought about my condition and how much I want to be well and like a normal girl, just be healthy and do whatever they want especially when my dream is to go to missions field.

Since young, I always suffered from sicknesses that could stay with me for up to half a year without being well.

Sometime, it was so serious that I don't even have to have P.E. for like one whole year.

But all these was never as serious as last year when I suffered from an unknown stomach flu that caused me to vomit like mad and suffered from poor appetite for more than a week.

It was also the 1st time that my family doctor suggested me to go to hospital for inspection though I needed to be on glucose water if I still couldn't eat.

Striked with fear, I never really went to tell any one about it except to ask my members to pray for me while I was desperately crying out to God about how unwilling I was to go to hospital. And in the end, I slowly got well and I didn't even have to went to hospital for inspection.

I remembered when I shared about this in Gabriel's CG, I cried because of the gratitude I felt toward God for healed me of the stomach flu and one thing that Gabriel said was to believe in the healing power of Jesus no matter what.

God really is an amazing God and I am willing to believe with all my heart about divine healing for my life.

I still believing in it.

If God can heal my speech disability, God can heal my sicknesses.

I gonna really take good care of myself again.

Fasting might be the only way I can control my diet.

So I might as well go ahead with it.

Just for my healing...

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