Burden...

A heavy yoke that I am carrying.

Being in school, saw the sad truths of what it is mean to be outcast in a foreign country and all decisions are decided by those who think they have the authority to decide everything.

Saw 3 foreign students, being pushed around by classmates.

And they kept silent, they said nothing and they bowed their head, waiting for the decision make by the local students.

I am a local but my heart go toward them.

Yes, we might not always talk to one another because of the cultural different and their close-ness toward others, yet when I saw all these, I was sad for them.

The silent hatred within them, it can be seen from their eyes.

They are from China, yes... No doubt.

But if we can accept a few China people why can't we accept them?

There is only a few things that I can do for them.

To smile, to be nice and to listen when they shared.

A few of them I might not be able to understand and flow with them, but at least, I can still smile even when my heart ache for them.

The burden is with my heart.

As I remembered how alike I was in the past like those who outcast them, sadness came to me.

In the past, I never like the China Chinese, as people always compare me with them because of the unique accent that I had and unknownly, the dislike just grow on me.

Why can't the local just accept me for who I am and not keep on notice on my accent?

That was my 1st thought and my last.

But as I get to know Jesus and feel His heart, I no longer dislike this accent.

Yes, there are times I will tell people that I know you surely said I got a China Chinese accent or some people even said I got the taiwanese accent but I am proud of it as how many locals can born with this unique accent.

And as I seek for the purpose in life and dwell in God's presence, the will of God unfold.

I was not born like this for no reason.

This accent will allow me to mix well with the China Chinese.

It is proven time after time.

Lord, please continue to guide me and guard my heart.

To have more compassion for Your people, O Father.

To love them just as You have love them.

And to care for them just like You have care for them.

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