It took an earthquake to resurrect the vision of mine for missions.

It took my spirit to groan out for me to know why God always placed this deep burden within me whenever I saw a disaster.

When I was Sec 1, for the 911 incident, I was so hitted in my soul that for many days and weeks and even months, I had been going around, asking people to email, smsing and asked people to pray for those who survived and those who died. I was a non-believer then, but the sadness of seeing so many people died at one go, made me cried for days for the victims and continued to chase after the news even when people stopped talking about it.

When I had gotten saved, for my 1st Christmas with God, I received news of the biggest tsunami that had happened during Christmas season, I was so hit in my soul and spirit that I prayed everyday for the nations, cried everyday while reading news and even deciding to enroll into Nursing course because of the burden within me to really wanna equipped myself so that in future when disaster happened, I can be of some helps.

Now finished my course and enrolled into SOT, I received news of the earthquake in China that already killed 20,000 people, and with 60,000 people missing and uncontactable. Many students died in the earthquake and overnight, many parents lost their beloved child, be it their only child or all the children they had, overnight, every things are gone and a deep burden felt upon me.

I wondered who can I share?

I wondered who I can confine in.

When someone interpreted the tongue and said she saw a vision of someone having many people standing behind, I was trembled. It is way out of the interpretation for family issue, the world has become my family from the moment when my soul groaned for the lost souls and those who died.

It took an earthquake to awaken that vision of mine to be a missionary.

And all I can do now is to pray and pray till there is an open door while I fulfill whatever I am to fulfill in Singapore.

Maybe before I came to Christ, God already planned for me to carry this vision for nations. Now to think back, every tears I shredded, every passion I had, it wasn't for nothing.

I wondered when will the time come for me to be away.

But I know for now, I got to tarry for as long as I can.

I don't care what the world think now.

God, as I rely on God, show me where to head to.

I don't want to rely on my own strength and forget about my vision.

Life is short.

I wonder when Jesus is coming back but yet many haven't heard of Him.

Let me be one of those who is in the world outside, preaching the good news.

Evangeline = Good News.

Maybe I am called to be an Evangelist after all.

I got to be even more equip then ever before if I wanna to fulfill my calling.

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