I need to pray more, plug in more into the presence of God.

Like a Pastor once said, the greatest blessing in life is to have a friend who walk through the life journey with you ande support you in time of needs.

People in some parts of their life, find great friends to be with them and share.

I once got many great friends, but as I entered into a new phrase of life, I disconnected from them and as I know God, God become a Friend who is irreplacible.

Yet, as I heard of Pastor talking about praying for a friend a few days back, I was thinking, is it really possible? For many never has it, except their life partner but I want a good galfriend who can go out and eat, go out and share, go out and talk, and sharing our spiritual encounters and be one who beside my mentors and disciplers, can stand by me and walk with me to believing in my vision to come.

I got great dreams, great visions, but when I was young, I thought by just God and I, I can fulfill it and I got no double yet I know, as I walk further with Him, just me alone is not enough. I need a friend who will always be with me, a life long friend.

I once had a conversation with my dearest friend when I was a baby christian.

We were out there eating and we thought of our future.

We thought of being old in age yet still out there meeting one another and eating.

And we thought of what if we never marry, and only got a dog as companion and how enjoyable life will be when the 2 of us go out together with our dogs and thought back to those wonderful things as friend.

Yes, we still friends now, but we each busy with our life.

With different goals in life, we drawn apart.

With different beliefs, we become further apart and I know, that not what God want.

This period of SOT, what will happen to me?

Will I be so different that the Evangeline/Shi Min that people know now, will be a different Evangeline/Shi Min 5 months from now?

What will happen in this 5 months?

I am excited at this moment yet tell myself not to think a lot.

I has been waiting to enter into SOT and I did it.

Now?

I can only trusting God in faith, not only in my finance area, but in the area of fulfilling my calling.

The calling to see many come to Him.

The calling to dump aside my fears and go all around the world for Him.

Maybe since young, when my mum refused to bring me to overseas is to let me carry this desire to go all around the world.

Like Peter, an uneducated fisherman, who never see the world outside before the ascending of the Holy Spirit, preached to people of different languages, though he never travel much, but he answered the call of God.

Now, I'm not Peter, but I always wanna to be the fool that God used to shame the wise, rather be the one who God never wanna use.

There are many areas that I need to be broken toward God.

There are many pressures that overwhelming but by the trust in Him...

Ther remainder 4 months, I can only trust in Him for His greater works inside of me.

Not only to pray for a friend but more of Him day after day.

God, let me survived through this trials of fire, for I know when I'm out of this, I will be a refining potter, uses for Your calling.

The faith to move on is found in Christ Jesus.

And trust in Him is all that I can do.

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