After reviewing my life, I found myself at the crossroad once again, seeing my future with God.

It was hard at first to know what I want for I want too many things and I kept walking in circle, falling down and determined to come back stronger.

I wanna to fulfill so much things, go missions, have my own fashion shop, learn dancing etc and etc. Yet often, due to the lack of time and my own self, I told God I either gave up or just focus on one of two of them. But a question came to me, why can't I fulfill them all, one by one as I walk with God? Don't He has the power to make the impossible becoming possible?

To admit it, I was afraid to fail and afraid that I can't master whatever that I wanna to learn. I told myself that I am going toward young adulthood in least than a year time and after that I won't have much time to even blog which is one thing that I do whenever I am at school, just spend 15 min just sat down and blog and then back on track with my works. I was someone who hate to study, hate to sit down and listen and now, I just wanna to change it all, my attitudes, my habits and every single things that aren't going the way that it should be.

Within the next one year, I wanna master the art of graphics designing, basic guitar skills, photographing and creating videos. Then the next 2 years, I wanna to go and further my studies by going for diploma for counselling and maybe even psychologic. And after all these, I wanna to fulfill my dream by learning hip hop dance and also to owe my own fashion shop.

I still wanna go missions but as I review my life and thought about the vision of the church, I was being reminded by many wonderful things that the church has started in the missions field and we are all called to be missionaries but in various aspects of life and I am one of them, yet I know, even if I had the desire for missions and full-time ministry, I am not those kind that are called to just pack the bag and go to a country for years. No, I wanna to travel to all countries in Asia-Pacific. I wanna to impact lives of the youths in various places.

This is the dream and vision that I has and I not going to give up. I wanna to fulfill it and fully step into the realm of missions before I am 28.

I got a dream and I chasing after a dream. No longer will I be afraid but I shall run after it for I am a dreamer, a chaser and everything that I do, God will guide me.

It is a vision, waiting to be fulfill and I believe that those who are with me, we are a team that fight together.

Act 2:17
'And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh;Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,Your young men shall see visions,Your old men shall dream dreams.

I am still young, I still can see vision and even when I grow old, I can still dream dreams that I know my Lord can do.

A brighter future, here I come!

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