After the meet up with Cliff and Pearly, it really confirmed what I had been thinking about though it was beyond what was on my mind.

We shared, we listened and we talked. It was wonderful and God, how much had I missed over the past 6 months due to the wrong decision I made that ultimately lead me to become stagnant.

Yet God is great!

For the past week, God has been coming so close to me, telling me, renewing me, talking to me.

It was hard to let go at first but after today, I finally decided to let go. It was really hard but I know, to walk further with God, I got to be wiser with the decision that I make and the things that I do even if it hurt my heart to let go and to do things beyond my imagination.

The past few months, I had been struggling to find myself and to let go what had happened during this period and ultimately, it came to me that God is the only One that I should ultimately turn to. The One who is my Strength, my Friend and my Comforter.

I think a lot and only until today, as I saw what I didn't expect which caused me to receive answers to all my situations and really, God is a solution provider.

And as I took the cab back home with Hui Jun and Ethan, I was really impacted when Hui Jun said sometime, it is good to talk my feeling out and just to share.

Maybe I will do so now...

I had reflected a lot and I wanna said to those dear friends of mine who stayed with me for the past few months through rain and sunshine, that your guys are really the best friends to have in my life. We might face various trials and tribulations yet your guys stayed there to exalt one another.

Your guys see through my period of weirdness, quietness, "emo", "down" moments and etc and etc yet through words of encouragement, I really grow and finally once again moving strongly forward.

I was talking to Pearly about being "emo" and she said something funny that when I was "emo", I will be really focus forward, leaving everyone behind and being in my own world and it got me to think... Really, I am not those kind of person that love to put on a black face or whine when they are unhappy. Even when I am unhappy, I will be emotionless but not a total black face and I love to leave others behind and move forward. And I told her that it can be good or bad as if it is on the positive side, I can have the drive to accomplish what I wanna to do but if it is the negative side, I can just leave people behind. That was me...

But I wanna move forward...

Forward with God.

The path to leadership is so close to me.

I really wanna to be in the path of leadership next year during or after my SOT.

And I feel that now is the time to build my life strong.

Let move ahead and let run the race!

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