Busy busy...

Just received my exam timetable and attachment timetable.

Should I be sad or happy?

I ended up with 5 weeks for vacation straight then attachment for 4 weeks then 1 week vacation and the rest of the 13 weeks are attachment.

Should I scream for help or be glad?

I saw the ward for the 1st posting.

It is what I want.

Ward 48, oncology ward, the place where I treasured my attachment the most, with nice nurses, CI and friends but this time is different. The people that will be working with me is still my classmates but my those fun friends and also, I wondered how much the ward had changed. I was at the A side last time, helping with A Class to B1 class patients, enjoying the time when the nice Nurse Manager will teach us stuffs and the Staff nurses will show us interesting proceduces that only reserve for the ward that why I pray so hard to be back.

It wasn't easy being there at first. I was frightened by the death that I saw and the rate was the higher since any ward that I being too. The stress and the images, sometime... I did question the existence of God. Yet it was at there, at the death bed of one of my patient that God made a promise that as many deaths as I saw, I will see hundreds upon hundreds of souls being saved. It was a promise and I still held it within me.

It was part of me. I never desired to be a nurse one day yet being at the ward let me experienced things that I won't be able to see outside. I mature through these experiences and my compassion grew even more in this environment. It was at this ward that I received my first compliment from a nurse. I could still remembered the words she said as clearly as if she was saying it to me yesterday. Maybe that why no matter how many times I wanna give up, these kind of memories played a part in keeping me on this path.

While I am weak, He make me strong!
That what I always believe. I looking forward to this attachment, minus the sabotage kind of people, I believe I shall have God's protection.

More things to come in the near future.

Blogs, graphics designing plus attachment.

I won't be around much, but I will try to be there.

Labels: Happiness