I believed I can hear the shouts of friends asking... "are you on blog fast?", ""are you being busy?", "where has you been nowaday?", "are you blog dying?".

Sorry friends for this long hiatus. I'm back and perfectly alive. I passing through my attachment and I could say that Jan was a tiring but happening month for me.

Ffrom taking care of Gabriel and Poh's father 3 months ago during my attachment, I never imagined that this time, God placed me in the situation whereby I would have the chance to take care of a mediacrop artist.

Never would I imagined that I will be so blur, opened up the curtain, went to his bed and stared at the person (before I found out that he is a famous artist from mediacorp) while trying to find out why this weird person carried one big travel bag and closed up his curtain. When I found out who he is, I was stunned but nonetheless, should thanks God my staff nurse wanna take care of him personally and asked me to rest for the night. Yet she dragged me to give him medication and the funniest thing was I found out of his phobia for blood because I accidently opened a wrong plug and blood flowing out. I calmly finished my work while the nurses that stood around there stared at me. But nonetheless, I smiled sheeply at them.

When Cindy heard of it, she told me that she was his fan and asked me to take photo with him, so funny, and really too bad I couldn't cause his face was so swollen due to the surgery.

And after which, I prayed for peaceful days and God did what I asked Him to do.

Looking back, I might well be the only one CHC members that able to come for CG and services every week for 12 weeks of posting. Really thanks God for using me to be the front line for all those CHC-harvesters who will be going for their attachment soon.

Encouragement, prayers... That what keep me going. Remembrance of who I am in God, leaving behind the sinful nature and relying on God, it isn't easy at first but I survived.

Now I passed my posting and next week is going to be my last four days. One of the faciliator from our side suggested for the 3 of us (students) and those staffs that we worked with to go out together after our last duty. They are bringing us for movie, and dinner and supper and high chance is, they might also treat us for my funny faciliator asked the one who suggested the outing whether he will treat her and he said she is already a staff nurse, not student, don't need to have a treat but we are different... And I couldn't help but laugh...

I was tired out at moment but at the end of the day, after my complaint and everythings, I see that they really enjoyed our presence. Been called the best batch to ever been to their area is a great comfort.

This month is also marked the end of my 19th years of living on earth. I now passed the 20 marking with happiness, joy and tears.

Happiness come from those precious gifts that I had received.

Thanks E457 for getting me those books on leadership.

Yes, you guys pranked me. Casandra acted as the emotional helper who msned me on fri night at 12mn, just reached my birthday and started to tell me about how sad she was from the scolcing of her mum and etc and etc and I already suspected that it was a prank but just in case, I msned Eleanore who is in helpers' training to doubt confirm. And Eleanore urged me to try to talk to her in case it was not a prank but just like the warning of God... It is a prank. And it didn't end here. I tried to peek into Jolene's bag but I was unsuccessful. I was quite sad the day before for Jun Jie told me that he smsed everyone to message me but they sound so boring and I was soo sad... And then everyone looked so distant away and with Casandra who seemed not to do well, my heart became even heavier... And I vowed to myself that if it is a prank, I gonna have some personal discipleship with Casandra. Then Elijah tried to give a super diao testimony but thanking his cabinet for having cans of sardin fish and bread but it seemed normal to me till Cindy pointed it out and started to talk about "diao" testiimony.

Ultimately, it all ended up as a prank as Zhong Ping, Yan Ran, Shi Yi and Bryan appeared after rejected my calls. I thought Bryan didn't come service and was really to teach him about discipline when it was shown up as a prank. And the present I received was wrapped with layer after layer of newspaper. I told myself not to do this kind of things anymore for I reap what I sow.

Thanks NYP-Harvesters... Val and Carrisa got me a tinkerbelle neckacle. I reminded of the time when I really loved to watch Peter Pan's show. He was one of my old-time favourite hero. And tinkerbelle is so cute. Thanks everyone.

Thanks Ariefin for the Christmas cum birthday gift. Simple yet nice design.

Thanks Edmund for the book and CD. Last year was only a book but this year with a CD, the one I told God about. Wow, God really answered prayer.

Thanks all the friends who smsed and called me. I really blessed to know you guys!

Joy came from the heart...

I starting to have the tradition of gathering my friends to get to know them better and to have some quality time for fellowship.

I never imagined how willing they were to join me. Last sun was a great time at Mind Cafe. I really enjoyed it. Haha... Really...

And being with the CG and receiving their blessing for a greater calling is also my greatest moment.

And to all those friends who remember my birthday.

I'm not the best friend I do admit, always forgetting this and that, birthdays to me is a joyful season yet I forget others and also mine many many times. I wanna get to remember everyone's birthday...

Thanks those friends who still remember mine even though I don't really remember theirs. I will try my best to note it down.

And I do appreciate my friends for remembering my birthday.

Tears came from both happiness and joy...

I nearly cried when my CG showed me with their presents and revealed the prank. I kept so many stuffs inside of me and when it was proven to be a prank, my heart released and I teared.

I really loves everyone!

But most of all, I loves God!

Thanks for answering my prayers and gave me a memorable borthday yet again.

I'm finally 20th.

5 more days before I ended my attachment.

2 and a half month to go before I graduate.

A new season is come.

I waiting for the remainder promises of God.

Labels: 20th year old

Often in life, I always thought that whatever things I felt is the right thing to do, I shall do it.

Many of the times, I never stop to think is it my own liking or it is God's plan for me.

Sharing is what I love to do.

Regardless is it my own preferance or own conviction.

I am now convinced...

Beside following the leading of God, I got no way to run or hide.

Be rebellion is one thing that is always losing out to God.

For God break down all walls.

Truly, never think you can win against Him.

The Lord Almighty.

I now surrendered, in search of a fullest life with You...

With You is the way I should be.

Doubting is out of the window.

Out of the mind.

Only with You...

Can my life be different.

Only with You...

Can I be sure of the way for me.

I now make a start of my decision.

The rest is in the hand of God.

It is now or never.

It is the start of a destiny.

Labels: Destiny

Really heard a wonderful message from Pastor.

It was such a good beginning to start off this year.

It isn't a new message.

Yet we can't deny that though it was similar to what had been taught to us before...

But it is the beginning of another foundation that will move us forward.

FOCUS

I wondered...

How many of us, during this walk with God, has lost our focus?

I had lost it many times in one way or another.

Maybe it's because of rebellion, because of self-centerness, and refusal to listen and follow the voice of God and all the "what if" I don't do this or "what if" I don't do that that caused me to lead myself further away from that one calling...

Yet as I sat there...

Feeling tired physically, my spirit was awaken once again.

It is the time.

Not tomorrow, not next year...

It is TODAY! NOW!

Now is the time!

The time to move on.

A brand new year is waiting for me to have a head start.

Yes...

I gonna be a better person.

In both characters and attitudes.

It takes 2 hands to clap.

One is God's hand and one is my hand.

With God, all things are possible.

Labels: Moving Forward

New Year had finally came and the day to Jesus' 2nd coming is so near.

But thinking of all these, one truth still stand, we are still on earth and we got many visions to fulfill.



Visions

1. To complete my nursing course successfully.

2. To enter into SOT.

3. To multiply my CG.

4. To enter into leadership meeting.

5. To be in leadership class.

Spiritually

1. To be faithful in tithing and give the first fruit on time every month.

2. Fulfill building fund and never never think it is impossible to fulfill.

3. To finish my NIV bible within a year.

4. To grow closer with God.

5. Multiply my talents and to use it in the area of ministry.

6. More anointing and impartation from God.

7. More effective in ministering.

8. More passionate toward God, ministry and beloved ones.

9. More compassionate.

10. More patient and be more mild-temper.

11. Be faithful in quiet time and seeking God not when I need to but because I can't live without Him.

12. Gaining healings from God.

13. Spend more times with family.

14. Communicate with the loved ones around me.

15. Stop thinking unnecessary stuffs and focus on following the ways of God.

16. LASTLY! LOVE GOD TO THE MAX...

Physically

1. Reduce the amount of fast food I take every month from every week to monthly.

2. Stop taking more than 2 times of snack every day.

3. Stop taking instant noodles.

4. Learn to cook again. 1 year never actually cook, skill rusty already. Now is the time to start it again.

Leisure

1. GO TAIWAN after SOT!

One year is better than another. 2008 will be yet another exciting year for me.

Cheers!

Labels: New Year Resolutions