It has all begun...

All according to the plans of God.

Yesterday went for make-up CG. Victor was the one leading.

Unlike the normal youths CGM that I went for in the past, this was purely a young adults and adults CG. Nothing fanciful, just introduction and begun with Praise.

We were very comfortably sat around a tea table with cushions.

I had never been to a adults CGM and really, this was a time of encounter with God.

Simple message, with straightforward points.

Victor was talking about the 4 keys to realising our dreams and visions.

It wasn't like I never heard before.

I had once heard it from Cliff and it was that time when my vision enlarged.

And now? Hearing it all over again brought forth new revelations and a reminder of my faith and covenant with God the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

As Victor ended the message, he called for people to respond for altar call if they wanna to look for their vision.

I didn't raise up my hand for since I ever knew God and walked with Him, my vision has slowly being revealed and confirmed, so I decided to support the atmosphere.

But God seemed to has a different idea.

Victor was walking through the people and suddenly, I felt the Holy Spirit coming close to me and before I knew it, Victor lay his hands on me.

He was praying in tongues for a while. No words was spoke forth immediately but the moment he spoke, I knew and I knew that it was a confirmation of what the Lord had assured me.

I know, it won't be easy for me from this point of life onward, but to fulfill my calling, I'm going to hold on to God, my Peace and Comforter.

Labels: Getting Through

Yesterday after the PW, I was so crazy after hearing Yu Jie talking about Enchanted that I went and dragged Val to go watch with me.

Really, it was a nice and funny movie.

A fairytale world and a reality world.

I kept on laughing and laughing till I can't stop.

I really like how the girl in the movie can be so blur in a foreign world and thought that everythings can have a happy ending.

Well, one thing that the movie said really touched my heart.

Shouldn't let the good memories be forgotten because of the bad times that we face...

It wasn't the actual phrase that was being said but if I am to translate it from chinese to english, that what it means.

And many of the times, the walk with God is like that.

Filled with wonderful memories yet when bad times come, we forgotten how wonderful God is.

God is forever wonderful.

And we shouldn't let the bad times stole those precious memories away.

And though in reality, there isn't any fairytale life but we got a more precious to treasure.

The life of creating unforgetable good memories out of the bad times that we faced.

Now I am truly enchanted by my God.

Labels: Enchanted

One more month before we entered into a brand new year.

I really couldn't believe what I had gone through for the past 1 years.

It's really something I couldn't imagine.

A regaining of my vision.

Meeting wonderful friends.

Having a clearer picture of my visions, calling and the plans that God has for me.

Walking out of valley of the shadow of death.

It was a wonderful year to say.

Now I got a greater vision for next year.

The end is always better than the beginning and a new beginning is always better than the past.

I got so much more to go for.

As God prompted me to restart my walk and to look upon Him for the faith to fulfill my vision, I understood that all those minor things that I wasted my energy and time on was what the once led me away.

From rising up to stagnancy to finding God again. Life is often faced with ton of decisions and obstacles.

What I was once called for, because of my heart that was unsettled, I told God to just listened to what I want but I often forgotten what God want. And as I led my mind and heart back to Him, I slowly understand that my God still has His plan for me.

He answered prayers, yet He got a greater plan for our future.

Not what we hoped for, what we want will always be answered. As long as it's not part of God's will and contradict to His words, He will not answer.

As I looked toward God, all God asked was for me to let down my price and self-desire to answer to His call and picked up His cross once again.

It was not one time but dozen of times when He said pick up your cross and follow me.

And looking forward, for now till the end of 2008, I wished to fulfill many many things then ever before...

1. I wanna pass through these 10 weeks attachment period with no regret but be a good testimony and shine in my workplace. Even if it mean, I got to leave later. And nonetheless, I wanna keep on fighting for my sat and sun freedom. God once said once I gone through these, greater blessings and greater breakthrough shall come. I believe and claim it in Jesus' name. Though at first it was hard but there are so many people stand by me and believing in me. I know I can because my God said that I can.

2. To be in leadership meeting. Definitely I called into CG ministry and full-time ministry. And I'm not gonna compromise but work toward it.

3. I wanna rised up and be a woman of God. Be more decisive, more creative, more strong in the spirit, more fervent for God in prayer and fasting. Be a better daughter to my parents.

4. For healing for my back and my voice. After started taking over offering from Cindy beside testimony, I discovered that my throat can't stand the pressure I placed on it and having high pitch doesn't help. My throat hurted when I talked too much. Cindy said don't end up like her need to go for operation so I better start to take care of it or else when I take a CG and need to preach for at least 20 min, I won't be able to stand it and people won't be able to hear me well if I keep on using high pitch tone.

5. To improve my grammar in speech. Pastor Kong was once not a very good speaker. Pastor Benny Hinn was once struggled with stammer problem but they all overcame it. With them as examples, I wanna overcome this problem of speech.

6. To experience a greater anointing from God.

7. To experience a revival in my spirit.

8. To be part of the NYP revival. Not only because I'm one of the pioneer but because that was once of my vision.

9. To commit myself more to NYP cluster and CG ministry and witness the revival in both area.

10. To spend less time on fiction stories and spend times finishing my daily devotions, sermons and books.

11. Open up my house/room for PM and BS class. Be a trained and effective BS teacher.

12. To go Taiwan and at least go for one mission trip to experience God in a greater way that is out of my comfort zone.

There are so much more that I can do and I know that as I experienced revival in my spirit, everything around me shall also experience revival.

12 is the no of government and leadership. Next year will be a greater year whereby I faced with greater challenges at the same time I shall become stronger.

Start the year right. 1 more month too go before I entered into a brand new year.

Let all work hard!

Labels: Moving...

Praise God for lovely friends who remember me.

Praise God for Mei Mei. A gal that I clicked well when we met during an attachment. We worked almost everyday together. Helping one another, teaching one another. Sometime, it isn't a good day to work with me, for I am blur at times, clumsy at times. I stepped her foot a few times and bumped into her a few times but she always accepted my clumsy and said that it is what that make me cute. You are one of the best gal! Seldom get to contact you, but I always remeber those times when we went to the cafeteria together, treated one another to fruits. It was my 1st time really felt that I should eat more fruits. I am so excited to meet you again and this time round, wanna to ask her to join me for the NYP fellowship.

Praise God for Mandy. There were times when you too faced the trials of gotten stepped by me and there were times when you felt so diao because of this but nonetheless, thanks God for having you as my friend. We went out together to shop and I starting to have even better dressing sense because of you. Maybe that why God placed you in my life to teach me this. And I never forget those devils casting moments at your mum's chalet. Well, gonna find time to spend with you someday since you going over to JW church this week.

Praise God for Val. What to say, I'm you adopted rabbit plus Bug Bunny. And so touched when read you blog that wanna to hug every body. Now I wanna to hug you back too. Thanks God for knowing you. It was fun actually. To tease some another and have fun with one another. One arm sword lady is no more for your 2 arms is back in action. See you around when I go for the NYP felloship.

Praise God for Carissa. My newly adopted gal-friend. Well, one who totally understand my lame jokes. What to say, we shared jokes, we defend one another, we teased one another but nothing can compare to what I do to her. She is so cute when being teased. And we enjoyed one another company.

Praise God for brothers that I can talk about God with. You guys really encouraged me in one way or another. Regardless about ministry, works or whatever. You guys really are a bunch of true friends. I don't need to name it out for God shall show you. Haha...

It was amazing how a year ago, I was telling my PCGL that how I wish to find good friends. And a year later, God placed wonderful friends in my life to help me realised myself more and more everyday.

The encouragement really helped, the presence really helped.

Beside God, these companionships is really very nice and comforting.

Friends are forever and forever you shall be my friends...

Labels: Friendship

Finally, Elaine's wedding ended in a fun moment.

The restaurant was really nice and Elaine was really beautiful.

And Dorcus suggested to sabo Elaine and Terrance but ended up, the MC, Cindy and Reid were being sabo to dance.

And to further worsen it, Cliff, Pearly, Elijah and I nearly got dragged down to dance. Thanks God, Cliff and Elijah asked us to sneak away so poor Reid and Cindy got to face the whole crowds themselves.

Nonetheless, we enjoyed the whole event.

Next one shall be Dorcus' wedding.

Dorcus, Elaine and Elijah.

The amazing siblings.

Dorcus who is the CGL of current N161, the 1st leader which brought forth N266 and ultimately E457.

Elaine who invested a lot in my life, taught me how to trust God and communicate with Him and never being lead away from my vision. She is one of the few who ever believe in my potential for future full-time ministry. Elijah, the ever lame brother. The one who shared all the lame sabo pranks... Only 16, very focus on vision and well, must said, when Cindy and I not around, he and another helper really make things happened and easy for us. Standing in the gap, it make us rest our heart as Cindy going for overseas and I seldom be around due to work.

Though Elaine ended her singlehood life and entered into a new phrase of life but through all these, she leave a strong legacy and beliefs in the heart of those helpers who were once with her.

The end is always the start of a new beginning.

She ended a phrase well and beginning another phrase well.

Really, I learnt so much from her...

Glad that I was in part of this event.

Though Lexx, Grace and Justin also helped saboing me while I was eating but then, we witnessed the fun of Reid and Cindy being teased by Elaine and Terrance.

That was called, never has your mic taken from you if you are the mc, for you gonna find yourself at the mercy of others.

Well, tomorrow is another hard working day for me. So bye bye!

Labels: An End is A New Beginning

A step of faith, as I stepped out of my comfort zone and stopped listening to the voices of men, I decided to ask for request to allow me to wrote a note and requested to have sat and sun off.

I never knew God will place a faciliator who is just as committed to her church in my midst and reading her note of request to the authority gave me the faith to ask for their understanding.

This past 2 weeks, I had been trying my best to ask and they granted me the 1st 2 weeks of request but they can't never give me a confirmation for what I told them.

People came and tried to tell me that as student, we can't ask and fight for what we want but I feel different for I know my God make the impossible become possible.

What He done for me, He can do it again and again.

Even when faith seem to be disappearing but when a touch from heaven come into my life, faith arise.

I know no matter what the world think about me, my God think differently.

The world judged us for our mistakes but God is fair and love us nonetheless.

As we dare to take a step of faith and received what Lord had already won, the victory will forever be ours.

But if we listens to the voice of the world, we will never know the true plan of God.

I know my God is mighty and He turn my life around.

It about whether I want to fight for it or not.

I thanks God for the courage and the faith.

Fight the fight of faith!

Labels: Faith

Wonderful service with wonderful words of God.

Revelations pouring down and heart slowly opened.

It was a wonderful time to spend in the house of God.

A voice of heaven spoke into my heart.

And all I knew is it's a voice that told me that all in my life is restarting and I gonna move on like never before.

I always felt I never fully turn from the detour and the barrier and now God is restarting my life with purity, sanctification and a brand new chapter with Him...

So much more to my simple vision.

So much more to His work.

I gonna start to do what He called me to do.

I got a brand new start, a brand new journey with the same God of yesterday, today and forever more.

He cleared away my past mistakes and allowed me to walk in the light and I thanks God for always being there for me.

I now can boldly say I living with God forever more.

He is the same yesterday, today and forever more but nonetheless, His creative mind is still there for us.

I going further with God...

Further with Him...

Labels: New Journey

Finally, Elaine had her matrimony at Victoria Concert Hall...

It was such a lovely holy matrimony, with Pastor Aries to hold this union, it was such a lovely scene. Nearly cried as Elaine gave her thanksgiving message.

So much had happened...

Terrance's mum who is Elaine''s mother-in-law, nearly tripped over the stair, Cindy's shoe broke, the bridegroom best man nearly tripped over the stair too...

Our heart was thumping like crazy yet ultimately, it ended with a happy ending.

Had our stomach full with the food and took photo with Elaine.

Really hope to meet up with her again soon. With her already married. She really leave behind a legacy in N266. For being the most faithful sister and being the most youngest bride in GGT zone. Though she is now in CK zone but her love will always being reminded.

And guess what?

Half of the girls attending the matrimony leave the place after the reception without waiting for the throwing of the bouquet flowers.

Those who left behind was N161, N266, E457 girls...

And guess who got the flowers?

Well...

Well...

Well...

It's me... =.="

I can't believe I took the boouquet home.

And at the same time, become the joke of the matrimony.

Well, long story but nonetheless Cliff and Cindy won't let me off.

Cindy announced to whoever CGL she met and told them the story.

Cliff kept on saying about on sale and registration...

I meant... What so funny about the bouquet?

Going to service is even paiseh.

Everyone stared at me...

People I know and people I don't know.

Well, one of the CGL we met is Shi Xiong. And he said that who know what God planned.

But the flowers are nice, though starting to dry up.

I gave a rose to Michelle.

A bush to Candice.

Leaves to Olivia, Jun Jie and Shaun.

Well, Cindy asked me to take a photo with the bouquet and here it is...



Tomorrow is Elaine's wedding banquet.

Exciting...

It's my 1st time attending a friend's wedding.

My 1st batch of N266 helpers when I 1st came church.

The one that taught me how to be a better woman of God.

The one who listened and gave me advices when I met problems.

A wonderful sister and woman of God that God place in our life.

Labels: Matrimony

Yes, finally it's the time...

It's Elaine's wedding MATRIMONY day...

1st time ever to attend a fellow ex-CG helper and friend's wedding, the feeling is really difference.

So many of us gathering for a matrimony later at Victoria Concert Hall, wow, it's really a different kind of classical feeling.

I only been there for competition and it shall be the 1st time I seeing a matrimony being held there.

Tomorrow is her wedding banquet.

Though I need to work in the morning but at night I can enjoy myself in the presence of friends as we rejoice and be happy for her.

It is such a merriest day of the year.

The ending is always better than the beginning.

Can't imagine, she got married so young yet she really deserved this.

A faithful sister in Christ, who served God faithfully and kept to her vow till the end.

She leave a legacy behind in ex-N266 and E457.

We shall continue moved on and reaching for a higher goal in Christ.

It's a day of rejoicing!

I hope I can grab some photo after this...

=P

Labels: Rejoice

Never, I said never compromise with myself.

With an attachment and the unfixed schedule, you could said that my once fixed lifestyle is all messed up.

The stress from entering a new envronment and handling new people, it wasn't all that easy.

I asked and asked, seeked out one after another authority before I found one who allowed me to change schdeule just so that I can still make it for my main service, it took all willpower not to compromise.

To stand firm on my belief while my mind tried to tell me otherwise.

To block out the disapproves voices from my fellow co-workers just because they told me not to request for too many weekends off yet I still asked, the types of stress that I felt, it enough to ask me to compromise, yet I kept on reminding myself that it worth fighting for.

Stress from still getting used to the environment and my facilitator is very good but so fast she stretched my capacity and stress tolerance to the max when at a go she handled 3 patients for me to take charge. I being the blur me, didn't hear what she said and kept doing junior work till she asked me to write reports. And in the end, I finished those reports but I ended up working 1 more hour of OT.

Yes, it is tiring but weirdly, it allowed me to have a feeling of how it is like to take charge and I thanks God for holding on.

And I was sad at first when being told not to attend the helpers' discipleship for I not able to promise them about my schedule and they required people who can commit themselves and all my fellow co-kingdom workers all encouraged me and said they will share with me and at that moment, I knew that yes I might be sad but I aiming for something higher...

Something along the line of leadership and I believed, God will make a way as I fulfilling all that He called me to be.

Yes, I make it a point to never trust myself to stand strong but to trust God and to trust God for His strength for holding me up.

Never compromise is what I believe in.

We compromise when come to reconciling human relationships but we never compromise when it come to our beliefs in God.

I believe as we trust our life in God, He will make a way.

It proven every day in my work place.

He make a way for me and He continue to make a way.

So trust in God more than trusting in yourselves.

You never lost out.

Labels: Never Compromising

Reflections upon reflections.

Revelations upon revelations.

It is yet another wonderful time chatting and talking to God of my burdens, my problems and ask for His york to be upon me.

It wasn't an easy period of times, seeing I got to tune myself to a new environment and to pray for breakthrough.

So many things had happened in my 3 years and 3 months walk with God.

Compare to those 16 years that I spent in the world, it is great to know my God.

When I don't know what to do with life.

God give me all that I need.

There're many times I met up with people I don't like but God is still wonderful.

Through His eyes, I learnt to see thing more positively and to believe and trust in Him.

From the bottoom of my heart...

I really thanks God for being there with me.

It wasn't an easy journey for me yet I believing for yet another one for me.

Labels: Trust

I shall continue to prosper like never before!

Settle my 1st fruit of building fund, I am looking forward to the remainder 5 months.

I didn't give super a lot but compare to the past, it was a step of faith.

Last year I nearly can't fulfill it, but by God's grace, as I received my ang bao's money, I gave all I had to God and 6 months later, I started reaping back what I had already sow.

God is good.

He blessed me and allowed me to have enough to live by.

To have enough to make sure that I can live a life of fulfilling my own needs beside the needs of others.

I believe in greater prosperity as I start praying for a guidance of my future and a new job prospect after my SOT.

Thanks God for all the wonderful things He done for me.

Love You God...

Labels: Prospering

I glad I went for N161's CG for make-up.

It had been such a long time ever since I had properly met up their members to fellowship.

How long has it been?

One year?

Ever since 2006 Emerge, I hadn't really look for them.

It was a wonderful time of CG meeting.

Praying for 2 hours till my voice all gone, then listening to Brendan sharing about Ecc 1-12, it was pure revelations from heaven.

King Solomon, the wisest man of the whole world, written this book of wisdom that spoke of all the things that he had tested with his wisdom and ultimately everythings found out that everythings goes back to God.

And as Brendan gone through every chapters of Ecc, he came to Ecc 12: 13-14.

13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter:
Fear God and keep His commandments,
For this is man’s all.

14 For God will bring every work into judgment,
Including every secret thing,
Whether good or evil.

And all that had been written in the previous chapters, Solomon concluded by saying, everythings we can forget but one thing we must remember...

"FEAR GOD AND KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS."

The fear is not the kind of fear which literally caused us to run away from God, but this fear is the kind of fear which we honor God for His authority and power and reverance Him above everythings of our life.

Above money, above relationships...

Above everythings.

That what God deserved.

Our devotion.

Give your life to God, and your life will never be the same again.

Labels: Above all

A fight of faith...

The impossible make possible.

I thanks my God, for making miracles happens and let the world be amazed.

These last part of my actual schooling life in poly, I revisited my vision.

A vision of revival.

Yes, it's not easy to keep the fire.

But it takes one heart to keep it burning.

The heart to be with God.

I don't know what gonna happened in the next few months, but I know God will make the impossible become possible.

I lost so much, yet I gained much more than I can ever imagine.

My God is a God who make up for our losses and bless us through all our life.

Wisdom doesn't come just because we are smart.

But wisdom come when God is our everythings.

It's another brand new walk, and a brand new journey with God when everythings goes back to where we are at the beginning...

Loving God wholeheartedly, loving people fervently.

It's not one area I am strong at, yet I know, my God will make the impossible become possible.

Fears chased away.

Doubts casted away.

Now is the time, the season of preparation.

From taking down from the shelves till burning in the fire...

It's a process that I can't run from yet I know, my God will make me strong...

For when I am weak, He is strong.

Labels: Season of Consecration

It's takes Your love to bring me through.

This period of self-reflection.

This period of sanctification.

This period of moulding.

It's takes Your faith to carry on.

Every tears I shed, I shed for You.

The desire to seek for You.

It's take Your faith to carry on.

Every visions, every dreams...

It's through Your eyes I received.

It's no longer this flesh that lives.

But it's You who lives on.

It's take Your love, Your grace, for me to know.

Yet, I thanks You Jesus for being here with me.

Stay with me o Lord.

For I now stay with no one, but You.

It's Your faith that bring me through and shall always bring me through.

Labels: Faith

We thirst for revival...

Hungry for revival...

Ask for revival...

Greenridge is on revival fire...

And NYP shall be on revival fire.

A vision given by God...

I once lost it when revival seemed to be so impossible in the past.

But now, as the people gathered, once again, the fire of God is among us.

The consuming fire of God...

Pour down from heaven like never before.

It's time for revival and the spirit is among us.

It's time, and it's the season.

Labels: Revival

Many times, I had ever talk about being who God called you to be...

And many of the times, I am wondering what kind of person God want me to be.

Many people told me different things.

Some said I'm soft-spoken.

Some said I'm fierce.

Some said I'm scary.

Some said I'm polite.

Some said... I'm "whatever" they wanna be to be...

But what kind of person does God exactly want me to be?

Many of the times, it feel nice when people praised and many of the times, it feel bad when people said something about about your characters, yet have they ever saw the "you" that God has known ever since we were born into this world.

Yet, I slowly learned, people only saw things in their own perspective, but often in times, what they labeled you as might not be the actual you that they thought they have known.

Often in times, they thought they know who you are, but actually, they only see one side of you and missed out the other 3 sides of you.

I'm not talking about hypocrisp who are known as "actor" who pretend to be someone they are not just to get people to love them...

But I talking about the actual you...

The one that God has known inside out.

The one that has a human face, an ox face, a lion face and an eagle face.

I'm not trying to be creepy.

But at different situations, these different faces will arise so that you can deal with the issues of life.

Sometime, people only see one of these 4 faces of mine...

And time after time, I was face with the struggle of asking myself...

Who am I?

Yet I realised, it not what the world and people said about me...

But what exactly has God said about me?

That when you will be surprised...

God knopw more than you think His know.

He know your weaknesses, your strengths...

More than anyone know about you on this world.

And His desire is to see us growing and being mould to be who He called us to be.

Dump aside the voice of humans and tune into the voice of God.

Listen to Him as He speak as gently as a dove.

And receiving from Him the visions and dreams that He wanna you to carry.

You will be amazed how much God has planned for your life.

Labels: Be Yourself

A start of my attachment...

Lesser time to work.

More time to spend giving life to the workplace in hospital.

Wonder how I should feel.

Happy?

Sad?

Excited?

Passive?

Many feelings I can feel...

Yet I thanks my God at the last part of my poly life...

It is not sadness that I feel...

Tired it's maybe...

Yet at the last part of this journey...

God placed nice people who are understanding in my life.

I'm able to request to either work morning shift or to have off day on weekend because it is what I want, to be in church...

It's tiring yes, and today wasn't any better, lost my stuffs, feeling sad for a moment, then picked myself up and focusing on my request to change my work timing, God really make it a way.

The devils tried to pull me down, but God lifted me up...

He gave me grace and allowing me to go further.

He is really my strength, my One and only Pillar.

Wonderful God He is and forever He is wonderful.

Labels: Wonderful

Many times in life, people asked, where God when I need Him? Where God when we are under the oppression of a corrupted government? Where God when my family leave me one by one? Where God when I am alone? Where God when I suffered on earth?

Yet when hope seem to be lost, God hasn't abandoned us as we thought He did.

He is still there as He always do been omnipresent...

And just like how He stayed by King David's side when he faced persecution from King Saul, He is also staying by our side, watching over us, protecting us when the devils tried to oppress us from many sides.

I once lost my hope when life didn't seem to be getting better ever since I knew God...

I was on fire after converting, yet the fire died as many went away and it further died off when misunderstanding arised from within those who I thought I can learn to love, and it finally died off when I thought hope was lost.

Yet, at the most unexpected time, God threw me off my crown of self-centerness and bring Himself back into my life when I thought He long give up on me.

A very simple answer He gave...

"I never give up on you, I'm always there when you thought I'm gone. I will never ever leave you."

A promise. A word. A love. A passion.

It is what the reignite a dying fire.

God is always merciful.

In this fallen world, there is God and at the same time there is devil who is also known to many as satan. Satan's purpose is to destroy lives while God's purpose is to restore lives. While God come sincerely, devil come deceitfully. Devil feed us lies while God feed us truths.

Matt 28:20 NIV, "And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of this age."

It is not just a promise to the church, the pastors, but it is a promise to everyone...

So when you thought that all hope is gone, all visions is being destroy...

Think twice, it is really God leaving us or just we ourselves neglecting the truth that God will be with us no matter what.

Trust in the Lord your God and He shall fulfill all that we ever need...

Labels: Hope

Sorry guys, I won't be able to put up the stories of the Generals of God as soon as I wanna it to be.

It's because I haven't finish the book.

I just can't get my hands off it.

It's wonderful to read and for those who wanna be evangelists, this is really a divine book for you.

For because of this book, my destiny is confirmed once again and visions restored and being resurrected.

It gave you faith and the anointing you feel is one that can't be deny.

The shivering of your flesh as the presence of God swept through me, it was a wonderful feeling and I believe, just as much as it has blessed me, it shall do the same for you.

So all future evangelists out there, this is a book for you and me.

So what are you waiting for?

Go to the nearest bookstore to look for it.

Or else, it will be quite sometime, before I going through each and everyone of the evangelists.

Labels: Pause

I know friend that I planning to share on the Generals of God...

Yet after the services, after going out with Mandy, after some thoughts, and a phone call, lot of reflections came into my life.

It was a divine moment and I thanks God for it...

For the goodness of God, the grace of God is revealed even greatly before me.

Rev. Dr. Ulf Ekman had been talking about suffering for Christ and it was yet another reminder of how far God had brought me through.

I really thanks God that through out the years, even though many circumstances had came my way, yet He is always there to guide me.

There were times when I seem to be on my own, yet when I looked up, He is just in front of me, guiding me.

I lost my best friend as the year went by, but I gained an eternal friend, Jesus.

Yes, I was tearing after my friend called me after such a long time.

Yet, I thanks God that because of Him, I'm still around...

I can never imagine a life without His vision.

I can never imagine, what will happen if I'm to lose my calling...

For my life surely will be aimless and ordinary.

Yes, lot of trials and tribulations are going to come my way, but it will be a period when characters are being mould.

Yes, without God we are nothing but with God we are all that we can never imagine.

Relationships, self possession will one day fade away but our God will still be there.

Treasuring the moments with God, experiencing His love, grace and mercy over your life.

Be open to Him and allow Him to do a work in you.

For one touch from heaven, and our lives will never be the same...

Labels: Grace

I had started to reread this wonderful book that I borrowed from Kenrus.

Felt so bad for borrowing it for more than 6 months and haven't even got the time to read it.

Can't imagine, how powerful it is when I started to read the first biography of a man of God, followed by the next one.

Male evangelists, female evangelists...

The book has no gender discrimination...

It was a book that talked about the successes of various people and failures of various people, regarding their gender and what kind of background they were from.

It was a book that talked about the mistakes of men and how important it is for us to hold on to God's voice and not acting on our own voice.

It's open spiritual eyes and bind the terrors of night from our lives.

Through the sharing of the extraordinary lives of those ordinary people, it only proved how possible our God can be when it come to impossible missions.

It is a book that strongly recommended for visionaries and missionaries...

Walk this journey with me as we looked through each life of those great generals of God.

Labels: God's Generals

Having fun for Eugene's housewarming + BBQ...

Got a chance to met up with Val and Carrisa again and saw how Eugene being pushed down the pool by all the guys.

And got to know a brother, Michael who was even more pity than Val caused Val only injured one arm, but that guy played skateboard and injured one arm, 4 fingers.

And on the way back, it was such a funny trip...

Carrisa, Val and I were on the train doing bandaging for Val or rather, teaching her how to bandage herself.

And Yu Jie was super funny.

The gals were talking about setting standard and he was talking about his vision. It sound funny in a way cause he used all those ridiculous expression, but then, maybe he will fulfill it.

But enjoyed the talk with gals, we inspired one another to go for higher calling and higher standards in life cause God never fall short of our standards but He do beyond what we expected.

Now I should be more focus...

Old habits die hard the world said.

But this journey with God is a journey of flesh beginning.

I reaching for a higher calling.

The tricks of the devil won't work all the time.

I got a higher vision.

This is a period of sanctification.

Don't know what will come my way.

But I know, the book God's generals really taught me how to go further with God.

I glad I went for Eugene's birthday celebration cause got chance to talk to various people and got to know more people.

Carrisa, Val and I were thinking of going to K-Box next time and inviting all the friends too...

Hope we can do it.

Labels: Celebration

Finally, I received news of where I will be going...

My friends told me the wrong ward.

I going to another one...

Also specialised but now no one knew what kind of place is it.

I pray...

I will be praying hard for I might seldom be able to come church if I can't change the schedule.

They said to follow our preceptor's working hours which including sat and sun.

And I pray for a good in-charge and a good preceptor for I really will miss church a lot.

When I 1st heard of this.

My heart sank.

Yet as I thought about it, think about it.

I wonder if this is another test to test my heart for Him.

For, whether I can successfully fight against those above me and turn my situation around or I am ask to listen yet holding on...

To me, I leave it to God.

The warfare is within me.

The faith to believe I can fight through.

Cliff once challenged me...

Can I turn the nursing situation around and be the one to have flexible schedule?

At first it seem to hard.

Everytime I fought, it was like a warfare.

To be brush away by others and mocked by others and one time, even an authority said to me that church is just a social activity yet I always wanting to turn my situations around, and God always there to help me...

So why can't He do it once again for me?

He done it in a minor way...

Now I want a major breakthrough.

The highlight of my life before ministry...

Can it happen?

Yes, I believe it...

Confess it...

Agree with it...

Pray for me friends...

Pray for wisdom, pray for favours.

I gonna to pass through this no matter what stand in front of me.

Labels: Casting off

It was so a relief when I choose to call up a friend cum leader to share of my visions and what is bothering me.

It's really help as I share and listen to her point of view.

It was not Hui Jun if the one who read this entry wonder.

It was a long time co-worker in my ministry.

And I glad that at the end, through the voice of God, I choose to call her.

It was comfortable to let all out and at the end of it, it seem like everything make sense.

My visions and consecration.

And another thing that she said was it was always during the period when I rising up that I faced the road of choosing...

And now, I choose no more except to surrender my life to Him for Him to use.

22nd birthday will be my bigger break ever.

Going into SOT shall release my vision out of me.

I denied no more but to walk with God and trust in Him as I focus on my vision...

And I very happy that I now got an indication...

Why?

Cause it was such a specific indication that only God will do so for me.

Trusting and believing God for that...

It shall come and it shall never be wrong.

My life is in Your hands.

Fully for You!

Truly for You!

Guide me Lord, as I walk this road of faith.

Labels: Faith

Singapore is really very small.

With a big church like City Harvest, we could really meet people even when we took the mrt or bus.

I met a City Harvester even as I took the lrt back home after the fellowship with the NYP people.

Well, how I knew him?

Actually, I don't know him.

Only because of a fault step at delta slope today.

I was happily skipping down the slope when something caught my eyes.

A step with 4 papers written, "Fault".

I thought it was a joke.

I stared at it and stunned for a moment then an usher said it was fault and my reaction was, "can't walk this".

Then he said, "not can't. Just don't stomp on it."

So carefully I lightly walked down and continued with my skipping.

And guess WHAT!!!

The City Harvester I met on the lrt was that usher who told me about the faulty step.

So we ended up talking after he waved his hand in front of my face cause I was sitting down and he was standing.

And we were like what a small world cause before me, he also met another City Harvester. And after we parted the way, that the end of our conversation yet it was like another similar encounter of mine when long long time ago, our Bible Study was still at YMCA and another brother who was also usher talked to me while I was waiting for Bible Study.

Well, I met so many City Harvesters in the past, on mrt, on bus, some are evn for my zone but in the oast never dared to talk to them until I knew them.

How small is the world actually?

Compare to heaven, it is just a small dot...

Labels: Small World

Yesterday, I went for my member's grandfather's furneral.

It was my 1st time attending a Christian Funeral.

My member was feeling emotional for the last few days.

All he said even without tears was, "when he was alive, I never really appreciated him, now that he was gone, it too late."

And the only thing that I could say was, "he passed away peacefully, with no other diseases, and he is with God."

For my member was partly sad as the grandfather was a backslided yet at his last days, my member was there praying, and reading the bible to him. Even during his comatose state, he was there with his grandfather.

And the grandfather passed away in the comatose state, just like the grandfather wished so. No pain, no suffering, just peacefully.

As we walked around the cofin to see the grandfather. He was smiling, not a big one though but can see, he leave in peace.

I always said to myself, I rather leave the earth in peace, than suffer in diseases.

And through this, I learned to treasure people even much more.

Never wait till someone leave your life than learn to appreciate.

Appreciate them when they are beside you and with you.

Love them, be grateful for them and be happy that they are with you.

Labels: Peaceful Depart

Someone once said, "For every hurtful word that we said that hurt someone, to make the person come out of the hurt is to say back 7 words that is nice."

And today, as I ended off my last day of OT, many things had happened. Nurses were very nice and I met very nice doctor too, but there were moments when situations arised and the students would be the one got it, including me and if I said I was not hurt by it, I would be lying for afterall, I am someone who is quite sensitive.

Everyone got their sentimental part, we are all human and if we are not sensitive, then we would be a real human.

And many of the times, I was so tempting to say a hurtful word but I stopped myself as I always told myself that not God would want me to do. And sometime, I will say the wrong words and got said by people who in a way argued over it and even if I only said a word, they will say many other more in hope of hurting me.

And I always said that it's okay, but I realised that I am not and I always argued with God about how come others do this and that and I can't even if they are in a way close to me yet God said a simple word, to do what is right in His eyes.

If anyone ever ask, had I ever being complaining? Being harsh with my words? Being cruel with my words? Being cutting with my words?

The answer is yes.

Many many times, even till now...

I complained when situations got harder.

I complained when people treated me unfairly.

I complained and complained and never tried to be understanding.

Yet today, as the instructor shared of her hard times when she was newly out into the workforce, the life wasn't easy.

She was bullied left, right, center being a freshly graduated diploma holder, and being a small sized lady who was soft-spoken, she was the easy target for people to vent their anger on and she shared of how frustrated she was and how much she learnt to control herself and stop being overly sensitive over every tiny issues.

And one thing that hitted my heart was forget all unhappy the day before and start you next day with a brand new start.

It was a enlightenment and I slowly see things in a different light and I realised, sometime, it is not others who make your life miserable, but it is you yourself.

And I smiled with a relief that life can be easier if we learn to say nice words to one another, encourage one another, smile at one another, no matter how tough our life may seem.

Appreciate everyone in your life.

Understand one another.

Love one another.

Never be selfish with words but be open to encourage.

And life will really seem so much better! =]

Labels: Happier Life

Has you ever thought of what is God planning for your life?

Has you ever thought of what is that one thing that God placed inside of you for you to achieve and fulfilling?

Has you ever thought about the calling that God placed inside you that no matter what, it is what you set your mind upon achieving it?

Has you ever thought about how your life will be very different if you choose to take another way out just because that what you like to do?

Has you ever thought about...

I had thought about all these when I was taking my 1st detour 2 years ago.

Seeing that vision with only my previous CGL to support me, it wasn't easy.

Being in CHCC wasn't what I don't like, instead, I love children yet the warfare in my heart to focus my mind on my calling was pulling so hard that I got tired and refusing to listen to the voice of God.

I was struggling to a point when my vision died off.

Yet, God turned my life around when I fallen to the pit and He went all the way just like how He looked for that lost sheep to bring me back.

He pulled me out of that dark hole and carried me on my back.

My vision resurrected in a blink of my eyes and my passion renewed.

I leave behind what I once felt it was for me and go for what I know is for me.

With my ZS who supported my vision, and my disciplers and CGL who supported and encouraged me, I went on and pursuiting my vision.

Yet a part of it was still buried in the valley of death, waiting for that one word to be spoken to resurrect the dry bones.

Confirmation after confirmation coming into my lives.

The word of God, the prayer of my leaders, the prayers by the missionaries, I starting to resurrect that calling in my life and once again pursuit after it after so long.

You heard me many times talking about this...

Yes, I meant you but why am I saying this once again?

It's becoz, there is a part that I left out, a part that I wondered why I was so distracted by it that I can't heard the voice of God in my life.

I was distracted for a year while serving the Lord.

Distracted by some people around me who questioned my vision and I was wavered.

Yet I thanks God that after a year, I choose the right path. I took a detour but no longer will I doubt what was given to me.

For I believe in what the Lord give and that apply to you too...

In your walk in life, there will be times when you take a detour and it might take you got your answer yet as in all things, we are to be persistance.

Never give up, never fall back.

Stand up while you still can.

And walk on when you wanna to slow down.

For Goa already planned a path for you even before you are born.

And we need to find it before we reach our destination.

Be sure of what is your calling and go forward to it.

Never waver, never doubt.

In all, persist till the end.

And all shall be according to the will of our God.

Labels: Calling

Once again, my God is a God who answered specific prayer.

I prayed for a specialised ward, a ward with nice nurses, I haven't actually saw it but today my classmates asked her friend to check our posting with his ward in-charge since our school hasn't put it up.

I am having attachment in the OT session and our in-charge haven't got our list so her friend helped us and guess what?

I got a specialised ward.

Not the one I went previously though I wish for that but I told God that as long as it is a specialised ward with nice nurses to guide me, it is all that I want and that what I got in the end.

I get to go for Neuro ward for 3 month. A ward that specialised in the area of brain and when my friend who was my ex-member from N266 and same course as me asked how come I so happy to go there, I told her that is my interest, to go to specialised area.

I don't mind the scary part, I don't mind that I need to study much more than what the school taught us as long as I got good nurses to be there for me. Nurses who are willing to teach and give us opportunities.

My another friend told me that she heard that the nurses there are nice.

I pray and pray that everything will go well.

And with my God, He shall guide me through!

Labels: Prayer Work