This is a like a preparation period.

A period where my faith is tested.

A period where my characters is molded.

It's not easy, for I got things I wanna do yet the Lord prepared a new road for me.

Yes, for those who I haven't share it, this is suppose to be a surprise for all my close friends but it leaked out somehow through one way or another...

As some closer buddies had heard really shared... I signing up for SOT.

Haven't finish the whole application form as I still need recommendation forms from CGL and ZS and I was eagerly waiting for it.

I don't know who will be there for some of friends will go for another year one but I know next year will be a life-changing year.

For I will be seeing the plans of God more clearer in my life and I will see what God wanna me to go.

Yes, in the end, I decided to postpone my Taiwan Trip to the year after that. And Cindy said, the time I can go, should be able to attend a wedding which she said I will know in a month time. So them will just be the season.

And next year, as a small start, I wanna go for a trip that I know I will take in the near future.

Now?

I got my attachment at hands now... Gonna make things work. Stress is coming, I can feel it, but I still gonna go through with it, so that I will receive my well deserve holiday for I will be graduating!

Yes, now is the time!

The time of my God!

Yes, I feel the stress coming because the next few months will be an intensive period for me, yet I still got to make a way out of this.

Labels: Preparation

There is a vision.

A vision for my destiny.

A vision for my future.

I saw it.

I grabbed it.

I believed in it.

And I waiting for it.

Lord, Lord...

This journey is just a test of my faith.

There's more to come.

There's more for me.

Keep me protected.

Stay with me forever.

Ahead with my vision and none can be stopped.

Labels: visions

Just a post to dedicate to my dear friend, Wee Wee.

Haha... She had been the closer friend, beside my pri sch friend, in my sec sch year. From the same CCA, though she was from N.A. To me, she was always smarter, always more hardworking, got a good L1R5 for O'level, got into a good course in NP. Missed her sometime cause I never really had time to go out with her and a couple of friends, yet from time to time, we never forgot those friendship been built up throughout our CCA years.

She always loved to call me Xiao Shi Shi as a petname, just like my other petnames, and though I might not liked to being called that for my mum called my sister Shi Shi too even when her name had nothing to do with my name, yet my dear friend found this name cute and kept on calling me that.

Now she knew I got a hamster, she wanted me to name it after this petname. I nearly fainted actually when we chatted on sms.

Well, she still my friend who got easily crazy for singers and is known for being lazy and who loved to sleep at home.

Maybe I should really found sometime for reunion.

People don't come by easily.

Labels: Friendship

A flesh encounter with the Holy Spirit and my life totally renewed.

Like the vision that Ezekiel saw, in Eze. 37, of the dry bones in the valley of darkness. God asked him, could they be resurrected, all he could say to God was "You know the answer."

Sometimes, we tells God that "You knows the answer.", "You know where our life will lead to.". Yet we never think that we are the ones that need to take the first step by being thirsty and ask God to feel our Spirit even more.

Today, as I saw the valley and the mountain in front of me, the presence of God so strongly and I was reminded of the tough times that gonna come my way. So many people had given up the fight and became like the dry bones, yet am I going to be like the dry bones and stay where I am or be like Ezekiel who prophesied to the dry bones to be resurrected and it shall be resurrected?

A test is ahead of me and all I know is, I really to move it on.

Labels: Renew

More works coming up.

Attachment coming near.

A mixed kind of feeling...

What to expect for the next 4 months?

New faces, new challenges.

More strength from God.

More encounters with God.

That all that I wanna ask.

Labels: Busy

Had a last count of actual attendance and wow! We break our record attendance once again.

Was happy with Cindy that our CG is growing like never before.

Has a bunch of youths that are on fire for God.

Yes, I will have ton of things to be tightened down and to give more BS and can't imagine, tomorrow I will be giving so many people BS at one go.

But nonetheless, clearing these can help us get ready for the harvest at Youths United Challenge.

After next week, my holiday will be over and attachment will begin. I received more works to do yet all the more I gonna pull through.

Too distracted is no good. Too relax can be slacking.

Revival is in the midst and all the most I gonna buck up cause it won't be easy the next few months.

Guide me O God as my time is getting limited for I know You gonna give me more than I ever think.

Labels: Revival

Today I was asked to help my friend, Elaine with her wedding invitation RVSP.

As she will be going overseas and only return just in time for her wedding, she asked for helps and I gladly agreed to help her.

It was a simple task, just confirming the invitation and compiled it for her along with Pearly, yet I was happy. Happy that when she needed helps, she asked from me and it was a simple act of trust.

She was the first friend of mine who going to het officially married and I happy for her as through her, I learn to love God deeper and through times of needs, she was there to give me advices and even when she was no longer in N266 but transferred to CK zone, she still remembered us.

I always love to help her story as a testimony to the youths to tell them that it is worth the wait. Lots of times in the past, I also faced peer pressure to get attached and today, even my mum asked me when I getting attached, yet I told her and my friends simply that it's up to God.

Yes, I learn from God that patient need to be build up, and it's worth the wait. And now, I happy to be helping out in one of the part for her wedding.

And so glad it doesn't clash with my attachment.

And I always believed we sow what we reap...

Labels: Being glad

It seemed like recently I had been feeling emo.

Not acting like one, just feel like one.

I wondered what on my mind.

I had been suddenly brought back to the memories of the times before I came church.

Everything flashes through my mind and I wondered, what brought me here with God.

And I was being reminded again and again that memorial stone of mine that I'm here because I willing to listen to His voice and get to know Him as a friend.

I can't imagine that moment if I refused to listen to His voice and deny the opportunity to get to know Him, I will be far far away.

And I start to wonder, is it because of this that I'm feeling emo.

Is good to once in a while think back my walk with God and how far I had gone through cause in front of me is still a long journey that never end.

It's a feelings of unknown...

Labels: Feelings of Unknown

I stablised myself so that I can grow even more.

I'm growing with patient, something that I always lack of in the past.

Cindy said to bear with a bit more while with responsibility come sacrifice.

Sometime I always asked why I sacrificed this and that to achieve what seem to only been a vision...

Yet because of my persistence, I had reached the 1st step of the staircase toward my goal.

There still a long way to go yet I walked on because I now willing to give up all distractions to reach my calling.

Yes, a year had gone by and I felt so much had wasted because of misjudgment.

Some always said I can do better than what I had done yet the better never come cause I gonna give my best.

No use telling myself to reach for better when I got to do what I am suppose to do.

I'm not perfect, only God is.

Because of Him, I gained the boldness to step out.

Because of Him, I starting to believe in my vision more and more.

I got failures and some still in my life, yet a successor is one nor without failures but is one who never quit.

I glad to see more souls yet at the same time has more people under me, cause it mean that my capacity grow.

I still find time to do what I love to do, watched anime, listened to music especially my all-time japanese favourite playlist... Yet at the same time, I willing to go out to meet up people and to integrate people. It is a nice experience to mix with our E457 youths.

Yes, there are tough times I believe but tough times produces tough warriors.

The passion is growing and the spirit is lifting.

I'm stablising myself for this moment.

I becoming more decisive because of the place that I'm aiming for.

And every anime that I watched, I learn a lesson from it, whether to be persistence or to be passionate about my vision.

Like what those missionaries once said to me, never give up, keep on seeking and asking God... Maybe that why at that divine time, I met them. Never to contact again yet the guidance of God is forever in my heart.

Yes, I learn to live for today and put down yesterday and tomorrow.

Maybe that why I was placed in E457 where we had no limit with God. Misunderstandings are being resolved, relationships are being reconciled.

The next 4 months will be tough for me, only can be to my own CG twice a month yet I knows God gonna stretch me further, from a bottle to an ocean.

How I wish to swim in an ocean... And to have a capacity like that, it is great!

How nice to be growing. =]

Labels: Growth

Today Victor came to evaluate our CG.

It was a great actually, to hear from the CGL about our weak points and strong points.

And I thanks God that though I might not have the experience yet God gave me His grace. I felt I can do so much better but I glad that for today, I tried my nest and that mean that I can further stretch myself.

Attachment is coming up. Alternate weeks I got to go for make up CG but then I believe our CG is going to grow further and I can stretch more at the same time.

There are much more to come.

Not satisfied, not staying where I am.

Go go go!

Persist on and I shall reach where I suppose to be.

Labels: Going Further

Wow, I can never believe that I had missed a few days of blogging...

Being slacking away am I?

Nah, partly correct but partly due to the fact that I'm working day and night to finish my works before attachment.

This is my most monotonic week ever.

working working...

But who asks me to love to work?

And yesterday spent 1 hour cleaning my hamsters' cage.

Had a sad discovery.

It seemed like the male hamster attacked the female one and injuried her till very serious thyat she couldn't even walk.

I took her out of the cage.

But a few hours later, she still passed on another world so called "if she got a spirit".

I was quite sad with the male one.

And now?

The male one is so lonely.

Playing and sleeping.

Sad can be sad but then, I now got to take good care of this male one.

Haven't name him yet but since he is so naughty, called him naughty.

He even bit my sister and my mum and dad were so funny looking at the hamster.

As in got this naughty look also in their eyes. Haha...

Labels: Slacking

Spiritual warfare!

2 new warriors of E457 are facing the trials of being grounded at home for this week.

Can't take things lightly!

Can sense the anger in the devils to take us down.

But God is faithful.

Believing that as we take up His armors and fight, God will protect us.

Come on, children of God!

We can't stop what we doing.

Our promised land, one that is filled with milk and honey is infront of us.

Let fought a good fight of faith!

We are the tribes of Israel that never said die. Judah and Benjamin, that who we are!

Triump is our God! Amen!

Labels: Warriors of God

Coming back to Him is not just a nice feeling but it a wonderful start with Him once again.

Once in a while in ministry, I will feel tired.

Tired from the words of people of the lacks of concern from people.

Tired from the things I wanna do yet got to restrain from it and tired from doing things that earn criticism from people.

Tired, tired, tired...

Sometime, I really do ask God, if I got a visions and people are hindering me or I am the one that hindering myself, what can I do?

And everytime, I bow my head in defeat for I received no reply.

But today, after crying out within myself for a flesh new start during worship, I saw a vision...

I saw myself standing in the middle of a big field.

It was so beautiful.

Full with lovely clouds and beautiful flowers.

It was a typical field, with wind blowing by you and the scent of a flesh breeze...

It was simply lovely...

And suddenly, in front of me, I saw someone facing his back toward me, wearing a pure white clothes and slowly, he turned and faced me like an angel and I heard a voice saying, "how much you want to know me? I know your weaknesses and your strengths. I heard every cries and I heard your heart but tell me, how much you wanna know me?"

With tears in my eyes, I knew He was Jesus.

And a simply reply of "I wanna know You deeper. Deeper than what I ever know.", I sensed His presence flied through me and as I heard the voice of Pastor Derek, calling those who in need of a flesh touch from God, I responsed to it.

I didn't cry like some of them did. I just simply sat on the ground cause partly due to my skirt, yet during that moment, I heard the voice of God telling me that all is forgiven and a new start has begin. Forsake all unrighteousness and come back to Him to love all of Him and to fulfill all purposes of life.

I know it was a no turn back anymore. So many times God has called me and so many times I responsed yet I never fully listen to Him. Fallen so many times and being up so many times, I'm tired and I know it's time to surrender fully.

With a new start in mind, I set forth the journey.

And today, as I received my drawf hamsters from Jun Jie, I know they gonna play a part in my life. In the past, I always being so concentrated on my works that I neglected everyone around me. Now with them, I can play with them and have some fun. It was not cheap to set up their home, but I has no regret after seeing them having their fun.

And very blessed for today I asked Jessica to meet me to go home together. Howe and one of her friend, Andy, came along. They offered to send me back, partly due to me carrying so many things and Andy wanna talk more with us.

It was nice to have people offered to send you back and thanks God for them.

They all reached home safely and tomorrow will be a brand new day!

Jia you Shi Min.

Ahead of you is a brand new journey.

Labels: Voice of God

Haha...

Today I went to a pet's shop near my house.

Saw rabbits that looked like the ones that Jie Jin has.

I so wanna get them but when I heard the price and compare it with the price that Jie Jin get it for, I nearly faint.

100 bucks distant... So exp...

But then, Jun Jie told me that he is giving out hamsters and I told him I want a pair of couple and he prepared a pair for me.

Saw the pic, so cute.

Never has any pets before as my mum has this unknown fear toward mouse and furry animals yet I persuaded her to let me keep them.

Tomorrow I will be getting them then I will get them a nice home and await the birth of baby hamsters as I heard that the male one got the female one pregnant...

So cute isn't it.

Yes, God didn't give animals a spirit yet He gave us animals as companion somehow to show forth our compassion even to those that are not humans.

I waiting for this gift.

I hoped to have a rabbit next, and I targeting at Jie Jin's rabbits.

I prayed hard for the rabbits to give birth in the near future as I told her that if she has baby rabbits, must give me one.

I transferring my love to animals yet my love for God remain the same.

Waiting to see what going on tomorrow.

Labels: Gift

A time to seek...

Seek for the passion for You as I had so long ago.

That first love that was awakened when I first knew You.

My Lord, teach me to love You ever more as I want to.

At this time of tests...

Let Your presence shows itself stronger.

Only with You can I know where I going.

So let me walk with you every single day.

Labels: First Love

It seemed like even without the camp, I was slacking from my regular blogging habit.

Well, seemed I planning to sleep soon and from tomorrow onward, I will be spending most time doing my works, I might as well blog huh?

I must said, I glad to be at the camp though I miss my bed, my daring "Mr. Computer", my comfort working room and the presence of my mummy, but the camp allowed me to know more CGC people and their friends.

Through the camp, I got to know my NYP CHC IC and helper, Andy and Eugene, and the rest of the ICs and helpers. Got to know some chatty sisters and had great chat with them.

We spent those precious breaks on the jokes that I shared which caused me to earn the title, "the lamer of girls" and we were laughing crazily enjoying ourselves. Then we spent some of the time having gals talk. Knew a sister called Valerie and we were sharing and she accidently shared about this guy she liked and then through little talks, we gals gathered and I shared of the true love waits sermon series that Cliff once taught us one year ago as most gals seemed to have no clues what kind of standards to set.

Then we had captain ball and Yu Jie made us wanna laughed and cried cause everything he was to defend the captain, he ran out of his position to catch the ball though I can say he was good at defend and do help us a lot.

Then funny Engene kept coming to disturb me and during the night walk, I was with a guy and my friend and we got to walk through the maze at Pasir Ris Park. The Ics confiscated my torch after telling us to bring them and Eugene took it and ran into the maze to hide. He tried to scare me but I was too upset by him that I ran after him and hit him while blowing the whistle that they gave me. =P Well, after a lesson, he still not enough. Hid behind another bushes and tried to scare me but ended up get beat by me again. =X

But tue was a bit sian and crazy. Played the crazy mini games and really, I never imagined that whateverI did to Wei Liang now came back to me. One week ago when we went to share the chalet with Michelle's CG, I asked Wei Liang to sit at the UFO dish then I turned it and don't let him come down. Then now? We got to do a task on this and really, I hate playing this kind on game and 1st time in history, I do the girly thing which is to scream. =X Then for the spiderweb, I also didn't climb it for I was afraid of height and Andy who was the game master attached to our team said he also the same so he let us off.

Height and heart pumping games are not really my type huh? Like what one of the girl-friend I knew said, either you kept on playing until you afraid or until you wanna play more. Height is just one of my weak point I guess since in the past I always loved to jump around and being a tomboy, playing with height was just a normal past time. =X

Then Rickson gave the instructions for water bomb game which said we were to protect our group leader. My team was the 2nd team and Eugene's team which was the last wanna to alliance with us but it turned out just as I had guess, they wanna finish off the winner team then process to finish my team and funny Eugene, voice so loud till I can hear the strategy he gave his members but too sad, when Rickson said there was a special rule and it was to have no rule, he aimed the bomb at one of the game mistress and everyone started to bomb one another.

Then after all these, most girls went back to sleep and when the night came, we all had our steamboat and I leave the campsite.

Well, I'm not a camping type of person yet I enjoyed some of the time when we had nightwalk and chit-chat about various things.

And I must said, telling jokes and asking logical questions are the best.

Well, more to come.

Got to replenish my strength and to spend time with God even more.

How I wish my next holiday come sooner as it mark the end of my 3 years in NYP!

Jia you! =]

Labels: Blogging

Yea, I supposed to be back on wed but I decided to leave earlier.

I had my fun and now gonna rest!

Updating soon! =]

Labels: Camp

Today I will be away for a camp all the way till wed.

Will miss my computer, my works...

But gonna enjoy myself too.

Bye bye friends!

See ya when I;m back! =]

Labels: Camp

Sun was a rare day that I will ever be at home yet today I stayed at home for one whole day, finishing up my admin work before I;m away for a 3 days 2 nights camp.

I not those kind of people who loved camp yet the staying up part is what that always made me excited.

Though this is the 1st time I am joining the NYP CHC but I gonna enjoyed myself.

Though none of my friends make it but thanks God, Yu Jie is there and in the same team as me.

A blur brother that I known through the many combined CG with Chee Kiong's side but he is funny.

Tomorrow still got to wake up earlier and I still got at least 300 companies data to compiled before I can go for camp.

A supposed 5 days work, I now got to finish within a day!

God, helps me!

I thanks God for the job anyway cause I'm doing what I am good at and interested in.

Let me continue to do my best to work!

Labels: Work

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Receiving Gifts
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Receiving Gifts:		9
Physical Touch:		6
Quality Time:		6
Words of Affirmation:		5
Acts of Service:		4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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I never know my primary love languages will be receiving gifts, from notes to practical gifts, and maybe that why when tribulations and friendship division came, gifts are what the remind me of the love of my friends and I. Coz the gifts I received, I will always keep them, and sometime remind myself of the love that my loved ones showed to me.

And I always loved to give gifts to those I care coz they can keep the gifts and being reminded that I'm there.

And my CG is really in revival!

Within a week, 4 souls came to the kingdom of God and they are on fire and let us continue to shine forth our love languages!

Labels: Love

Had an outing with E457 yesterday.

Went to Sentosa and almost all of us are there.

Playing and having fun yet the games were not as easy as we hoped it will be.

It tested our thinking skills, our ability to work together and allow us to form a tight bond.

Though during the night game, a bunch of Australia Kids came up saying that our people were cool and wanna play with us, but it did cause us some headache in a way.

And one of the girls even asked am I a Japanese? Coz I got the look. o.o

I only being asked about my identity regarding China or Taiwan but never Japan.

Well, I still got a camp to go with NYP CHC.

Eugene said it's a must and I really pray for my stomach now.

2nd food poisoning occurred after the outing.

=X Blah, bad experience.

Still thinking about the stretching of my capacity to give 3 lessons of BS, I thanks God for strength.

Jia you jia you!

There's more to come! =]

Labels: Teamwork

Today I woke up and the 1st thing that came to my mind is 4 hours of BS with 6 people!

3 different lessons and all happening at Vivo City!

If you asked me a year ago...

Will I go to the extend of meeting people, packing my time to give BS just to impact them and get them to understand God even more and allow Cindy to be more free to give other BS to other people... I will never think of this.

But now?

I love giving BS and see their life changes.

Yes, for some time, I was dwelling in a state of sadness due to a transition period and seeing those that I cared for leaving yet ultimately, God had prepared a new bunch of people that will rock their schools and campuses!

Greenridge is in the mode of revival!

Who says a school can't be changed?

We can make things happened!

So glad for Guo Yang and Max.

Their hunger for God can be see in their eyes!

E457 is growing at a steady speed after a month of so called multiplication and after a week of official multiplication.

Yea, the youths might be loud yet the fun is there and the bond is strong.

I feel so young with Cindy!

Losing my voice is okay!

But being with them can't be replaced but other stuffs!

Haha...

And today going for outing with them. Tired as I might be but hey, can't miss out the fun! =]

LET FIGHT THE FIGHT OF FAITH!

Labels: E457

A fun camp I had today.

Been dirty with my beloved team, SUPERMAN!

Then leave them behind to rush off with the drama team people... It was a period of transition.

Talking about various guys and gals' perfume's brands and wow, CK's contradiction series really smelled sweet for men... =P Stolen a bit from Xiang and fall in love with it.

Then we talked about our vision as I submitted my forms to Cindy. Xiang, go lei go lei! Let rocks the holy place together with GTZ! Haha... Only those who overheard us knew what I am talking about. But hey, come on! We rocked West Coast, now we rocks the place of the Lord!

I so glad that everything was finished, the drama and all. So nervous at the start... Only got 4 days notice in advanced, practised with the drama crews on wed night and thurs? Got to act out! I kept on forgetting the 1st 3 lines, only the part with Cedric I can remember well cause all I need is my voice to scream and thanks God, that part covered my previous part of acting. Reid was so awkward and Cedric was so sick when he showed me the acting and Kenneth pretended to be the "cute guy" and waved and blinked, I thought I can faint... Haha.

But I was so touched by the words of God and the 3 things about love.

It reminded me of the 1st love with God.

And the things I gonna do in the next 1 year.

So much to go for You and so much I wanna achieved...

Until the wait is over, this is all I going for.

Work and work and work.

No worries, just work!

My CG is in revival mode and all the most I gonna work, and guess what?

I never know Max lived so near my house.

Now got one more brother with me.

Haha...

Well, it is a waiting period with the Lord!

Persist on gal, you can do it!

Labels: Waiting

How long had I been lacked in my update?

3 days I never update this blog and I can see my viewing rate is moving slower and slower...

Had been slight food poisoning since mon and now? I am feeling better.

Such a exciting week I had...

Had the multiplication CG on sat , watched the video of the past 3 years, it brought back many good memories.

One of the funny part was about the CFC prank which Irvin and I was forced to exchange fake ring.

And as it moved on to the washing of feet, Cliff said that I need to persist on. Just a little bit to reach my calling and purpose, I just need to persist to reach the place that I'm called.

Having the gift exchange and as I sowed a branded chocolate into it, I reaped back a DELIRIOUS latest CD cum DVD, Now is the TIME from Irene, when I opened it up on the bus at night while on our way to chalet, I covered my scream caused I never thought that a little prayer to God allowed my desire to come to pass. I only told God that how nice it is if I brought the disc and now? I got it... God really answered prayer...

SOT's graduation on sun. Being there straightaway after the service. I had been thinking of postponed my registration to SOT to year 2009 and I thought that what I suppose to do. Maybe it was because I wanna go and find a stable job 1st then go SOT or maybe it was because I wanna wait till they resume it back to the 10 months course.

Yet after the graduation, God said a simple phrase to me...



And I make up my mind, even if I am to be stretched... I go all the way out for God.

Then as I said, mon I suffered from food poisoning... Isn't a nice experience... Until now I still faced the effect but I thanks God I'm able to go and celebrate Wei Liang's birthday and able to gave BS.

Now we got 2 new brothers in our CG, Max and Guo Yang and I am so excited.

We are moving into another realm of revival.

Seeing more and more souls saved, and the CG keep growing.

It is our dream, both Cindy and mine and we are going to see it being fulfill...

God, it is really a time of no regrets.

I never regreted giving up whatever I had to give up and instead, I gained back much more. I waiting for the promises to being fulfill and my destiny to be unfold.

A lifetime of no regrets!

Labels: No Regrets