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A Warrior Princess, Daughter of The Most High God, devoted to Mercy, Truth, Grace, Justice, Freedom, Dignity and Value

"You shall also be so beautiful and properous... a crown of glory and honour in the hand of the Lord..."
Isaiah 62:3

.UNDERSTANDING THE GAL.
SALT.AND.LIGHT


Evangelyn Ong Shi Min

Physical DOB @ 25th Jan 1988
Spiritual DOB @ 21st Aug 2004
Water Baptism @ 10 Sep 2005
Asian
Child of GOD
Jan Baby/ Aquarius Star
Served in N266, Old E457, GT Zone
Now serving in LYL, New E456, CHC
Reside @ West District of SG


Loves from the Earth
[#01] God and His Kingdom
[#02] God's family [CHC]
[#03] World Missions
[#04] SOT 2008
[#05] Leaders of CHC
[#06] Worship, Classical Music
[#07] Black, White, Brown, Purple
[#08] Sight-seeing, Blogging
[#09] Raining Days, Winter
[#10] Dark, Coffee Chocolates
[#11] TCC, Fish & Co
[#12] Lavendar
[#13] Poems, Theology

Against
[#01] Satan
[#02] All Kinds of Abuses
[#03] Strawberry
[#04] Insects and Rats
[#05] Being Sick
[#06] Milk & Sweet Chocolates
[#07] Hot Pink
[#08] Laces
[#09] Heavy Metal Music

Dreams, Visions, Desires
[#01] More Revelations
[#02] More Inspirations
[#03] Love God Even More Each Day
[#04] Forever Passionate for People
[#05] Rising up as Leader
[#06] Leaders' Meeting
[#07] Mission Trips
[#08] Israel Study Tour 2010
[#09] Counseling Diploma + Degree
[#10] Theology Degree [Master and Bachelor]
[#11] Matt 28:19-20

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Spirit-Filled Believer
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Shutting the DOORS!
Monday, July 30, 2007

After a day of looking through my life and starting to chit-chat with my Father, I now understand the ways my life will turn out to be.

Many doors I had opened in the past and it was shutting down one by one as I declared a warfare with the darkness and confessed of my weaknesses.

Like what the ministry worker shared with me as I responsed to the altar call, the doors must be shut by determinination.

As I thought back, I gave a laugh at my naive when I was young.

And now, all those doors had shut up one by one.

And I sensed the atmosphere changes slowly but steadily.

I know, I walking down a new journey and with the new things at hands, I will be super busy in the months to come.

Praise God that I am feeling better...

Health is still a bit disturb by cough, by emotionally I am better and I believe by the time I ready for SOT, it will be a new season once again.

Thanks You, my Father.

You the best!

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Remembering the LORD @ 5:17 PM

Expanding Capacity...

As of today!

My CG is officially multiply...

Yesterday, was still talking to Pearly and it hit us that from today onward we are on our own, walking a new journey with the CG.

There were many thoughts inside of our heart, many of which, was filled not with sadness but of joy of what we had realised through our walk with God and our view on what will we be when we are in the new CGs.

But one thing we know, we are preparing our side for something great that will come our way.

Something that we never experienced before and one thing I know, we will be stretched beyond what we can imagine.

Expanding capacity is not easy yet we know in the new CGs, we will be stretch...

Let us go for it...

Now on my mind, all is to grow and to expand...

With my new bunch of Benjamin's Tribe...

I has so much I can do.

Let us go for it, really go for it!

A season had ended and a new season has begin...

Now is the time!

To run!

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:53 AM

Blessing!
Sunday, July 29, 2007

Wow, someone promised to get my the breakaway english CD if I buy the chinese version one next week!

Today went to attributes and saw that they only left a few copies and oh my, I forget to bring my ATM!

So sad, I went to tell my CG members that really very sad, hope to get it next week then one of them said they got the disc already and can give it to me...

O.O

I was just joking when I said ok, but then he really said giving it to me!!!

Wow... Thanks God for it!

Then today went to have CG's BBQ.

Not many people made it but thanks God, got 4 friends came and though they acted shy shy but when we played games, we went crazy!

Haha... So much fun!

Eat until super full and Jolene's father was super generous, BBQ for us, cooked Bee Hoon for us and provided us with the place and Jolene said his father super happy though for religion activites, the place can't be used but thanks God caused by miracles, He gave us a place there to have fun... Long story but still praise God!

We were so happy and we took Jolene's father's car to the mrt station and during the short journey, Jolene's father said he was happy that Jolene knew us cause her life is totally changed from before.

O.O

I went wow... But really, sometime, things that we do, we never know what can happen and thanks God I know Jolene...

Let fight the fight of faith!

And so happy, if everything goes through smoothly, I can finish my course in feb...

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:10 PM

Moving On...

After this 2 weekends and experiencing the power of God and seeing people got deliverance from demonic bondage and being set free in inner healing, I had finally make this decision to truly move on in various areas of my life, personally and also in people's lives.

As some of the people who had visiting my blog for the past few hours, you can see that I had removed certain messages that in the past, I always so much wanna to type things to say against it but I decided against it cause for those who know me well, I believed that you understand how I am like yet today, because I gonna move on, this I must say, I deleted it away cause it was disturbing and also because I came across many people to know where it came from.

At least it better than the past yet the last message did cause me to think cause if it is the way it should be then it won't appear there.

And if it was the me in the past, I think people's eyes will pop out cause I got many things I can say about this yet all I can say, after what happening today, I opened up my eyes and understand myself better...

Friendships to me like one of my close friends once told me, if it isn't good for you, don't be too deep in it, break it off if needed to. And many things, I opened up my life to the wrong kind of people and really, I could be like a sheep, never know the mistake.

But as I read those messages, the friend's word came to my mind and I remembered a promise that I once make to be aware of the friends around me, and after the last mistake, I was so careful of the friends around me, may be that why I am close to some while faraway from some. I still make friends, but I make sure I know my stand and who I am and how far the friendship will go.

All I can say is, so much of things today I'm moving on. Even if I got to cut off the promises or the various relational things, I just cut it off...

I got so much more I can go for and I got so much more I got to let go...

I am just a human, I can't fulfill all my friends' needs, yet I do to my best but when I need to move on, I just move on, cause I still gonna to walk on...

Yes, I was upset, yet when I thought about it, I realised, it all about moving on and letting go...

Maybe, that one thing I learn today when I was at the altar and also when I was helping to support and accompanied people and friends.

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:52 PM

Seeing the Truths

After such a long search...

After fighting...

Only one truth remains...

I am who I am today because of my Lord, Jesus Christ.

Only 2 persons in my life who ever made me understand the true self within me and both of them I don't know them at all...

One told me that I was cute and even though I never know her but just a look into her eyes and my heart melted.

One told me that I was created beautifully in the Lord and everything about me is beautiful and I need to confess it and one look at her, and my heart burst with joy and my eyes swelled with tears.

Both strangers, only knew them as sisters in Christ, yet their compassion touched my heart and awaken my souls.

God really spoke to people.

And as I heard the voice of God, His praises out shine all the praises I heard for people, as His voice matter the most to me...

Yes, I had saw the truths and yes, I am really to run the race.

Once again, I picked myself up from where I am and I start to run toward my visions and dreams.

Leadership, ministry...

All that I want, all that I do, it's belong to You.

You alone, deserve all of the praises.

You alone, awaken my souls to all Your truths.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:42 AM

Spiritual Purity

I staying pure in the spirit.

To walk in the lightness of God.

I am totally cleanse.

By the blood of my Savior.

Because of Him, I am who I am today.

And forever I shall be the way for Him.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:30 AM

Multiplication
Thursday, July 26, 2007

Finally, after 3 long years, N266 is going to embark in a new journey...

With greater growth and greater hope, we had finally ended up in a place ready for another round of growth...

To say the truth, it I said I won't miss the CG, I will be lying caused to me, this is my 2nd home.

Through tears and joy, we embraced one another and guide one another.

Through trials and tribulation, we fought together and won together.

Now it is a brand new journey, with different people.

This 3 years are really wonderful.

I was the 1st person to get integrated into N266 when it first multiplied in 21st Aug 2004.

And many of the times, I saw a lot, gone through a lot and it is this family that helped me and patiently guided me.

I will surely miss N266 after multiplication but I won't go to the extend to linger in the past cause we are to walk toward the future.

N266! You're the best...

We will move toward our vision of being the most prosper youths of this generation, yet serve God and love Him more than ever.

Greatest works we shall do...

It is in our DNA and we shall carry this DNA with us!

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:25 PM

Holding On...

I holding on to believe I can be heal...

Yes, I got a weak nody since young, but that doesn't mean I can pray for healing and I don't believe in it...

Not much people know but a lack of neglection on my body when I was young caused me to suffer the consequences.

Not because of the lack of faith but because neglect taking good care of my health.

Not because I don't wanna to tell anyone but I hope for understanding and concern.

Only those who are truly consider close to me know how sick I had been and only my family know that I need to rest and I hope that a lack of contact didn't hurt anyone.

I got so many people in my friendship list and not every single one I will contact and tell me about my life and only those who are what I consider as confident and leader I will contact.

And I am now proud to say that I feeling better.

After laying on the bed for the whole morning today and crying out to God for strength and visited the doctor and took my medication, I am feeling better.

I am holding on to believe that I can be well and I glad for all my friends who smses, msn and call me to encourage me during my period of sickness, I thanks all of you for your concern.

Like Cliff, Pearly, Cindy, Casandra, Abel, my clone who chatted with me as per normal and for praying for me and encourage me... It didn't matter whether it was a direct mentioned of your concerns but all those encouragement, remind me that they are my friends and they are the warriors in the Kingdom of God that pray for me and also believe in divine healing.

Because of the understanding, I grow stronger to believe in the area of healing and God worked all the time...

Sometime, I do ask why I am not heal instantly but this is an area where I got to fight myself and all the supports that are there, I really treasure those.

People might misunderstanding me and laughed at me as to why I am always so fragile and easily fall sick, but every encouragement they give reminded me that God is a caring God, and His presence really comfort me.

Thanks God I only had a slight fever and the fever had gone and really, I will not give up on believing for healing...

I wrote this not because I wanna justify the reason why I am sick but one of the tag message that my friend left triggered my thought.

Well, if I said I am not upset, it would be a lie cause I really not those kind of person who is transparent over my life and the openness I am to each individual depend on how good our friendship is and it also depend on whether you can help me to grow more, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

I will be holding onto my faith and forever I will be!

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:20 PM

Capacity Must Grow!
Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Wow, after such a long time, I finally declared that my photoshop lesson will be starting this sat.

Had a chat with Isaac and it seemed like Melissa also wanna learn blog designing from me and we decided to open classes starting from this sat with the 3 of us 1st.

It also mean that I better take care of myself so that I will have the energy for all these when the week come...

So busy, with tests and lessons to make up for. Now I am in my room, covering myself with a blanket...

So much things going on from this week onward and so much planning to be done...

Well, I can let go.

I must do everything out by the end of July.

God, more strength, more anointing, more of You...

Can sense Your presence when speaking and working but that not all, I need more...

Expand my capacity and regain my health!

Doing more and more for Him!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:58 PM

Harry Potter!

Once a Harry Potter's fan, always a Harry Potter's fan.

From a girl that never touched a novel to a girl that can speedy read finished Harry Potter's book 1-4 in a span of 1 week with the additional of holding the books for 1 month and read it 2-5 times, man, that was a good one.

I forsaked book 5 & 6 due to the lack of time and I found out the ending for both books through sites and now, left book 7.

I had heard about the ending and reserved the book from my friend who surprisingly brought it though he said he will only get it next year due to the amazing shocking price yet he brought it and wow, the Q is long long long...

But never mind, I glad to hear that it was a good ending given that many said Harry Potter was going to die...

Can't wait to get my hands on this book and hope that I got time to finish it.

With Kenrus's book and a few other on hold, God, I really need to hurry...

If I got 48 hours a day, many of the times will spend reading all those wonderful books!

Then later I can get hold on more collection.

Jia you! I can do it and build a stronger spiritual life!

Yet at the same time? Enjoyed the Harry Potter's book 7.

Read from newspaper that movie 6 will be out in 2008 and movie 7 will be out on 2009.

Can't wait for the 2 movies...

Movie 5 might be a big disappointment but movie 6 & 7 will be much much better!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:49 PM

Different?

Different from before?

Had I really changed that much.

From a hyper & arrogant girl of 14 years old...

To a rebellious and lonely girl of 16 years old...

To a God-motivated & trendy girl of 19 years old...

Had I really changed that much???

I met a senior of mine who was once the vice-president of my sec sch IT club when I was taking LRT back home 2 days ago.

As I stood up to alight the train, I saw him in front of me, staring at me in shock.

Well, there were no hi or bye caused we lost contact for over 4 years ever since I left the IT club when I was 14 years old to start my world of rebellious. He is still the same but I had changed and maybe because of God, I slowly being myself once again and after so many years, most of my pri and sec school friends and classmates don't even recognised me just like I can't recognise them.

Maybe I should stick to changes...

Someone once said, a girl only change outwardly when they found someone they like but if I am to agree to it, all I can say is I wanna to better and more beautiful in the Lord as He is the One in my heart.

The ring I wore, the changes I made is not for nothing for day by day, it is all these changes that reminded me of how far He had been walking with me and how He is always there when I am lost...

Jesus, You changed my life.

You make me unique since the beginning and make me different as I discovered Your presence...

How I love to know You deeper and I know I will as I walk closer and closer with You every single day.

There are burdens that I want to leave it with You forever and ever and I know You will take it no matter what for You love me more than I ever know.

The different I make, I glad I do it all the way.

The different I give, I glad I give it anyway.

I am who I am.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:21 AM

Sick, In Need of Healing...

I fall sick with sore throat and cough. Flu haven't come but my friend said will come sooner or later.

Headache, cough... Thanks God haven't reach the stage of flu... I hate flu... Totally hate it!!!

The devils seem to be out to get me again.

Putting me through all those trials but think can beat me? Think twice.

I getting uoset with the evil ones right now...

Really upset!

This week is a final showdown once again.

Light vs dark...

But too bad, they gonna lose anyway caused our body is a temple of the Holy Spirit.

I gonna pass through whatever tests in front of me caused I know my God shall keep me safe and sound.

I need healing!

Let the healing power of God come to me!

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:07 AM

Freaking Day to a Lord's Day...
Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Freaking day can be really freaking.

Woke up with a weird feeling that I will face difficulties that will push my button today and things really happened in way that I can imagine.

I met a bunch of guys that freaked me out as I boarded the mrt. I sat down at one of those corner 2 seats at the last cabin as I always do and one of the guys from the freaking group sat down beside me. They were so noisy, banging the wall at the back of the 2 seats and I was there, trying my best to keep my temper down as they were irritating and the guy that sat down suddenly knocked the slight corner of my feet then he said sorry and I knocked my head to acknowledge that I accepted his sorry then one of his friends said can she heard which meant me. And then the guy trying to catch my eyes by saying sorry a few more times and I turned and forced a smile to say it's okay then he asked for my name, whether I am from Singapore or not and asked if I am from NYP and the ultimate was my age. I replied with one word answer and he was struck at what more to ask and when I said I am 19, I don't know is he was shocked caused lot and lot of people told me before that I looked like 16 years old rather than 19. And when the train reached the station that I should alight, I quickly got up and run off with this thinking that... "Oh man, not again. Freaking me out."

To say the true, since my sec school years, I always seemed to have this "things" with guys. And sometime, it can get annoying and oh man, it make them seemed desperate...

But one thing I knew, thanks God for wonderful brothers around me... I got close brothers that are devoted toward God, with their eyes fixed on the works of God and know when is the time for them and when isn't and that when I know that not all guys are freaks.

I don't regret giving some guys cold shoulders caused it was such a freaking stuffs to have unknown and even not close people to do those kinds of weird things. It was just making me so uneasy. Like what I always heard and what I always believe, everything started out as friends, even if not close friends. Caused during the friendship's period, we can know the true side of a person unless they tried to hide it and everything started out as friends.

I always believe so and won't just accept anything from anywhere. I'm not that anyhow and not that simple-minded.

But anyway, things didn't end here... It seemed like Mr. S.A.Tan was out to get me. I got the easier skill yet I got a strict lecturer too and the result weren't very nice.

But everything changed when I met up with Cliff and the rest of the helpers. We were discussing whatever that we needed to settle and then Cliff shared a short 15 minutes message from Ecc 3: 1-9. The verses about a time for everything and one thing hitted me that everything for it own season. Even if we are not doing well for this season but God prepared another season for great harvest and after these, I had a chat with Cindy and released all that I received from the Lord...

And everything went well. Went K-Box with Cliff, Hui Jun, Ethan, Irvin and Pearly. We sung and sung for 2 hours plus and really, we were tired physically but then, singing really help to de-stress.

And finally, I am here to blog. I will reduce my blogging rate as I wanna spend more time tidy up my room, get ready for this week deliverance and to get some sleep.

Good night people!

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:23 AM

Memorial Weekend...
Monday, July 23, 2007

The past 2 days, really had fun with the CG. It was like never before. The time we spent chatting and fellowship, it was no different but at the same time, it went up to another level.

Sat fellowship was a starting point. But Sun one was even different.

I had a packed day, from service to CG. And the journey to the CG place was not easy. Met up with all the make up CG people then we didn't know how to go to the place and waited for Reid to come back to look for us and me being the girl who lose her sense of direction, nearly led the people into the lost land. Lexx jokingly said did I ever had my sense of direction in the same place but as my friends knew, I had them, just lost it especially when in a foreign place with no road directory and if it is night time.

CG was not bad. But the fellowship after that was superb. We stayed for a while at Isabel's place to chat and the talk with Wai Yin made me realised what I can do with my youths too. Well, to make it short, I gonna drag Wai Yin to enter into SOT along with Kenrus. Once a trio always a trio. From bible study till now, it didn't change much if the three of us are to meet again. It just wasn't the same without the Bible Study but we each grow in our way.

Supposingly after CG, I should be on my way back home but before I went into the train, Pearly stopped me. It seemed like her friend at the last minute can't meet her. So she asked Cliff and I to go watch movie, but in the end, I only went to have dinner with them while Yan Sin and Wendy came so it turned out I accompanied Yan Sin and Wendy and it was a good time. Had a chat with Yan Sin while we were on our way back home.

The whole day was pack pack and pack... But I loved it all the same.

Had a conversation with Pearly about the requirements of the guy in future and it seemed like we all changed our views on the kind of guy that we can accept and one thing that strongly came to us is there are nice guys but doesn't mean they will be good for us. And it came to me that I can accept a guy who is not holding same position as me [like helper to helper, CGL to CGL], but his spiritual level must be either same or higher than me and that is for God to decide. It is interesting to share and listen and learn as different people goes through different experiences.

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:47 AM

Spiritual Warfare...
Sunday, July 22, 2007

How amazing it was to fellowship with members and talked about spiritual warfare and encounters with God.

When was the long time we had such a wonderful fellowship like the one we had today.

It was such a powerful time that we talked non-stop for 3 hours on the topic of spirituality, encounters with God and how we overcame our fears.

I enjoyed this time and can literally sense the change in the atmosphere, from the time we talked about manifestation of the spirits till how God used the secular to impact our world and about how we came to grow in Christ, it was a time of rememberance.

And as I took the cab back with ZX, we started to talk about service and about the outcoming multiplication of the CG.

We took nearly 3 years to multiply and we did it by the grace of God. It is really a time of rejoicing. From 17 people, we became a CG of 12 people then we grew to 30 over people and finally has a stable core of 20 over people, it is not a mega CG yet we know that the moment we multiply, revival shall sweep upon us once again.

Yes, we went through a lot but at the end of it, those who are faithful and willing to walk till the end receive their well deserve reward. I haven't saw the fullness of my reward but I know it is gonna to be great as long as I walk with God till the end.

A lot of thinking once again and as I attended the make up CG, the drama reminded me of the time when I saw classmates and friends left the church and many of the times I asked God why I still here while they are not yet I know that God stay with me even right now. People might come and go but those who are faithful shall receive their reward at the end. It is just a matter of time.

It is a warfare to fight for and I am fighting against the stronghold of this world.

Christ already won the victory and we shall reign with Him forevermore.

Fight fight fight! I has another war to fight.

Reign reign reign! I am called to reign with Christ.

Victory is in our hands, we just got to continue be the victor.

FIGHTING!

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:38 AM

A Promise? Is a Promise
Saturday, July 21, 2007

Today went to school and work as usual but one thing is not... This is the first week that we don't have a friday CG.

But still, I promised to go for make up CG if anyone need me to be there and I went ahead but going and it was really a faith tested time whereby the friend's HP had no credit, hard to get him and I just be there, waiting and waiting.

At first wanting to give up waiting but God reminded me of my past time when I will always wait and wait and never give up even if I just got to be there and sometime, I can forget little thing like this and in the end? I choose to stay where I was and wait. Half an hour had passed, an hour had passed, but I still wait under the sign board as I said. My feet was tired but I put on a smile and just wait.

It was not easy waiting but a promise is a promise and God assured me that I will never know what He can do if I am willing to fulfill this promise.

And lo and behold, the friend reached and he was very upset for making me waited for him but I was fine and we continued this journey by having fun chatting and searching for roads.

And I glad that he enjoyed the meeting and knew a new friend. He was opened and I will continue to just be a friend that fulfill my promise.

When you make a promise, never break it.

When you find it hard to fulfill, hold on and remind yourself why you make the promise that you make.

It is better to make no promises than to make it then break it.

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:02 AM

ATTENTION ONCE AGAIN!
Friday, July 20, 2007

Attention once again...

For the ticket sales for the drama production, we had cut the price of the ticket to $5 per ticket!

It is an reasonable price, consider the fact that it is a production that last 1 and a half hour, with free refreshment and will be at one of the 450 seaters lecture hall at Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

It really worth the money.

So what are you waiting for?

Grab one ticket now!

Or more if you want!

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:58 PM

Attention!

Attention to all who are ordering the "TRUE LOVE WAITS" Production Drama!

We got to know the number of tickets that each one of you need by the end of July.

As the hall can only sit up to 400 people, all tickets come in a first come first serve basis.

Any order after the month of July will be still taken but will need to take some while for it to process.

So what are you waiting for?

Order it now with me via msn [angel.shine.like.star@hotmail.com], handphone, or through my tagboard @ my beloved blog.

ORDER IT NOW!!!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:37 AM

Devotion

It is a fight to really search for the inner being of my soul.

The fight between the darkness and the light.

The fight to triump and to overcome.

My Lord has win the fight but I fighting on to regain myself.

I was once lost yet I am found.

I was once confused yet the Lord give me a sound mind.

And the evil ones trying his best to mess up my life.

The plot was discovered and I am giving my all to the Lord.

The broken promises and vows that I once made, now I gave to the Lord.

It was no longer I who lived but the Lord lived in me.

I had been so wrong to thought my own strength can win over the darkness and in the end, only the Lord can save me for He is my strength, the One I need.

Lord God Almighty, forgive me for always walking away and fallen away.

I am back with You and in the end, I still found You at the crossroad where I choose to turn a different path from Yours.

Now I am back on track and this is the cries from my heart, to be with You even till the end of the age for that the promise that You once make to me and You still keep it.

It is because of Your faithfulness to the promise that I am still here and now is my turn to fulfill it.

With all my heart, I stay with You.

Love!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:32 AM

彩云国物语

Wow... So sorry for a lack of update.

I was on MC yesterday but I was captivated by an anime that I choose not to update for just yesterday.

I had found this wonderful anime called 彩云国物语 that made me think about the anime called 12 kingdoms. But the different was... 12 kingdoms is more toward the political side with characters development and searching of identity but 彩云国物语 was more toward romance, comedy, and I love the development and the smartness of the characters though some of them hide their talents.

It was kingdom based anime that was set in a ancient country called 彩云国. It gave people a feeling of fantasy yet the story is not about magic. It was simple and it spoke of a king who was thought to be stupid and a girl who was given a task of tutoring the king while acted as his consort. It was cute and the background story behind each character was tragic yet touching.

It must be the first an anime really caught my attention.

The theme songs are also so captivating that I put them in my hp to listen to it everywhere and anywhere.

It was an wonderful mixed anime that is a must to watch for anime lovers especially for girls!

Cheers! =]

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:25 AM

Busy + Resting
Thursday, July 19, 2007

Busy busy...

Just received my exam timetable and attachment timetable.

Should I be sad or happy?

I ended up with 5 weeks for vacation straight then attachment for 4 weeks then 1 week vacation and the rest of the 13 weeks are attachment.

Should I scream for help or be glad?

I saw the ward for the 1st posting.

It is what I want.

Ward 48, oncology ward, the place where I treasured my attachment the most, with nice nurses, CI and friends but this time is different. The people that will be working with me is still my classmates but my those fun friends and also, I wondered how much the ward had changed. I was at the A side last time, helping with A Class to B1 class patients, enjoying the time when the nice Nurse Manager will teach us stuffs and the Staff nurses will show us interesting proceduces that only reserve for the ward that why I pray so hard to be back.

It wasn't easy being there at first. I was frightened by the death that I saw and the rate was the higher since any ward that I being too. The stress and the images, sometime... I did question the existence of God. Yet it was at there, at the death bed of one of my patient that God made a promise that as many deaths as I saw, I will see hundreds upon hundreds of souls being saved. It was a promise and I still held it within me.

It was part of me. I never desired to be a nurse one day yet being at the ward let me experienced things that I won't be able to see outside. I mature through these experiences and my compassion grew even more in this environment. It was at this ward that I received my first compliment from a nurse. I could still remembered the words she said as clearly as if she was saying it to me yesterday. Maybe that why no matter how many times I wanna give up, these kind of memories played a part in keeping me on this path.

While I am weak, He make me strong!

That what I always believe. I looking forward to this attachment, minus the sabotage kind of people, I believe I shall have God's protection.

More things to come in the near future.

Blogs, graphics designing plus attachment.

I won't be around much, but I will try to be there.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:50 AM

True Love Waits, A Long Awaiting Drama Production
Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Finally the long awaiting Drama Production by our very own GTZ drama team has arrived.

Using the theme of promise, yearning for love... Our very own GTZ drama team has indeed done a good job to bring us a professionally done drama that bring a message that True Love does worth the waiting.



Yes, for those who knew Brendan, Cedric and Cindy, they are the main cast for this production. So those who know them, must support them and get as many people to come as possible!

Venue: Ngee Ann Polytechnic Auditorium
Date: 23th Aug 2007, thursday
Time: 6.30pm - 8.30 pm
Seating Arrangement: Free Seating
Ticket Price: $8 per person
Take note: Please come at least half an hour before starting time. Refreshment will be provided.


For ordering of tickets, please contact me via my handphone or msn @ angel.shine.like.star@hotmail.com.

Please kindly placed your order by 18th Aug 2007 so that I can deliver the tickets to you by 20th Aug 2007.

Get all your friends to join this fun time and to grab the true meaning of "TRUE LOVE WAITS".

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:45 PM

Visions! Waiting to be fulfill...

After reviewing my life, I found myself at the crossroad once again, seeing my future with God.

It was hard at first to know what I want for I want too many things and I kept walking in circle, falling down and determined to come back stronger.

I wanna to fulfill so much things, go missions, have my own fashion shop, learn dancing etc and etc. Yet often, due to the lack of time and my own self, I told God I either gave up or just focus on one of two of them. But a question came to me, why can't I fulfill them all, one by one as I walk with God? Don't He has the power to make the impossible becoming possible?

To admit it, I was afraid to fail and afraid that I can't master whatever that I wanna to learn. I told myself that I am going toward young adulthood in least than a year time and after that I won't have much time to even blog which is one thing that I do whenever I am at school, just spend 15 min just sat down and blog and then back on track with my works. I was someone who hate to study, hate to sit down and listen and now, I just wanna to change it all, my attitudes, my habits and every single things that aren't going the way that it should be.

Within the next one year, I wanna master the art of graphics designing, basic guitar skills, photographing and creating videos. Then the next 2 years, I wanna to go and further my studies by going for diploma for counselling and maybe even psychologic. And after all these, I wanna to fulfill my dream by learning hip hop dance and also to owe my own fashion shop.

I still wanna go missions but as I review my life and thought about the vision of the church, I was being reminded by many wonderful things that the church has started in the missions field and we are all called to be missionaries but in various aspects of life and I am one of them, yet I know, even if I had the desire for missions and full-time ministry, I am not those kind that are called to just pack the bag and go to a country for years. No, I wanna to travel to all countries in Asia-Pacific. I wanna to impact lives of the youths in various places.

This is the dream and vision that I has and I not going to give up. I wanna to fulfill it and fully step into the realm of missions before I am 28.

I got a dream and I chasing after a dream. No longer will I be afraid but I shall run after it for I am a dreamer, a chaser and everything that I do, God will guide me.

It is a vision, waiting to be fulfill and I believe that those who are with me, we are a team that fight together.

Act 2:17
'And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh;Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,Your young men shall see visions,Your old men shall dream dreams.


I am still young, I still can see vision and even when I grow old, I can still dream dreams that I know my Lord can do.

A brighter future, here I come!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:51 PM

Falling

Falling

Words and Music by Brendon Seeto & Gan Khek Chyan
© 2007 City Harvest Church


Find me in Your holiness
Lead me in Your righteousness
How I love You
Beautiful Savior

When I'm weak You make me strong
Bearing my cross I carry on
How I need You
Heavenly Father

Search my heart O Lord
You know my every thought
An open book to You
I placed my all in Your hands

Falling at Your feet
As my whole world fades away
Falling at Your feet
Let my life be wholly thine
My life be wholly thine, Jesus

Emmanuel
Emmanuel
Abba Father, never let me go

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:27 PM

Touch by Your Presence

A touch from heaven win over a thousand words.

A touch from heaven beat every loves on earth.

Just a touch from You, my life is changes.

A touch by Your presence, my spirit renew.

Just a touch...

A divine touch from the heavenly.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:12 AM

Is that what I am called into?
Sunday, July 15, 2007

Am I called into full-time mission works?

Or am I to follow Church and be a missionary for them?

That was what on my mind this few days.

I once thought I will always be on my own, even in the area of ministry yet after hearing the news of multiplication and being lay hands by various leaders, the promises of God once again flooded through my heart, but this time round, it was different. It felt like God is calling me into something deeper and showing me my vision clearer.

It was as in God called me to the marketplace yet remain a missionary for Him. Not in term of not going for full-time ministry but even if I am called into it, I am not to leave the marketplace totally.

God, show me Your purpose in a clearer way.

I need You. I need an answer...

And I am willing to wait.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:32 AM

To Be With You

To be with You...

It take a price.

To be with You...

It take sacrifice.

I wanna to give it all, just to have You with me.

I never notice how much I will miss if I ever let You go.

You and You alone touch my life.

No people on earth understand me as much as You do.

Only You know what I want and only You set my future ahead.

I was so afraid to let go yet You stay with me to help me through.

I was so afraid to move ahead yet You reach out Your hands and lead me on.

Who am I to say that I don't need You when I need You even more than ever.

Lord, set my mind on the things from on high.

My vision, my future.

To be with You, that all I need.

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:17 AM

Guitar and Music!

Wow... Thanks God I saw Guang Xiang today.

Had a nice chat with him while we were on our way to foyer 3.

And one of the thing that I asked him for help is to help me find a guitarist to teach my guitar skills.

CG is going to multiply soon and only one can be considered as a real guitarist and the rest? Well, we only know the basic of the basic. Zhi Xian might be learning from Cliff and I got this desire to pick up the skill once again. But beside that, I also wanna really learn photoshop cause in future, I will be making flyer and etc and etc...

And as I talked about this to Guang Xiang, I also asked for his help to help me find a teacher and he was learned from Andy and John. So he promised to help me ask them for help.

Well bro! I am waiting to hear your reply!!! So glad to know you and always so willing to help me.

But then, if anyone know of any guitarist that can offer help, can also recommend to me? I will be so glad... Cause whatever you bless others, God will also bless back you, double, triple and more than you ever can imagine.

I might not be the best student but I wanna to do my best to be there to minister and another way is to expand this area of mine. I stopped learning partially because of no guidance avaliable and also my fingers are a bit problematic but I willing to try it again cause if I never try, I never know the result.

So if anyone know of any body that can help, please recommend to me? I will be super duper glad!

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:07 AM

Memories of Our Time Together!
Saturday, July 14, 2007

To think of it, still got 2 weeks more before my CG is going to multiply.

A lot of memories came to my mind.

Good and bad. Yet I love all these memories.

Still remember the 1st time I was with the CG, it was just a week after their multiplication with N161 and how I dreaded to be there since I hated Christians.

The time we had BS with Cliff and my classmates at Fajar KFC which now only left Irvin, Yiying and I.

The time with combined CG with S23 who multiplied like half a year ago.

The time I struggled through to find myself and how my CG people supported me without me knowing.

The time when I rised back to CG ministry again and Cliff showed me the CMS system of the members' details for the first time. I was sharing with him my final decision to quit Children Church and focus on CG ministry and he revealed to me that since the beginning, he never take me off the list of CG ministry and he already put me there from the start.

I remembered all the time our CG grew to 40 over people and dropped some but now I glad caused we got a strong bunch of people with us. On fire, and got a bright future ahead. I am so proud of your guys especially those who will be with on my side. I can't reveal which CGL will I be under until today is over so that all I can say.

And I so happy that I grow up in this family. The day we separated will also be the week that I am 3 years old in church. I came in 21st Aug 2004 but I was integrated in the month of September and I was baptised in September. When I looked back at all those photo, my heart swelled at the wonderful memories...



This is Irvin's creation. The unbeatable tower! Haha...



Irvin with his tower!



Ar!!! What are they doing? =X Haha... If you got a "YY" mind, you will think they gonna kiss... =X Nah... Pearly just helping Irvin to put concealer. He was shy to let us see so he covered his face. Then I said I wanna take picture so they do this special shot for us. Haha...



Jolene and I again... We always took photos together. Haha...



Who is he??? No no... He is not from N266. Quite opposite, he is from N337. Cedric was having his drama practise with Cindy and Brendan and he saw us so asked us to take care of him for a moment and we gladly accept it. We had fun playing game and chit-chatting about revelation and the works of God in our life. In fact, I didn't plan to take his picture but I was taking the picture for the bear and he sat there at that moment. Haha...



Wow... Yesterday went Vivo City with the remaining CG members, they think of watching Harry Potter which I glad in the end they didn't cause I watch it already! =X But then, we got so much fun time together, we saw this ultimate lolipop. So big!





Who is this little lady? Well, just an invader! Haha... She invaded our land, played with Pearly's drink but taking out her straw when she so happened to be away. Haha... The father stepped in to carry her away and that the end of the tiny little invasion.



The father and daughter! Haha... Yan Sin looked like Cliff and we always said, they were the father and daughter...











WOW!!! We took pictures with the Simpson's family! Haha... The four of us, Wee Liang, Reid, Qiu Yu and I were on a hunt for movie then we spotted the Simpson's family and had a crazy photo session with them! Haha...





Wow... This was secretly taken at Minitoon. =P Haha... Anyway, I was telling Reid that he looked like Slyvestian. Haha... And the Bug Bunny is so cute. Reminded me of my juniors who always called me Bug Bunny in my secondary school years. Haha...



And this green turtle is so cute. Haha... I better continued to pester Wei Liang to get the CG to get me this for my next birthday since he said my next birthday get my soft toy. =P I not really a soft toy that of person but it was cute and irresistable. Haha...



And lastly, we ended the fellowship by went back to the Simpson's family to take a CG photo with them. Haha... We are the coolest bunch of people around!


Love you N266. We laugh together, have fun together, fight together and we finally going toward our 1st multiplication.

Let grow once again and multiply again next year! Fighting!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:14 AM

Friday the 13th, Curse or Blessing?

Though I came a bit late to say about this but is friday the 13th really a doom day? Is it really a black friday as many had called it?

The day before, went to watch Harry Potter Movie 5 with Su Ee, En Jie, Zheng Xuan and Jian Yong. Won't say it was a nice movie since they can do much better. The graphics and characters were nice but the movie were draggy. At first should has more people but Zi Yun and the rest don't wanna watch and at the end, only left the 5 of us.

The movie ended at 11 plus, caught the mrt with En Jie and slept at 2am as I rushed out the BS template for CG which I prouded to announce that we will be officially multiply in the first week of Aug and officially separate in the first week of sept. The plan had already out and I am so excited over it!

So I was rushing out the admin stuffs so that when we officially separate, I can hand over a clean piece of works.

So ended up with not enough sleep and got to wake up at 6 plus for my make up practical. I don't know the it was the so called friday the 13th which was also known as the black friday and I woke up early but tired physically and leave home. But something very upset happened, I missed both the lrt and mrt train and ended got to wait 10 more min than usual to reach school area. I was so rushed and I kept on asking God to help me and to ensure I was not totally upset by this which in fact, I was cursing the devils at the back of my mind...

Then my practical lesson was separated into 2 different hours due to my lectures and work. The 1st hour was fine, going through theory so I can sit around until the 1st hour ended and rushed for my lectures. Went to the lectures, enjoying the topic on family and about the different kinds of love relationships then I went back to attend the 2nd hour for practical. Different class and they were having practise. I stood down there, with blank face and I was lost. I don't know anyone and I was alone. Like what my lecturer often said in lecture, when you know nobody in a group, you will feel weird and awkward and that was my feeling at that time. I kept on praying for time to move faster so that I can go for work.

But I looked back the friday the 13th as during the lecture on family, my lecturer talked about the various reading that she read and she said that in fact, in the jewish numbers, 13 is the best number of all and it symbolised good thing and I was amazed as she said the american said that it was bad luck to have friday the 13th but the jews said it was the best of the best and during that moment, it hit me hard in the spirit...

The devil will always tried to twist the goodness of God and make us things that it was bad so that we will miss out on the blessing of God.

I was shocked and I told myself that I won't be so easily fool by the devils.

And the rest of the day went by better and better.

I went to the office, sat beside Eric and he passed me various snacks. He didn't often do that and as much as I was a task orientated person that don't like to talk when working but I just talked with him in between working time.

And the time flies and it was the youth revival meeting and just as I had thought, the move of the Holy Spirit was so strong. I didn't cry but a burst of laughters came upon me. I was lying on the floor and even as I wake up and stood up, my legs were wobby and I fall to the ground once again. Time after time, the spirit of the Lord can't be denied. Really, I can't help but wish the meeting was longer.

God, how can I ever thanks You for this wonderful time.

Friday the 13th was definitely not a bad day for me, in fact, it was a lot better than what I had expected.

Let me come deeper with You!

Love...

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:00 AM

Memories of SOZO
Thursday, July 12, 2007

Sorry everyone! For making you guys read my long entries. Are you bored by it?

I finally uploaded the SOZO Experience Camp photo. When I looked at it, I can't help it but laughed. I can't imagine I suggested this to Guang Xiang and Venus and made them the laughing stock to entertain the people there when it gonna rain and all our morning games time were gone.











I really love the SOZO camp. It was fun, and memorial.

It was my first time organising a camp with the committee people and really, I love you guys. We had fun enjoying our night eating away, playing night game, being crappy in the morning, and dancing techno with my good old brother, Guang Xiang.

Let all jia you to grow the zone together and never let this experience fade from us.

For we are called to be WHOLESOME!

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:58 AM

For A Time Like This
Wednesday, July 11, 2007

At first I never understand why I was placed in the place that I am in now.

But a chat with Pearly and a nice tea time with God make me realised that it is really for a time like this that Cliff decided it is for me.

Cliff said to Pearly and I that it is for such a time that we are at where we are.

Lord, thanks for showing me all that I need to know.

For such a time like this that my character is being mould even further.

Iron sharpens iron.

Man sharpens man.

I am ready to go all the way.

It is for such a time like this that I am called.

No turning back.

No looking back.

I am who I am.

And I am ready for all that is for me!

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:34 PM

Sabbath Month!

Wow, this month is really a month of Sabbath.

Been out for chill out, movie marathon and resting at home due to MC and etc and etc.

And thanks God, I can sense myself feeling better.

Been to a GP today and after a check up and long consultant session, he decided to postponed my visit to old friend, hospital. He said to take the medication he gave first then 2 weeks later he will decide do I need to go to NUH for appointment. Quite scary through... I saw people going through different diagnosis tests and now, if this sickness don't get any better, I will just invite the scope to visit my poor stomach. =X

But put aside the scary part, thanks God I can still rest.

Going back school tomorrow and tomorrow will mark the day of Harry Potter's Movie 5 opening! So coincidence, En Jie also wanna to watch and thus we decided to gather some zone people to go watch together. And he managed to find 2 more at this moment. More to be confirm. I am so excited for the movie. Can you imagine? Harry Potter was the first novel that I ever read and I stopped at book 4 caused all the other books are so thick that it will took me forever to finish it. Watching movie seems to be a fast way out compared to the book.

And to think, after this moment, I will be super busy with ministry, preparing for multiplication, SOT, etc and etc.

Then after this present multiplication, still got to work toward another one which is targeted at the 1st half of 2008.

I must get ready for it.

Been handle with admin works and I glad to be part of it. And this week gonna have a meeting with Gabriel. So pack, but I am enjoying what is to come.

Sabbath month will be over soon and all the Sabbath days that I never took will be make up for.

Lord, push me forward further!

Let me work harder for You!

All the way!

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:20 PM

Consecration

It is the time Lord.

To make a vow and to live it out.

A vow to consecrate my life and to walk out of my past and habit.

And to live my life a 100% for You.

It is not enough Lord to just want to do it but it is to live it out.

I am still pondering.

Yet today, out of determination, I walked out of it.

I consecrating my life Lord.

To devote my life to You.

Put Your kingdom above every other things.

To follow You.

To walk with You.

I might be imperfect.

I might be weak.

Yet by the blood of Jesus.

I am cleanse and sanctify.

Take me Lord...

Deeper into You.

Consecrate me Lord.

To prepare me for what is to come.

I open up my arms to accept Your embrace and take me into Your arms forever and ever.

Loving You always!

Your child.

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:10 PM

Prayer!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Once again, the physical pain wanna come to overtake me.

Causing me to lose my temper which ended up with me telling my mum about the pain and ended up? My mum said better go get referred letter from GP tomorrow to go hospital to see doctor on thurs and why that day? Caused my mum has her offday from work. Good and bad. One thing is I can have a thorough check up, another thing is I hate hospital and I don't want to get admitted just for investigation. I will faint just by looking at them using those needles. As a trainee nurse, it is okay since it was my job but as patient? Big no no...

I really need all the prayers that I can get and also, with new arrangement, I need to be healthier to take care of my sheeps. Got so much more to do, admin, bible study, etc and etc. I finding my passion back and I going all the ways.

No way this is going to beat me down!

I going further, I going deeper.

Just so you wait devils! I make sure all hell broke loose because of what I declare!

I am a victor and an overcomer. What more I can't achieve?

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:20 PM

Transforming in Progress

Transforming in progress!

Going back to mature clothing in a few months time. 7 more months to go before I ended my so called teenagers years and entered into young adulthood.

Like my psychology teacher said...

Wanna being young then do it before turning 20 and that what I had been doing.

Now is the mid year of 2007.

And still got 10 months to go before SOT.

So excited!

And that will mark the end of compulsory schooling years.

The rest will be up to me.

I wanna go further!

I wanna run faster!

I know that my life will take a major turn once I enter into SOT yet that is what I want!

I wanna to see my calling clearer and to reach forward to what I had been called into.

Now is the time, I can wait no more.

Yet this is also a time of sanctification.

Transforming in progress and my Creator will be the One to transform me inside out.

So exciting, so happy!

Love You God.

Love you people.

It is time to off the light and take a rest!

Take care everyone! =]

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:50 AM

A New Beginning...
Monday, July 9, 2007

A new beginning is always good.

A new start ahead is always nice.

So much on my mind now.

How to move forward and how to change to be better.

Well, I won't give up until I see result.

Bringing myself back on track with God.

Building my spiritual tenacity once again!

I am a warrior in the Kingdom of God.

And I gonna fight for Him.

Without sacrifice, there can never be victory.

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:55 AM

Transformers!

Wow, I can't believe I got strength to stay awake all the way, from service to the movie outing.

Thanks God I managed to awake at 7am to get ready and ran out of the house at 7.45am. Then after service, we went to fellowship at Malan Noodles. I must say, it was the best fellowship thus far as after we finished eating, we went to Coffee Bean and sat at a corner. We shared about what we learned and also what impacted us the most and wow... We learned a lot from one another. Then Irvin and the rest of us got this big desire to take photo so we took some crazy shots at Coffee Bean. Then we saw Cedric Kang with one of his member, Karnex. And as he needed to go for his drama practice so he asked Karnex to join us for the moment before they went for their CG dinner. So with a new addition to our fellowship, we started to play games and then we talked about how God transformed our life. I was so amazed by all the things that I heard from my fellow members and also Karnex. Well, it was a good time, wasn't it?

And finally! After a week of chasing after TRANSFORMERS, we finally got to watch it. Cliff, Reid, Irene and I went to Plaza Singapore to watch the 9.10pm show. At first, Wee Liang and Joene supposed to join us but because the show time is later, we got to chase them home and amazingly, we found out that Wee Liang watched it before... Our eyes went o.o and we all asking him how come he wanna watch again??? Hahaha... But nonetheless, the 4 of us went to watch it and got to say, IT WAS A GOOD MOVIE! And my next target shall be HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX!

I love the graphics, love the good transformers especially Bumper Bee, love the story plot and the excitement. Die Hard 4.0 was not bad but Transformers was even better.

And after the show, we discovered that Irene and I got to take cab home as our train had departed so leaving Cliff and Reid, we went in search of a cab and all we got to say is... We better go and learn driving someday and owe our own car, if not, at least someone got to have car. But nonetheless, we were at home safely and it is time for me to catch some sleep.

Physically sleepy now... Good bye to whoever that read this entry!

Take care and good night!!! =]

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:24 AM

Reflection

After the meet up with Cliff and Pearly, it really confirmed what I had been thinking about though it was beyond what was on my mind.

We shared, we listened and we talked. It was wonderful and God, how much had I missed over the past 6 months due to the wrong decision I made that ultimately lead me to become stagnant.

Yet God is great!

For the past week, God has been coming so close to me, telling me, renewing me, talking to me.

It was hard to let go at first but after today, I finally decided to let go. It was really hard but I know, to walk further with God, I got to be wiser with the decision that I make and the things that I do even if it hurt my heart to let go and to do things beyond my imagination.

The past few months, I had been struggling to find myself and to let go what had happened during this period and ultimately, it came to me that God is the only One that I should ultimately turn to. The One who is my Strength, my Friend and my Comforter.

I think a lot and only until today, as I saw what I didn't expect which caused me to receive answers to all my situations and really, God is a solution provider.

And as I took the cab back home with Hui Jun and Ethan, I was really impacted when Hui Jun said sometime, it is good to talk my feeling out and just to share.

Maybe I will do so now...

I had reflected a lot and I wanna said to those dear friends of mine who stayed with me for the past few months through rain and sunshine, that your guys are really the best friends to have in my life. We might face various trials and tribulations yet your guys stayed there to exalt one another.

Your guys see through my period of weirdness, quietness, "emo", "down" moments and etc and etc yet through words of encouragement, I really grow and finally once again moving strongly forward.

I was talking to Pearly about being "emo" and she said something funny that when I was "emo", I will be really focus forward, leaving everyone behind and being in my own world and it got me to think... Really, I am not those kind of person that love to put on a black face or whine when they are unhappy. Even when I am unhappy, I will be emotionless but not a total black face and I love to leave others behind and move forward. And I told her that it can be good or bad as if it is on the positive side, I can have the drive to accomplish what I wanna to do but if it is the negative side, I can just leave people behind. That was me...

But I wanna move forward...

Forward with God.

The path to leadership is so close to me.

I really wanna to be in the path of leadership next year during or after my SOT.

And I feel that now is the time to build my life strong.

Let move ahead and let run the race!

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:37 AM

Understanding...
Sunday, July 8, 2007

Sometime in life, many things I never can understand.

People, difficult circumstances, etc and etc...

And many of the times, I tried to understand.

Understand why things happened the way it is...

But I never found an answer and as time passes by, I giving up on trying to understand.

But I really need understanding.

Sometimes, I prefers to be alone not because I want to be totally anti-social, but I need to understand, understand the world, understand people and most of all, understand myself.

I realised... I am not that people-independant as I think I am. I desire friends like everyone, I desire to have friends that share with me, laugh with me and cry with me, to do things together and to have fun together yet sometime, it is so hard when things crashes down and you just need a break from people.

I think it is time for me to slow down my pace and regain my strength.

I need to understand the world and most of all, I found that I should understand myself.

Lord, give me strength to strengthen me.

I need to be stronger in You.

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:42 AM

Chill Out...

Today was quite an amazing yet tiring day for me.

CG early in the morning with a strong move of the Holy Spirit.

Facing some nasty incident in the afternoon that stirred up fire within me.

Spent 1 and a half hour after service to think it through with a plate of carrot cake and longan ice.

And finally we went to celebrate M&M day with Mandy and Martin at the Hong Kong Cafe at Marine Square.

Martin and Kenneth were forced to take mrt as the car need to pack in 7 girls and Mike's car is just a normal 5 seaters car. Amazing how we escaped a life and death incident. During the journey, Mandy and I were having fun teasing one another then Mike suddenly brake. We thought our lives will be gone. Mandy and I were sitting on the lap of Zi Yun and Claire and when Mike braked, both of us nearly flied to the front and we screamed in the car. Mandy and I keept saying that 8 lives were in his hands and thousands upon thousands (don't know how many zero of lives) will be gone because one person impacted 1000 lives, 2 persons impacted 10000 lives then 8 people? 8 zeros behind. o.o

But we reached the cafe safe and sound and really enjoyed ourselves there. We were chatting about our childhood when we bullied people or got bullied by people, then we talked about Mandy and Martin's future wedding and house design. We were still thinking how to prank the guys' side during the wedding day. Need creativity in this area! Still got 2 years plus for us to think.

Then Martin was kept on pursuiting Kenneth to go get a car license so that next time we go out, there will be 3 cars to bring all the sisters on. Now Mike got a car but not enough. Martin is getting his car next year but still not enough. We need a brother to bring the north side sister home and it left Kenneth!

Next week, we all planning to ask Mike to go rent a lorry as we are planning to celebrate his birthday and more people are expected to turn up. So that mean to take his car is out of question.

Brothers! Go get license PLEASE! For the sake of having the ability to serve the sisters better! Hahaha... And what more? Mandy was kept on asking us should man go after the woman they like or the woman go after the man they like as she and Martin had some disagreement there. But too bad, we supported the logic that man should go after the woman and initiate the 1st step.

Nice chill out, got my mind out of my "emo" period and stopped me from thinking some more about what to do next. Well, will write about my revelation soon! =]

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:44 AM

Attached! To??? God!
Saturday, July 7, 2007

Today, I was so tired physically.

I was thinking of taking a leave from today lectures yet I thanked God for stopping me. I learned so much from the 2 lectures that I attended, one on family function and another one on attraction and liking and it came to me that liking really only developed in a knitted environment, even the world said so and I learned so much about the world's perspective and reasons why people liked one another and how come they jumped from one relationship to another. There is so much more I can learn and it only build up my interest for psychology and sociology. Maybe I should go into this area in future? To aid me in my ministry.

And I went to work as usual on the friday afternoon. Everything the same except that someone new came to the office so my desk was occupied but nonetheless, I was settled at Benedict's desk which after he left, had became very empty and the chair was comforted, like the one that boss is using now. Well, I might not have my old desk but I got myself a pretty nice one here. Glory to glory. That the benefit for staying on and work. I don't mind working there all the way after my SOT before I consider change to a more permanent job like a counsel or social worker? Or even full-time ministry if I has the capacity. Well, that has to wait till SOT, whereby I shall see my calling in a clearer way.

Attending Yan Sin's SYF night. Won't say the whole night was wonderful although the band, guitar club and modal dance was quite amazing. And during the whole event, Cliff got this thought of watching "Transformer" but it seemed like we were not meant to watch it. The whole event ended late and we were not able to catch the movie so in the end, we stayed on and watched "Die Hard 4". To say the sad truth, the only few action movies that I will ever considered will be by Li Lian Jie or Jackie Chan but even other action movies. I would rather watch Harry Potter, Spiderman, romantic american movie than an action movie but... "Die Hard 4" was REALLY GOOD!!!

My heart was pumping all the way. It was really a super action movie. From the fight with the bad guys to the main character's daughter and the hacker developing liking... It was a fantastic movie. We were all laughing at the last part whereby the daughter asked the dad whether the hacker got talked about her. It was so funny and sweet. Really, a knitted environment do cause people to form liking or hatred. Irene was telling me that the knitted environment was full of bad guys too but I told her, because there were bad guys thus they were forced to talk to one another.

We finished the movie at 12am. And we all took cab home.

Tired physically nonetheless but spiritually I am alive!

God, thanks for the strength!

Love You always!

And guys...

I proud to announce that...

I AM ATTACHED TO GOD!

Don't get heart attack. In the bible, God called us His bride, man and woman alike.

So guys... You see it correct... You are also the bride of God.

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:44 AM

For You Alone
Friday, July 6, 2007

For You alone, I take down my mask.

For You alone, I cried and give You my heart.

Many of the times, I forget that You are there beside me.

Holding me, loving me and carrying me.

You walked through the desert with me.

You walked through the valley with me.

You gone up the mountain with me.

And you walked through the river with me.

Many of the times, I neglected Your presence.

I ignored Your voices.

But today, I come back to You.

Giving You my heart, my soul and my body.

Sanctify and cleanse by the blood of Jesus.

I placed myself at Your altar.

And I devoted my life to You.

Take me Lord, to where You want me to be.

I believing in God and what is to come.

For You and You alone I live.

For You and You alone I love.

Just plainly for You...

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Remembering the LORD @ 8:46 AM

Friendships

Tonight, one thing that lingered in my mind before I going to sleep is about having friendships without agenda, for girls and guys.

Many of the times, I rejected having close friends beside Li Ru was the very same reason of agenda.

In msn, people always forgetting the process of making friends and always seek to take from others but often asking them to send songs. With the people around us? They often formed friendships with agenda of wanting to get this and that and etc...

But recently, God had given me friendships without agenda and I truly see this after such a long time.

Even as Cliff preached, the meaning of friendship came hard on me.

Even if I am just a simple me, without anything but just a heart of passion, will anyone still be my friends and accept me?

Even when I am nothing, just a girl from next door, with nothing to often but just her friendship, will you still spend time with me?

And it came to me that I do has friends that can do this and how everything started was when we have no agenda with one another but we just enjoyed the fellowship and we shared about our life and all. Girls and guys alike and as God revealed me the aspects of friendships regardless whether it was just begun from msn or from meeting up, this is the kind of friendships that I should build.

I now willing to mix around and get to know more people and to hit down the walls of agenda. Everything in life started with a pure intention of being friends and will you still being my friends knowing I got my own flaws and weaknesses?

It is all about a friendship with no agenda...

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:11 AM

祷告

Cliff played this song through his mp3 during CG today.

I was so touched by it. It reminded me of all those times when I was in my darkest pit moment and how God came to me.

It was by Stream of Praise (赞美之泉).

祷告 因为我渺小
祷告 因为我知道我需要
明瞭 你心意对我重要

祷告 已假装不了
祷告 因为你的爱我需要
你关怀 我走过的你都明白

有些事我只想要对你说
因你比任何人都爱我
痛苦从眼中流下
我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说
主耶稣今天我为你活
所需要的力量你天天赐给我
你恩典够我用


It really is about going back to God through prayer and crying out to Him.

I wanted so much more but I know, this is all I need to do for now. To rebuild my life.

How I need to seek Your face...

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:41 AM

Restart, Renew, Reflesh

I can't express how I really feel now.

But one thing to summarise all, I was restart, renew and reflesh by God.

Had been confused, bothered and escaping from what I supposed to decide over my life yet today I seem to receive my answer.

It seemed like I had been doubting my calling and purpose and was escaping from it.

But today, I once again reviewed my life with Jesus and really, I got so much more to improve and walked on.

Really impacted by the message about the 2 kinds of relationships in this world.

The 1st one is with people and the 2nd one is with God.

And I was so impacted by the sharing of it. It reminded me of my own parents, how I so often neglected the kindness and love they showed toward me. They always silently bearing all the pains of raising us up and all the times, due to the lack of times spending together unlike when I was the only child and my father was often at home during the weekend, we seldom spend times together anymore. I often neglected connecting with my sister while she is always behind me waiting for me to talk to her. I often found it irritating to communicate but as day after day of knowing God and His love, I starting to be more open up toward my own parents and Lord, today is just the day for me to once again review this area and improve it.

And then I went back to think about my friendship with various people, girls and guys. Many of the times, I was running away from making friends with people and over the years, this had left me bit by bit but in the area of opposite gender, I will always not be able to form a closer friendship with most people. Yet God is helping me, this I know. And today, I just feel a refleshing of God came upon me to tell me that I should really start anew in this area. They are all my friends, if I can make friends with someone, I can make friends with all people.

And when I reviewed my relationship with God, I found that I had missed out so much over the past few months. After moving in the wrong direction for sometime, the moment I came back, it seemed that the voice of God wasn't as clear as in the past and I was blinded. But today, as I cried out for Him once again, I felt His presence walking toward me and He kneed with me and said, "I will always be with you, forever and ever."

And the next thing I knew... He was standing in front of me, holding out His hands and called me to follow me. And like the few divine encounters I had with Him, He brought me to the cross and asked me the very same question that He asked when He gave me the vision of missions, "Are you willing to follow Me and bear the cross? Put down your worries and follow Me as you promised before."

I bowed my head, kneeing in front of Him and once again, I committed my life back to Him.

And God said, this is just a new beginning...

Restart, Renew, Reflesh

Lord, now I know why I got to wait and wait and wait, for You are bring me higher to prepare me for my calling and to santify me.

I promise to be obedient and listen to Your voice.

With all my heart...

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:26 AM

Realistic Romance Scale
Thursday, July 5, 2007

Romanticism test taken from Romance Scale. I found this when I was reading Cafe David's blog. Haha...

Romanticism Assessment for Evangeline
Your Score is 61 Percent

You appear to have a well-balanced romantic self. While you may get flutters in your stomach when you meet someone you are very attracted to, you do not let your romantic-self entirely dictate how you proceed. You will ask yourself if there is a chance this relationship will work before allowing yourself to fall in love. Even if you feel a romantic connection is viable from a practical sense, you will not just allow yourself to be swept away.

You do not have many illusions about love. While you may feel a very deep attachment to someone, you know love rarely conquers all. You know successful relationships take work and compromise and a desire by those involved to make their relationship work. Candlelight dinners and words of endless love may be nice, but they don't pay the bills or get the dishes washed.

The middle ground on the romanticism scale is neither entirely safe nor entirely lackluster. However it does not carry the weight of a romantic failure based upon being swooped off your feet. Nor is the middle ground so devoid of romanticism that you feel like you are living with a sibling. Also, there is quite a bit of evidence that with your outlook on romanticism your relationship has a very good chance of succeeding.

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:20 PM

Living a Fruitful Life with the Right Thinking

Extract from Cafe David.

When our thinking changes,
our life changes!

Wrong thinking
will lead to a purposeless life.

Right thinking
will lead to a fruitful life.

When all the pieces of the past fall into place,
you live with a sense of destiny.
When the path of the future becomes clear,
you live each day with passion!


Love God! Love People! Engage Culture!

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:34 PM

Devotion to You, God

Wow, I finally found a ring for myself.

Too bad, didn't manage to find an encraved ring.

But then, it doesn't matter for it is nice.

In the word of God it always said, ring is a symbol for authority and also devotion. And ever since the last ring that I received from CG, I had been waiting to replace it since the previous ring has discoloured.

God, this as a symbol to You.

To remind myself of Your love and as a devotion toward You.

Love!

Nothing compared to the agape love. <3

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:21 PM

Turtle that flied from sky!

Yesterday had a fun conference with Cliff and the rest of the helpers.

Thanks God for placing such a funny and wonderful leader over us.

And who knows, at the end of our conversation, from a prayer conference, it turned into a funny chit-chat!

I shared about having eye problem in my right eye then Cliff said something funny... "It might due to your blogging symptom." Then I went =.=" and I said, "my whole family got eye problem, lazy eyes, whatever minor eye problem I can think of, my family had it." then Cliff said, "too hardworking already." and this is referring to my capacity to work infront of the computer for a straight 8 hours and all I can said was, "I won't be that hardworking. =P" Then everyone laughed.

And then Cliff saw a newspaper article. He read the title to us and it said, "Turtle dropped from sky and hit on a driver."

He continue saying that people suspected it was an air-borne turtle as in US, there isn't flat then he continued, saying that it was a sea gull that captured a turtle to planning to eat it but because it was too heavy thus halfway through the journey, the sea gull dropped the turtle and it hitted on a driver who didn't put the root of the car up. Cliff said it should be a serious hit through the driver survived.

Then he asked us for the moral of the story...

And the moral of the story is, "never pick up something that don't belong to you. Even if you pick it up, pick it at the right time."

Greed get us no way. Haha...

Then Cliff further continued to share with us another funny article about an air plane door opened and a air stewardess got suck out but someone managed to catch her and hold on to her all the way until the plane landed. Thanks God the plan just take off thus it was easy for it to turn back and landed or else, it will surely crashed.

And Cliff asked us about the moral of the story...

And the moral of the story is, "know which door you should open. Close all the unnecessary doors. Even if wanna to open a door, open it at the right time!"

We were all laughing. Well, glad to call into the conference. =P

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:15 PM

Understanding, That What I need
Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Sometime, parents really know us better than we know ourselves.

Sometime, parents really know what kind of gift we deserved to have.

To cut things short, our parents know us better than ourselves.

I never know how much my mum know me until I came to Christ and many of the times, when I am down, I am frustrated, my mum will know to leave me cool down and thought it through then I will talk to her and apologise for losing my temper.

And many of the times, instead of getting upset with me like she always did in the past, she will talk to me and share with me about various things that make me upset and it calmed me down.

I thanks God to give me a heart to feel as when I do something wrong, I am able to know that I am wrong. And I thanks God greatly for it that I never walked out on my mum like I used to do it in the past. I thanks God for the courage to reconcile whenever there is a conflict.

Lord, help me with this area.

Teach me how to be stronger in You.

And in Jesus' name I asked of You.

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:20 PM

Spiritual Friendship

Spiritual friendship, that what I need.

It is a friendship that is broken by none but helps us as we grow in the Lord.

A friendship that is placed together by the Lord, to share, to exalt, to solve problem, to talk about the goodness of God and to be there for one another in times of needs.

That is what it is like for my self-adopted brother, Guang Xiang and I.

Had a nice long chat over the msn last night and I glad he liked that book I brought him. I was so sad when I couldn't get the book by Pastor Phil, Cliff even helped me to find it from Attributes by it was out of stock yet God is good, even when we can't get what we want, He gave us something else that is as good to build us up.

I glad to know my this little brother. Who though faced his own issues in life yet persist on. Learned so much just from that simple msn conversation. One of the rare friends who just chatted with me over spiritual things and not just come to get music etc and etc. I felt so renewed after that. Thanks God for this encounter.

Spiritual friendship is hard to find yet once you find it, it will help you to grow.

It is a friendship that build on Christ that exalt one another, love one another and pray for one another. I glad God has placed various people in my life to guide me and help me.

I will post moreb about this... For yesterday I really learned a lot. More than I could even imagine and Guang Xiang even said he might make a award for this blog. Haha...

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:07 PM

Keeping Emotions in Check...
Tuesday, July 3, 2007

I just to have a better control over emotions.

I just to feel the ways my God want me to feel.

How badly I am at this area.

Lord, tell me what to do?

Tell me how to get rid of this weakness?

I wanna to be stronger.

Stronger in You.

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:08 PM

Honorous Reply!

This is a wonderful entry devoted to the Chairman of Bao Shan Pte Ltd.

Thanks the wonderful Chairman of Bao Shan Pte Ltd, Mr. Tan Guang Xiang, David.

How grateful I am for the sms encouragement and the vote for being your No. 1 favourite blog.

Though your "twin" brother, Bao Hai is not around but then with a Bao Shan, I know I have your support.

Thanks for the wonderful encouragement!

Let us go go go for our dreams and reach out to our calling together as the wonderful warriors of the GTZ family.

FIGHTING!

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Remembering the LORD @ 3:41 PM

Renewing... Receiving...

Yesterday was a renewing night with the Holy Ghost.

Dorcus' place was filled with the youth leaders and youth helpers of GTZ.

It turned out, not all leaders and helpers could make it for this meeting yet there was still an overwhelming response of crowd.

It was sort of stuffy at Dorcus' place, yet at the same time, the presence was nice and wonderful.

But one amazing thing was, instead of starting the meeting with the normal praise then worship, we went straight into worship. We sung for 1 hour plus, dwelling in the presence of our God, tears streamed down the eyes of the people and a deeper hunger grew within us. One level after another. From the outer court to the Holy of Holies, it was yet another encounter to be remember.

Cliff shared a word with us about fighting with a vision and passion. To be serious with discipleship and to multiply the people. He went further into the heart of the people and he shared about BGR too.

He said that if we wanna get into BGR just because of companionship, we might as well remained as friends as being friends also consisted as companionship, but relationship is different. It represented the decision of 2 persons who wanna to be together and eventually get married. It is about fulfilling dreams and vision and not only about feeling and emotions. And one thing he also said, we got to identify the season for us to get attached. If got to wait, mean got to wait. Accountability is also important, in relationship and other areas of life. Accountability keep us protected, keep us safe from the attack of the devils. Once we stopped accounting our life to our leaders, we lose the protection over our life.

The leaders prayed for us and there was a tremendous move of the Holy Spirit. Angela prayed for me and one thing she said remain in my heart, "like a tree planted by the river." And it hitted into my spirit that I might have period when I feel extremely dried up by I am a tree that is planted by the river of living water, whenever I am dried up, Holy Spirit will come and feed me with His living water so that I won't be dried up.

The whole thing ended with a mass prayer for the helpers yet the rest of the night was just a beginning.

We stayed behind for 1 more hour, talking to leaders. Followed by a guitaring session with Jian Feng as the guitarist and Reid as the music stand and the super funny part was though Jian Feng sung the worship song but it was as though he was singing to Reid. Haha... But it was a good time.

We parted our ways and sent out Reid and Wei Li to escort Isabel and Hui Zhen home while the rest of us rushed back home to complete CMS and admin stuffs.

It was a long night but as we leave, the presence of God was still with us.

And I know, from this day on, our life is never same again because...

My God is always with us!

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Remembering the LORD @ 3:33 PM

Transformation in Process...
Monday, July 2, 2007

Today was reading one of the little black book series that I brought.

It was such a impactful book though every topic was short but each words carried a deeper spiritual meaning.

It make me see the side of me that I must change, a side of me that I must improve and various areas of my life that I should commit to God.

Well, it is just a transformation in progress.

I want to be spiritually stronger, emotionally stable, physical fit.

Gonna start to really go back to where I had stopped with God to pick up what I left off.

Teachability come with a decision.
Transformation come with an effort.
Actions speak louder than words.

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:05 AM

Happy Birthday!

Wanna dedicate this entry to be very beloved brother, Edmund!

Hey brother, if you see this, just wanna wish you a happy 22nd birthday!!!

Nice knowing you through Gabriel's bible study, Cliff's workplace and I will always remember the fun time we had chatting in Cliff's office at the corner and most solitude place with Cliff and Brian.

Though we don't have the BS like how we used to have it at Gabriel's place but then chatting on msn can be fun huh? Always seem to get bully by me as I asked you various various things.

You are one of the nicest buddies I had!

See you around and hope that book really blessed you!

Cheers!

Agape, Evangeline!

P.S.: Still so sorry for not reading the book you get for me for my birthday. Next year you don't get book for me? Then you will reap other things next year too. =P

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:59 AM

Memories

I finally found the team photo that the committees took for the SOZO camp. Found it on Kenneth's blog. Still got a few more left but this was good considered that most of us never got any sleep.



Expecting more to come in the month of dec.

So many things are coming up and I am excited.

Let run with the vision corporately.

Let fight for the kingdom corporately.

This is a family and we need to know how to protect one another.

I learn it my ways and we shall continue learn it.

Let jia you!

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Remembering the LORD @ 7:49 AM

Thanks!

Thanks everyone that keep me in prayer!

I am now feeling better, spiritually alive, physical pain gone and emotionally stable. Haha...

So happy now!

Thanks to anyone that pray for me!

For I know God never leave me alone! =]

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:14 AM

Keep Me in Prayer...
Sunday, July 1, 2007

I really feeling sick at this moment. One moment you are well and another moment you are sick. It seemed that the loss of appetite for this few days had finally caught up with me.

Feeling the urge to vomit and can't really have any food.

Only able to take a meal each day and can only take drink.

This had been going on for one week.

Friends, do keep me in prayer.

Being sick is part of a spiritual warfare and being sick caused me to be ineffective in ministry.

Has been coughing badly and your prayer will be greatly appreciate.

A desire to be heal, a desire to be well.
A warfare to be won, a victory to be received.
You never know what a prayer can do, until you pray for not only yourself but others.

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:45 PM

The Joke of Woman and Man

Lame, the lamer joke I ever heard. Dr Peter Wagner was amazing. Really humorous and really, the joke he shared was so true.

A language teacher was explaining to her class that in French, nouns unlike their English counterparts, are grammatically designated as masculine or feminine.
"House" in French, is feminine -"la maison," "Pencil" in French, is masculine "le crayon."

One puzzled student asked, "What gender is computer?" The teacher did not know, and the word was not in her French dictionary.

So for fun she split the class into two groups appropriately enough, by gender and asked them to decide whether "computer" should be a masculine or a feminine noun.

Both groups were required to give four reasons for their recommendation.

The men's group decided that computer should definitely be of the feminine gender ("la computer"), because

No 1, no one but their creator understands their internal logic. No 2, the native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else. No 3, even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later review. No 4, as soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheque on accessories for it.

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be masculine "le computer") because:

No 1, in order to get their attention, you have to turn them on. No 2, they have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves. No 3, they are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they ARE the problem. No 4, as soon as you commit to one, you realise that if you had waited a little longer you could have gotten a better model.

The women of course win the round!

It was so true for both the men and women's side. As a technological person, computer is just like my 2nd "darling" after God. And half the time, my computer gave me headache rather than solution. And one year after this computer, I found there are better ones outside. Apple brand, window vista... You named it, there you have it. But then, this darling computer had been following me for 2 years plus already. Got problems at times but not major ones. Run a bit slower for a 2.16 GHz ram but then it is better than any outside computer. It was one that I designed for my personal use. I will miss you greatly if I get a laptop.


Maybe like Chee Kiong said, a laptop will be useful for SOT to keep us awake and to do assignment but then, if can don't get it also good.

He said better to save up just for the fees and external uses like transport and food.

Hearing from a SOT student is good. Need to plan, plan and plan...

Lappy, maybe I will leave you alone for this moment and just love my current "darling" better. Now, I looking out for a better handphone. The one that Cindy used look good but I saw something better. Well, after I settle my SOT fees, get myself a camera follow by an iPod. But Gwyn said not good to listen to music for like 2 hours everyday, bad for ears but iPod looked tempting and good.

Well, I now looking for a better model isn't I? Who asked me to be more concern over devices than people. Can hear Cindy telling me about I am more interested in her handphone than her. =P

But then, I must also start planning for the DEC Attributes clearance sale! Gonna rebuild my spiritual life to make it on a strong foundation and to draw closer to my spiritual "daddy" which is Cliff!

I got so much things to plan for. Little time but the enjoyable is there. Keep me awake Lord, heal my body Lord, and to keep me focus with You!

Love YOU!

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Remembering the LORD @ 9:15 PM

Reseeking You Lord...

Jesus, Jesus.

I had let my mind overtake me. The loss of focus. The loss of first love.

Many of the times, I let the words of people get to me. I let the rumors I had heard get to me. Rumors of various people, various incidents and the seeking for the facts was so strong yet it was not what You want me to do.

Lord God, sometime I was still amazed how can You placed people in my life to speak to me and to lift up the burden from my heart. And maybe sometime, I need to slow down Lord. Just slow down to spend time with You and regain the very first love that I had forgotten.

Devotion, love, commitment...

I am imperfect, I am easily affected yet as You bring in people into my lives, they changed my thinking, they helped me.

Lord, today I come back to You, just as I am.

A lot of things I still don't understand but I willing to let go and stop talking and thinking about it.

For letting go and letting God is the greatest medication one can find on earth.

And that is the greatest gift You had ever give.

Come what may.

Now is the time to go.

Run with the fire.

Run with the vision!

Go, just go!

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Remembering the LORD @ 8:25 PM

The Journey and the Renewing...

I had such a tired but enjoyable weekend.

Had been attending CG on sat, and borrowed Zhi Xian's cap to wear. It caused me to have this urge to buy one too. I looked so hip when I wore it.



And then sat, I brought 3 friends' presents. A stone inscription on the story of "Footprint" for my dearest sister, Shi Min. The book called "5 Languages of Apology" for Edmund and for Guang Xiang, I forget which book I got for him, but I felt so bad for buying the gift so last min. I wanna to get the book "Moving in the Spirit" by Pastor Phil for him but it ran out of stock and when Guang Xiang heard it, he went crazy with me caused that the book that he wanted so much but it went right out of his hands. God, helps me to find the book? I don't like buying something that is sub-standard. I want to get something that is what people want and really impacted them. It taught me one lesson, next time get gifts earlier.

But I glad Edmund liked the book. I wanna to get him the "5 Languages of Love" but after walking so long at Attributes, the sale person told me was out of stock. I was so sad but then at night as he saw his gift, he smsed me to tell me that he liked the book. Thanks God! I remembered on my birthday he also brought me a book and just like how the book blessed me (even if I haven't finish it), the book I brought for him also blessed him. Brother, next year for my birthday, you should give me something else, so that next year birthday you can reap back something else. Haha...

Then at night supposed to have a chill out with Su Ee and a few others but one after another went to play pool and left Su Ee, Mandy, Zi Yun, Martin and Mike. We were supposed to go Clarke Quay TCC but ended up in Bugis TCC as we planned to look for Kim Seng but it so happened that he was having an off day. Hmmm... The lady at the counter was a bit attitude and after waiting for more than 15 min, we decided to go to the famous Wanton Mee store to have our very late dinner for we were tired and hungry. We were a bit upset because of the lady's attitude but in exchange, we saved quite a lot of cash.

Had been spending time talking some interesting things while we ate, and at the same time, we were planning for M&M day, Mike's birthday and also to have a chill out every alternate sat. It seemed like we had formed a group and we decided to spend weekend at various places, to enjoy and to fellowship.

Then at night still went Su Ee's place to stay and to chit-chat. Her laptop seemed to dislike me a lot. Always hung on me and it was actually very irritating, if not for Su Ee who asked me to be more gentle, I will be quite rough with it.

During that time, I found Abel and Mandy to be online. We disturbed Mandy and I chatted with Abel for a while. I found one thing that Abel said was quite true. Coffee club service really lost out to kopitiam service. It seemed like he also encountered something bad when he had a dine out that night. I agreed it to a certain extend but the environment at Coffee Club is always nicer than other places. So sad in a way...

Then Su Ee suddenly asked me what do I think a real man or a real woman is like and we started to share about it and she ended up typing down my comments in her blog. Crazy night we had, stayed until 3 am plus then we managed to sleep as I was helping her to set up a blog skin. Without caffine, I thought I will get knocked off but then Su Ee managed to keep me awake. Haha...

Then today went for Service. During our journey to expo, I saw a guy who I knew from testimony challenge one and a half year ago. I had once told Su Ee about this guy but it was my 1st time pointing it to her. It was such an embassrassed situation with the guy since he remembered me but I forget his name maybe that why whenever he saw him, he never dared to call me for the last time he done that 1 year ago, I looked at him like he was very weird. Then Su Ee said he looked short and I can't help but laughed caused he is around my height. The 1st time I knew him through the testimony challenge, he was taller than me by half a head and he chatted with me because we were the only 2 contestants and we were nervous but it seemed like the more we chat, the more nervous we were and he was a nice guy, he waited for me after I finished my testimony and then I discovered that he was from my school, he also just learned guitar, and we came to church on the same day! So funny when think about it then after that time, I forget his name and I was not able to make it for POS like he got me to promise to go so whenever I saw him, I shunned from him caused one time we saw one another during overnight prayer meeting and he called me but then I forget his name so don't know what to call him. But then, can see he is a mature believer by the way he carried himself and all. Example for all brothers. And sometime, life is interesting because of this little little encounters. Haha...

Then spending sometimes fellowshipping with members, went for a crazy shopping trip at Attributes, then we followed Cindy to Coffee Bean and met up with Chee Kiong. He was alone, waiting for Gwyn so Jolene, Irene, Kai Yun and I joined him. We had a nice chat with him and asked him about SOT and wow, after I heard about what SOT is like and how saving up is so important, my fire for SOT grew even more. Enjoying talking about the books that they studied in SOT and all. Then when Gwyn was done, I went to joined JY, Charlotte, Venus and Su Ee for fellowship. We talked about our dream, the kind of guy that we would want to meet, and about ministry. It was in a way an enjoyable time. Then we met Howe and one of his member. It seemed like they just finished their helping out at expo hall 1 and they joined us as we took the mrt.

Had a nice chat with JY after everyone left and I learned one important thing from him, certain that we heard, it is better not to pursuit about it but to let it gone out of us and also, about how to build a strong spiritual life. I really learnt something from him. Haha... Well JY 's words really impacted me for he was super steady when he said, things like this was better to let it be forgotten. Well brother, you really grew a lot and now is my turn to listen. =]

I was tired nonetheless, yet one thing in mind, I got to make sure I grow even further with God. Can't stand staying at the same place, need to go up higher! Just higher!

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Remembering the LORD @ 8:16 PM